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[Jo1]

Life's easy isn't it when everything is going well. Yes when it's not it's quite the opposite. But yes u have to carry on and pretend everything's ok. Yeah not doing the right thing at the moment. so what does God think yeH he is disappointed with me, yeah. u gotta be alright but wot if u ain't who's gonna be there for u.
What about relationships wot relationships do I have, none yeah I know the sorry for your self thing. I'm used to having to do it ALONE but what's new.
Yeah I'm depressed I'm very depressed, but who is really gonna care about that one. Mm...
Sorry this is not helping anyone, I feel for everyone here because I know wot it's like I want to be ok. But wot if I AINT. who is gonna pick up the pieces.
PLEASE don't read this if this is gonna make u feel worse,
I am INSIGNIFICANT. YUP. PAST CARING

 

[Jo1]

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[Jo1]

 

[Basha21]

Life's easy isn't it when everything is going well. Yes when it's not it's quite the opposite. But yes u have to carry on and pretend everything's ok. Yeah not doing the right thing at the moment. so what does God think yeH he is disappointed with me, yeah. u gotta be alright but wot if u ain't who's gonna be there for u.
What about relationships wot relationships do I have, none yeah I know the sorry for your self thing. I'm used to having to do it ALONE but what's new.
Yeah I'm depressed I'm very depressed, but who is really gonna care about that one. Mm...
Sorry this is not helping anyone, I feel for everyone here because I know wot it's like I want to be ok. But wot if I AINT. who is gonna pick up the pieces.
PLEASE don't read this if this is gonna make u feel worse,
I am INSIGNIFICANT. YUP. PAST CARING

I'm so sorry you are hurting so, jo. I hesitated to come on this forum because I struggled with depression SO much for years. I understand your feelings. You mentioned in another post about not feeling loved by God. He does love you, jo. Jesus died for you--if you'd been the only person on the planet, He still would have died--just for you.

There's a post on this forum at the top about who you are In Him. Please read these scriptures and read them again and again. Let them get into your heart so that you will come to know how very important you are to God and to the Body of Christ. Say them out loud. I used to do something like that. I made a tape. I sounded SO low. But after a few weeks, I was able to make a new tape and was in a somewhat better frame of mind. The devil is trying to attack my mind now and I'm praying, kicking the devil out of my head and hope I will persevere and not get where I've been at other times.

The devil is trying to steal from you. I know how hard it is, but try to keep your mind stayed on God. When the devil tries to plant those awful thoughts in your head, tell him he must flee in the Name of Jesus. He'll keep coming back, but keep telling him he's a liar and a defeated foe. Greater is He that is in you and he that is in the world.

Here's an exercise for you. Laugh at the devil. He's the deceiver and is roaming around looking for whom he may devour. Tell him he CAN'T have you. Jesus' Blood covers you and he can have no place in you. Laugh. At first its really, really hard. But do it anyway. Keep doing it--laugh him right out of your mind and your house. It takes some persistence (at least for me), but eventually he will back off. He will always try to put those thoughts in your head because he's sneaky and he know just where to get us. But the more we meditate on God's Word day and night, the more we listen to His Holy Spirit in us, the less of a foothold he can get in our lives.

Don't give up. I'm praying for you.