Lying...

[startrekfan1]

Hey there guys,

It's been a while since my last post.

I thought I was getting a handle on my condition, but a new fear has cropped up.

I am scared about my baptism...... AGAIN!!!!!

I am worried that I lied when I accepted Jesus as savior.

I am trying to shut out the fear, but it seems so real...

When does a fear move from a genuine need and concern to a OCD rampage?

 

[Miss Elly]

I can tell you who is lying here and it is the devil, the enemy of our souls. Use the word of God against him. "There is now NO condemnation to them who are in Christ Jesus". Reject that fear and torment, it is NOT from God! Read the psalms in the bible, thank Jesus for his love, for he does love you very much. God bless you.

 

[startrekfan1]

I mean, I know that not everyone is honest 100% of the time, sometimes we tell little white lies, half truths, or guess when we don't know.

How do any of us know that that "yes" we said to accept Christ was the 100% flawless truth?

 

[ForeverHis777]

I used to feel these kinds of obsessions when I was a child. This is a great verse. This is from John when God is telling us who Satan is ""You are of your father the devil, and you want to do the desires of your father. He was a murderer from the beginning, and does not stand in the truth, because there is no truth in him. Whenever he speaks a lie, he speaks from his own nature; for he is a liar, and the father of lies." (John 8:44).

There is also a verse that tells us this about God "I am not the author of confusion."

So from these two verses we see that the Devil is the liar. Not you! And God cannot be putting these thoughts in your mind because He is not the author of confusion.

Hope this helps!

 

[startrekfan1]

I've watched a LOT of TV in my life, so much so that it affects my talking patterns.

I am not very social, somewhat in part do to my illness, so sometimes I use this grandiose style of communicating when trying to relate in conversation.

For example, when my preacher said "Yeah, they [Catholics] believe that Peter was Jes,us Christ's direct representative on earth." I responded "I'm gonna have to say JESUS was Jesus Christ's direct representative on earth" in a style like you would see a sitcom star would say.

The problem is that sometimes I feel like I am not actually feeling the emotion I am portraying, and that I was insincere during baptism. I fear that I just acted that I received salvation instead of actually receiving it and that my faith is just one big hollow sham.

Scary huh?

 

[startrekfan1]

A few days have passed, still trying to quell the fear, but it still manifests here and there. I have boldfaced lied in my life. I just don't know whether or not I have done it when accepting Jesus.

 

[gracealone]

HI,
One of the biggest pitfalls of religious OCD is the attempt to check our emotions or feelings to see if they are genuine enough. "Am I really believing... really having faith...am I really repentent...do I really desire God etc.?" The intense mental efforts that we use to try and ascertain whether or not our feelings are validating our faith removes our ability to feel those emotions as they occur naturally. Instead we end up in a mental frenzy of trying desperately to find some sort of proof or reassurance that "our faith is still locked." (quote Marcb) Then one emotion takes center stage - FEAR! - and drives all the others out to the perimeter where we cannot feel them.
The solution... stop checking. "If our heart condemns us... God is greater than our heart."
Praying for you.
Mitzi

The problem is that sometimes I feel like I am not actually feeling the emotion I am portraying, and that I was insincere during baptism. I fear that I just acted that I received salvation instead of actually receiving it and that my faith is just one big hollow sham.

Scary huh?[/quote]

 

[sunmicroman]

Faith is not feeling. I battle with that all the time as since I am depressed, anxious, and have OCD my feelings naturally aren't going to be reliable and can be trusted. But I still want that euphoric feeling I had when I first accepted the Lord to be there in order for me to believe I am still accepted. I have sinned and repented, but question whether my repentance is sincere (even when I know I would never do what I did again).

For me I just need to try and accept that my feelings are flighty and God is not. This is so hard but is what I must do in order to know God loves me and accepts me still. I know He does as there is providential evidence for it (and that has nothing to do with feelings) and I do feel Him from time to time but OCD messes with your feelings and thought process so much it is hard to really believe it.

But just because I don't believe it doesn't mean it's true and I as well as you need to understand that we are part of God's kingdom and His children even when we don't feel it.

We need to remember this verse and seal it in our mind:

John 6:37 "All that which the Father giveth me shall come unto me; and him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out."