Lost my temper

[broken4him]

In the three years that I have been dx I have not lost my temper like this. It was one sentence but was loaded with cuss words and anger.
What I was upset about was truly something to be upset about. But not handle the way that I handle it. I scared myself. Because I turned my head toward my husband and just let out this horrible sentence at the top of my lungs.
Pdoc is changing some meds again I am not sure if that is where that came from.
Please keep me in your prayers.
Thanks.
Sandra

 

[Alive again]

I have done this and it is for me a symptom of my hypomanias. I always feel so bad so quickly because it is the opposite of everything I stand for that I quickly become extremely suicidal. Often my anger is directed at dumb little things, but I have difficulty dealing with any strong anger correctly. I have escalated in my worst angers into hitting my husband. It is horrible to admit, but hiding from those truths do not help me learn how to deal with my anger in a healthy way. I have made much progress, but do have to keep an eye on my emotions still. The right med and counseling about coping has helped me tremendously.

Praying for you!!!

 

[broken4him]

You know alive now that I think about it I have been hypomanic. We have started christmas shopping for the grandchildren. I have been so excited child like excitement! Hm, you have given me something to really think about. I think I need to bring this up with my pdoc.
Thank you
Sandra

 

[spdnet75]

Broken4him, I'm certain that your husband will be able to understand that you accidently had one of those "moments" that we all loath so much. I can relate to what Alive said in that it's an almost instant combination of fear and sadness that comes over us when those things happen.

I'm very lucky to have a family and group of friends who are able to sort of keep me in check and they know that Holidays and other situations that may affect me emotionally or increase my level of tension are the most likely to send me into a bout of mania.

Unfortunately today, there doesn't appear to ba a sure-fire way to place that component of our illness on the shelf, but if we try to keep a little analasys of how we are doing personally, we can help to minimize these episodes.

Many of us keep a journal of sorts. I sometimes look at things that I have put in mine a few days prior and think that I was really behaving a bit odd.

The best defense is what you have already mentioned. Being honest with yourself and with your doctor can make a world of difference in your overall condition.

I'll keep you in my thoughts and hope that you are headed toward many happy and joyous days this Holiday Season!

Take care.
Stephen

 

[berry2000]

I have had outburst like these. I'm having a hard time reconciling it with my Christianity...it being the opposite of what i stand for as well...I don't really know if it is a bipolar symtom for me...but I never was this angry before the med's.

 

[mysojourn]

I prayed for you Sandra. This sort of thing happens, but it's nothing to beat yourself up over. We are all human and God gave us emotions.

 

[Ruby Moon]

I lose my temper alot, and sometimes say very unkind things.

for u

 

[broken4him]

Thank you everyone for your words of wisdom they have helped me so much. Just hearing that others understand helps so much.

 

[angelkiss]

I've surely had my share of outbursts and this seems to be quite common with this dx. I have found myself feeling quite embarrassed for the things I've done and said, but they are outbursts that come and hit and run me over afore I realize it. :o People who know me really well, know that I don't really mean to act in such a way, but it's a little harder for others.
You're in our prayers.
's and es!!