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[Jo1]

Hi everyone has anyone noticed with depression. Sometimes you get a really lovely day, where you dont feel down at all and your quite happy. Then other days like today, Its a real struggle and your low. Then it goes to other extreme and your really low.Ive been like this for a long period of time.

 

[4hurting]

Yes, but this can be dependent on factors, depends, if brain wise, maybe not, as I finally accept not everything is the enemy or God teaching us a lesson or sin.
For instance some Christians might get cancer, not sinned one bit, in any major way, obey God, fight satan and have no bitterness and forgive and everything, pray, the lot.

However they did not eat right, or healthy, or ate things that might, like Aspartame in chewing gum and soft drinks cause cancer perhaps.

Point is for some, like me, if sun shining and spring and nice, just right for me weather, I can go cycling and golf, etc.
Feel good.
Another day I might be tired, might be in work and have someone, even if jokingly, meaning did not mean it that nastily, say something I get down, rejected, run to my sin for comfort, gives me guilt, fear of God, I'm a Christian, should not be doing that, might go to hell when I die, etc.

Then depression, etc.

I find, and like adventure, so long as does not really effect me, trouble is, it always affects someone, like recent deaths and injuries in the recent UK snow falls.
But for me, suppose it gives me something, action stations, battle the snow, turn on the water punps as heavy rain comes to avoid flooding of gardens from and back.
Watch live news in the US for hurricanes and whatever else:
http://www.livenewscameras.com/

I become serious me, no time to get down, depressed I'm occupied.

Boredom another big factor.
One reason in this small like Christian booklet I recall, think it said in the struggling with lust section, keep busy.

It's true, boredom, not doing things for God, not having a mission often leads us to sin, or get down, depressed, upset, dwell on things, think too much, so on.

Which probably explains why I feed off the excitement, some fear of those events I described above, unless too much at once happens, then I get to start to worry and maybe feel a panic like attack might be possible, which I have to block.

So go through the above list, check, I would say, please, please keep a diary, and when you have a good day, note things down as you go along, unless you have a good memory.

So for example, sunny today and got a chance to go out and spend some money shopping that I saved up to treat myself to that.....

Today I feel so lonely and depressed, the weather is cold and overcast and grey and someone just snapped at me for no reason on the forum, I didn't even do anything, probably not me, just in a bad news, but only made me feel worse.

We see the difference, first sunny, getting out, fresh air, spending bit of money, treating yourself, alive, free.
Second situation we see dull day, depressing in itself, feel hemmed in, can't go out, cold, miserable, someone, the enemy worked through, without them knowing it, snapped and had a go at you, upset you, playing on your mind.

I think from that you can see a pattern.

If none of that, may be drugs and I HATE to say that as imbalance in the brain somewhere, etc.

Anyway, hope that helps some, blessings, Lee.

 

[Winter]

Oh my goodness! What a coincedance! I was thinking the same thing today! Yes - this is very true for me and it happens during the course of the day. One hour I am calm and ok - the next I want to just die.

Sometimes its like you said. I have a good day - and then I have a bad day. But its crazy when it fluctuates throughout the day ...

 

[Jo1]

Oh my goodness! What a coincedance! I was thinking the same thing today! Yes - this is very true for me and it happens during the course of the day. One hour I am calm and ok - the next I want to just die.

Sometimes its like you said. I have a good day - and then I have a bad day. But its crazy when it fluctuates throughout the day ...

((((((hugs)))))) bless u. Know just how it feels.

 

[Jo1]

I feel really crappy today and lonely

 

[4hurting]

Yes but why, are you tired, any reason, is weather bad, or you just feel crappy, why, hard sometimes when we are up to understand why someone feels down.
We tend to think, gotta be a reason, for me I know those reasons, so tend to suspect there is a root cause for everyone, but have to say to myself sometimes, time of the mo (can't say that) oh oops, sorry, sometimes women especially, hormones and things perhaps, you know, can have an effect.

So see what I say as encouragement, way I think, but sometimes my posts are perhaps read as if I'm growling, GRRRRRRRRR, lol, why I normally lol a lot, not cause I actually sit here laughing out loud, but my way saying no offense, and I mean well.
(((jo1))).
I'll continue to add to your blessings count, I don't want the darn things, seems I'm gaining them with every posting, lol.
Short of stopping posting which will no doubt please some, or many, I like to think it would not please, or least serve purpose for me feeding off others and then feeding off of me.

That's why we do church, oh okay, sure, to worship and pay homage to God, sure, but place to meet and fellowship.
Trouble is, we probably have so many on forums across the internet like this, that go to real churches and say I'm fine, while their just dying inside and say nothing.
But hidden behind a computer screen type stuff to that effect.

How sad and tragic though is that.

 

[Jo1]

I just hate all this

 

[CaffeinatedBen]

The other day I had two glasses of wine, and the next day I was so low a friend felt he had to intervene. Whenever I have alcohol, as much as that seems to help the depression short term, I always feel even worse the next day. I'm sure this doesn't help, but I do understand the good days and bad days, and how sometimes they happen from one day to the next without any to much explanation. But do watch any alcohol intake, it won't help in the long run.

 

[petrospetra]

Hi Jo1,
What you've described there is completely normal for someone suffering from depression.

This is what I wrote in my diary on 16th May 1990-
Two weeks ago I felt amost normal again,
But was I too hopeful?
The last two or three days have been almost as bad as before,
And it has caught me off guard.

I guess we need to have realistic expections while waiting to recover from depression, and recover we can. After I read "Self Help for Your Nerves" by Dr Claire Weeks in late July 1990, which taught me how to break the fear-adrenalin-fear cycle that caused all of depression's distressing symptoms, by:

1. accepting each of depression’s symptoms as being part of our life, as if it were background music
2. learning to float past the troubles by learn to live with them as part of our life
3. letting time pass, to allow us to heal.

Do the above breaks the flow of adrenalin, and we begin to recover.

Within a month of my reading “Self Help for Your Nerves,” a significant number of my symptoms had diminished or ceased altogether. Some of the symptoms took longer to fade away, but by reacting to them in the correct way, they no longer had the same power or intensity. Some symptoms, especially those that required I retrain my thought processes, lasted longer, but in time, they too faded away.

Now I am by God's grace free of depression.

God bless
Peter

 

[sk8Joyful]

Hi everyone
has anyone noticed:
Sometimes you get a really lovely day, where your quite happy.

I feel really crappy today and lonely.
Ive been like this for a long period of time. I just hate all this

Hi Jo
You sure are smart! in that you Notice! - Notice what?
how emotional Roller...coasters perpetuate; to the point,
of thinking Feelings go UP, & must come down. But that's not GOD's will.

Sooo, what is THE one really Wonderful... thing *you, precious GOD's child* can do?? Simple.
Get yourself FEELING LOVELY & quite Happy and Continuing... kewl, eh

Babes know how; and you know this too!
.

 

[Jo1]

I was feeling wonderfully happy, then crashed down really low again thinking about hospital

 

[CyberPaladin]

Jo1 I'm sorry to hear that you crashed again.

 

[sk8Joyful]

Hey Jo
When people care, to write you positive posts - do you READ them?
and nourish yourself with Positive-thoughts as a result.
just wondering...

You know, another self-help practice: Avoid altogether
reading any other's depressed and negative stuff, particularly in this section.
(tho much of CF, & churches in general,) are that lost.
so
for breaking your self-harm cycle, do not go to such forums, do yourself this favor.
and your (husband & you)
do you both share? positive-hobbies together ,
like exercising... possibly, or some Learning-classes you can (enjoy... together).

in CHRIST enjoy... Jo

 

[sk8Joyful]

Hi again Jo, and everybody

Please do yourself 1 of the biggest favors: Daily,
as often as you like, say both inside your soul, as well as out loud:
"Dear Heavenly Daddy,
THANK you! for creating all the wonders... in your entire universe.
THANK you! for creating this beautiful earth... in all its Colors, & Variations.
THANK you! for creating us humanity: our soul , & mind , & body .
THANK you! for coming in the form of Jesus Christ, serving as our personal Savior.
THANK you! for creating our Joyful... Imagination,
so we can dream & aim & learn & grow-to-LOVE
more like you, for in-Christ, I can do ALL things.
THANK you! for creating our body to perpetually heal,
such that I can LIVE-overflowing with endless bliss...
THANK you so much for ALL your LOVE, and
for ALL the JOY I choose feeling forevermore...
and
dear Jo, the more you Sincerely-live... this prayer
this Heaven is ALL you allow time for Annie
.