Theres this guy, Ben that I really like! We always got to go out together but always in a group! In this group, theres this girl, HURT who will always put up a grumpy face as if I've offended her. Her attitude really puts me off and made me feel very bad about myself and gives me a feeling that i shouldn;t get close to Ben. I even asked Ben is there something I did that upset her! He just brushed it off and said nothing at all. And I didnt really go and think about it.
My feeling for Ben was so great that I feel the need to declare my feelings to him.
Before my declaration, I asked him if he has got a girlfriend. He answered NO.
Then I even ask him if theres anything between him and HURT, He said NO
Before that I prayed to God for the courage and strength. With that, I told him my feelings to him. It jus feel so great to tell him my feeling. He didn't reject me straight away and he was man enough to said Thank for my frankness and he appreciated it. I accepted the answer. Just hoping we still can be friend.
After that, nothing much happened; we still went out as usual.
Until one day, I heard from a friend that both of Ben and HURT are indeed a couple. My world came crashing down. I feel so deeply hurt and betrayed!
Its like from the beginning my instinct are correct! Why does he have to lie to me in the first place, coz of all the girls I told myself if he has got a girlfriend, I hope it wont be HURT!!!!!
I confronted Ben about the whole matter and he jus told me theres something that he cant tell me right now! And that he said that for some reason he can't annouce his relation with HURT to everyone!!! I just felt so lost and sad thereafter.
I seem to get over it now but deep down it still hurt whenever I heard or see them together! And I think I still cant let go (Im still trying to learn to let go!!!!). The problem is HURT don't know I like Ben! And I have to pretend and can't tell anyone they are a couple!!!!
I'm glad to have friends who stood by me when I fell and need a shoulder to cry on. I'm believing God will give me a better one. Someone who will cherish and love me but MUST love God first.
My feeling for Ben was so great that I feel the need to declare my feelings to him.
Before my declaration, I asked him if he has got a girlfriend. He answered NO.
Then I even ask him if theres anything between him and HURT, He said NO
Before that I prayed to God for the courage and strength. With that, I told him my feelings to him. It jus feel so great to tell him my feeling. He didn't reject me straight away and he was man enough to said Thank for my frankness and he appreciated it. I accepted the answer. Just hoping we still can be friend.After that, nothing much happened; we still went out as usual.
Until one day, I heard from a friend that both of Ben and HURT are indeed a couple. My world came crashing down. I feel so deeply hurt and betrayed!
Its like from the beginning my instinct are correct! Why does he have to lie to me in the first place, coz of all the girls I told myself if he has got a girlfriend, I hope it wont be HURT!!!!! I confronted Ben about the whole matter and he jus told me theres something that he cant tell me right now! And that he said that for some reason he can't annouce his relation with HURT to everyone!!! I just felt so lost and sad thereafter.
I seem to get over it now but deep down it still hurt whenever I heard or see them together! And I think I still cant let go (Im still trying to learn to let go!!!!). The problem is HURT don't know I like Ben! And I have to pretend and can't tell anyone they are a couple!!!!
I'm glad to have friends who stood by me when I fell and need a shoulder to cry on. I'm believing God will give me a better one. Someone who will cherish and love me but MUST love God first.
to you Highly Favoured. I know this situation has hurt you and more than confused you. But, I don't think you did anything wrong in it. You were very honest with your feelings to Ben and you should be proud that you had the courage to do so. It isn't easy to share your heart with someone when you don't know how they will receive it. And looking at his actions, I don't think he is someone I would want to trust my heart to at this point in time.
