Mad at God For Asperger's

[117]

God gave me Asperger's syndrome and I am very mad at Him. He hurt me by doing this. People have made fun of me, taken advantage of me, and called me names. I have never had a girlfriend. Once, I found the girl of my dreams, but I was barely able to even speak to her. Now, she is going to another another college and I do not know where she is. I couldn't even ask her for her phone number. She is the kindest and most beautiful woman I have ever met. She is very intelligent, too. But because the Lord Almighty decided to give me Asperger's, I never was able to tell her how much I love her. I know this is very wrong, but sometimes I want to be able to make God suffer for what He did to me. Another reason for this is because every time I pray, He never answers my prayers for a cure. Could someone please help me? I constantly wish that I were to die or for someone to kill me. I feel this way because God made me defective and I am living in hell. PLEASE HELP ME!

 

[Sabertooth]

"ISA 29:16 You turn things upside down,
as if the potter were thought to be like the clay!
Shall what is formed say to him who formed it,
"He did not make me"?
Can the pot say of the potter,
"He knows nothing"?"

The reason you are so frustrated is because your life and ambitions are out of sync with God's plans for your life. We are all born into that scenario (as are the NTs).

Surrendering to God's Lordship/Salvation is the only way to get your life's direction in sync with its design, and it is a day-by-day process.

Jesus said (in Luke 9:24-26), "For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it. What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self? If anyone is ashamed of me and my words, the Son of Man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his glory and in the glory of the Father and of the holy angels."

For me, it isn't like I have anything better to do...

 

[117]

Thank you so much. I feel much better now.

 

[seamuskaxen]

I have Aspergers and I think of it as a blessing from God. Sure it can be a struggle at times, but God has blessed me with a thirst for knowledge, he has given me special interests that has given me friends who has Aspergers.

 

[Sabertooth]

BTW, welcome to the both of you to Christian Forums...

 

[Forge3]

"ISA 29:16 You turn things upside down,
as if the potter were thought to be like the clay!
Shall what is formed say to him who formed it,
"He did not make me"?
Can the pot say of the potter,
"He knows nothing"?"

The reason you are so frustrated is because your life and ambitions are out of sync with God's plans for your life. We are all born into that scenario (as are the NTs).

Surrendering to God's Lordship/Salvation is the only way to get your life's direction in sync with its design, and it is a day-by-day process.

Jesus said (in Luke 9:24-26), "For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it. What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self? If anyone is ashamed of me and my words, the Son of Man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his glory and in the glory of the Father and of the holy angels."

For me, it isn't like I have anything better to do...

This post was very kind and helped this member. God bless you

 

[Sabertooth]

 

[dabro]

Aw this breaks my heart....... Please trust God that He knows what He is doing and please PM me anytime you need a hand.

 

[LovedSparrow]

Welcome!

If it weren't for us Aspies and people with autism, we wouldn't have the Albert Einsteins, Bill Gates, fabulous musicians, inventors. (I hope that helps)

We all have our superpowers, once we find what ours is, God will use it mightily. What are your interests?

 

[onanewpath]

Mate i hear ya i'm aspie im 23 and never had a girlfriend but things do get better if you put your faith in god. God gave us the gift of thinking differently and taking things from a different angle "thinking outside the square" as they call it god knew that if we all thinked the same humanity would never progress.

Yes things are a struggle but that is a universal thing god will test us but it is nothing we cannot overcome if we put faith in him.

God bless you and chase her up mate you on facebook?

 

[yellowfree]

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[beakybird]

Hey my brother. I understand your pain. While I've never been formally diagnosed, I've always known something wasn't quite right, and after the things I've read, other people's explanations of how they feel, I believe I am Aspergers also. It's been through much difficulty and he grace of God that I've gotten this far without killing myself because of it.

What I think you need to do is tell God about it in prayer. If you're angry, He already knows. He also knows how He made you, and as hard as it may be to accept right now, try to cling to the fact that He did it for some reason and know that He has PROMISED to help you if you ask. PROMISED IT! He's not in the business of giving stones to his children when they are asking for bread (Luke 11:11) To have a promise from the God of all Creation is worth more than any single thing this Earth has to offer. Be honest with Him. Let it all out. Even if you have to scream it. Let Him know you believe Him but don't understand why you are the way you are. Let Him know if you think He's a mean God. Tell Him if you feel betrayed. And mostly ask Him to heal you. Ask Him to help you understand. Ask of Him whatever you will in the name of Jesus Christ. And then, you just gotta be a little patient. His time isn't our time, His ways are better than our ways. Just hold on with every last bit of strength you have and don't give up. Don't give up on life, and don't give up on God. The devil knows where you are in your situation too. And he really wants you to give up. Don't let him win.

I try to believe (sometimes unsuccessfully) that God's making me the way I am is my gift. All believers have a spiritual gift. (1 Corinthians 12:7-12) The gift of not being swept up in emotions and to analyze the Word of God in a way many cannot. An increased ability to see the order and logic of God's universe. You fit into the Body of Christ somewhere, you just have to keep searching. Read that again: YOU DO FIT IN TO THE BODY OF CHRIST. YOU BELONG. Aspbergers and all. I know that is one of the hardest things for me to get sometimes, but his Word says it so it HAS to be true. God is no liar. As much as you may see him as one.

I'm sure you're saddened by being lonely. But God can fix that too. I know that God answered my prayer for a wife. I cried out to him in my deepest of grief and he heard my cry.

 

[swashyrose]

I got diagnosed a few weeks ago, at first I was really bitter and mad at God, and I made sure he knew it. I'm glad he's a loving father and takes my outbursts in his stride. But Im starting to come to terms with it. An important part of that is realizing it's not an illness to be 'cured'. Our brains just have different priorities to most people, we are exceptional individuals and the world needs people like us. People with aspergers have the potential to, and have, change/d the world for the better. I've always noticed a certain amount of balance, no one type of person has it entirely good or bad, because we have such great potential to do great things and see insights and truths others cannot, feel and enjoy things more than others, etc, we also have our own difficulties and challenges on the other end, so we have to focus on appreciating and enhancing the positives. If you're very depressed about it, a psychologist can help you do this. It truly takes a special kind of person to be a good mate for an aspie, someone who can handle and understand you, someone strong and nurturing, God may have that person for you, even if you have met them already, he would of course wait til the right time and knows what's best for you, I am thankful now that God protected me from getting closer to people I was besotted with in the past, because now I know it wouldnt have worked or been the right timing. Experts are now ceasing to call AS a disorder, it's just an extreme way of being, and there is help available for the cons. I hope you eventually see your aspergers as a blessing and privelidge that outweighs the negatives, and thrive being your best self. All the best!

 

[JCFantasy23]

I don't believe God gives most people disorders and diseases. I believe He allowed mankind to evolve into what it will based on free will and what we do to ourselves, and through genetic flaws and changes in our lines we get certain conditions. I do believe He wants us to come to Him no matter how we were born and trust in Him to make the most of what we have.

Asperger's is hard to deal with and I'm sorry you're struggling. I hope it gets easier for you soon in relationships and with other people.

 

[dayhiker]

I had a real hard time with AS for many years, but God lead me to study people, to make people one of the things I was obsessed with observing. Over the years I've learn to understand many of the treats humans have and to know myself. This has allowed me finally to have some good relationships. So all I can say is if you want something start studying it and use the intelligence we are given to go learn about it.

 

[Sabertooth]

...that God protected me from getting closer to people I was besotted with in the past,...

Besotted. That is an interesting word...

 

[restlesspirit]

I am a self diagnosed aspie, i score very high on all tests that indicate it, I have also been a christain for most of my life, I thought for many years God made me defective,, now i see Im just wired different and Im content with that. I feel that the Holy Spirit guides me on how to be socially acceptable, and I feel that He has kept me from not being as severe with the autism as I might have been. Turn it all over to God.. ALL things work for the good for those that love God and are called according to HIS purpose. EMPHASIS on ALL things, good and bad.. we are aspies for a reason,, we have our place in His kingdom.

 

[equestria]

I am a self diagnosed aspie, i score very high on all tests that indicate it, I have also been a christain for most of my life, I thought for many years God made me defective,, now i see Im just wired different and Im content with that. I feel that the Holy Spirit guides me on how to be socially acceptable, and I feel that He has kept me from not being as severe with the autism as I might have been. Turn it all over to God.. ALL things work for the good for those that love God and are called according to HIS purpose. EMPHASIS on ALL things, good and bad.. we are aspies for a reason,, we have our place in His kingdom.

You should go see a professional. I know I score high on the Autistic spectrum, but I'm also bipolar, and some symptoms overlap. Also, if you actually are bipolar, a professional can give you the coping skills to not only function, but truly live.

 

[restlesspirit]

I have seen a professional.. the consensus was was that i was probably asbergers but because I was coping well and successful that there was no need for therapy,, I work in special education with autistic s and I applied a lot of the coping mechanisms that I learned about in teaching school to myself. Im happy and relatively successful at life and Im aware of my problem areas and working on those.

 

[dayhiker]

Hi restlesspirit .. welcome to CF.

I cope well and now love interacting with people. Took me years to get here tho.