Love.

[Ryno]

There is this girl, I have known her for about 4 years now and I undoubtedly, truthfully, love her more than anything I could ever imagine (besides Jesus of course ) I have felt this about her for at least 2 years and everything that we have been through has not changed that one bit. The way she looks into my eyes and says my name makes me feel absolute bliss. Every time I am around her I feel different. I feel loved, cared for. I feel like I have a place in this life, and that I matter.
She has had issues dealing with her sexuality and has felt at times that she is a lesbian. She told me this at dinner on the night of our Prom in April. I explained to her that nothing will ever change the way I feel about her. That I am always going to be by her side, no matter what.
I have been driving her to school in the mornings and taking her home after, we usually see each other after school and she comes to my baseball games that I umpire. I plan date nights and we go out to eat and have fun and laugh and cry and talk about our feelings and have heart to hearts' and talk about everything.
Last week it all stopped.
One day she wanted to walk to school instead of me taking her, she didn't respond to my text messages, she didn't answer my call or call me back. This had never happened before and it was scaring me beyond belief, in fact I still am scared. We haven't talked in a week and I feel like she is ignoring me.
All I want is her friendship, even if "us" may never work out. I feel so selfish for feeling this way but I don't know if I can do anything about it.
I really need someone to talk to right now and I know I can trust CF to help me.

Dear Jesus Christ Our Lord,
Please watch over all of mankind today as we wage our constant battle with Satan himself. Please Pray for us Mother Mary at the time of our death. I thank you God for everything we have in this wonderful life, for without you we would not be. You creation is a masterpiece beyond value. I ask only for your guidance Lord, for your Strength. I ask you for forgiveness Lord. Amen.

 

[Xenon]

I undoubtedly, truthfully, love her more than anything I could ever imagine

All I want is her friendship

I'll tell you right now that these two feelings do not mix. You want to date her. It is likely that you're scared because to you it really is more than friendship. I'm not trying to be mean, but the sooner that you accept how you really feel, the quicker you can know what to do about this.

 

[Ryno]

I am just scared right now man. I Know in my heart that I love her more than the world itself (I know how that sounds coming from someone my age, but it is the way I feel). I just would rather have her friendship then nothing at all. Thank you for responding

 

[Echetus]

Ecclesiastes- "The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning, where as the heart of the fool is in the house of myrrh."

Love is great, but its disappointing. Theres an equal chance that youll have to settle in the end, never winning that triumph of emotion as you once did. But then again who knows this could be a little test on her part. But in conclusion I say pray for emotional satifisfaction and everything will be fine. For maybe you cant get what you want, but youll get what you need.

 

[Ryno]

Want isn't something I like to speak of, I find our perception of "want" is entirely selfish. A necessary evil so to speak. I know that God is here for me, and some things have happened today/yesterday that has the situation looking up

 

[TheZach]

I'll tell you right now that these two feelings do not mix. You want to date her. It is likely that you're scared because to you it really is more than friendship. I'm not trying to be mean, but the sooner that you accept how you really feel, the quicker you can know what to do about this.

I agree that these feelings never really mix, but disagree on what you should do.

Your primary goal here should be seeing what God wants you to do. If God wants you to pursue it, then do so - but only with is blessing.

 

[Ryno]

It is meant to be, I know it. I feel it. Thank you for those that have helped me.

 

[Aibrean]

Are you really Catholic?

 

[StarryEyes]

Love is more than a feeling. Please don't misunderstand, I'm not at all saying you don't love her. I don't know that.. it just seemed like you're describing your feelings a lot and love goes beyond that. I'm so glad that God's Love is never disappointing.

 

[Ryno]

Are you really Catholic?

That is the sect I find most appealing and is consistent with what I believe.
Is there something wrong with that?

 

[RainChick]

Have you heard anything from her yet? I hope things work out peacefully!

It's sounds to me like she's pulling away from you, probably to keep from hurting you. If she's dealing with her sexuality than she probably doesn't find guys very attractive at the moment, and attraction is a big part of dating at this age. I'm sure she knows how much you care, but isn't ready to be with you and doesn't want to send the wrong signals by hanging out with you so much. That's what I'd do if I were in her shoes. I'd say, give her space and let her know that you're there for her and want to keep at least a friendship. Hope things work out for you!