Lost My Memory (but gtting it back piece by piece, little by little. . . I hope.)

[Tzav]

Two months ago, I wasn't feeling good and stayed home, alone, from services. I was using my computer at the moment, then I felt an odd feeling in my head, top center, that made me stop and pay attention. Soon the feeling became stronger, like I was somehow being zapped -- I don't know how else to describe it -- like it was electrical or something. I did not pass out or fall asleep, but I felt that way for about 1 minute and a half, then the feeling went on from there to a somewhat exhilarating, pleasing, happy feeling, for about 4 minutes, maybe less. When it was over, I turned back to my computer, to go back to what I had been doing about 5 minutes earlier, and I could not continue.

I could not remember how to start. I didn't know if I should be able to just start typing, if I needed to restart the computer, or what. Deciding to restart, I realized I didn't know how. Not willing to give in to this, I tried several things then eventually stopped trying . . . I think. I don't remember for sure.

I left the computer and bed to walk and think -- to ponder what was happening -- and realized I had lost my memory. I felt very lost about what I was doing.

Not willing to stay in this condition, I tried various things to get back on track, to just remember life.

More . . . .

 

[Tzav]

Yes, it is barely 2 months later, and I have gained a lot, but so much is still missing.

You can see that I am able to use my computer now, but I see posts I have created here and elsewhere, and I don't remember the incident that they mention. I am copying them and putting them in my diary, to help me regrow my memories. I am now recalling some things, but other things are still unremembered.

• I have very short general memories.
  
• I think my personality has changed, but I think I am nicer, more compassionate, than before.
  
• I am more compulsive with regard to responsibility -- as in I am less likely to put things off and more likely to do what I should . . . I think . . . !
  
• I lied today. I made every excuse to myself for doing it, but I know I hate lies. I fought with myself for doing it, then admitted I had lied and told the truth. THIS horrifies me! I don't ever want to lie again! It is such a stupid, deliberate affront to my L-RD!!
• I have occasional unusual feelings throughout the day -- euphoric feelings -- that are pleasant but, at the same time, disturbing because I know it can't be "normal."
• I don't sleep well and tend to only sleep when totally exhausted, while doing other things, like writing on my computer or trying to read.
• When I specifically go to bed to sleep, I only sleep a little while then awake over and over through the night.
  
• Oh, there's more, but . . . .

I think I had a mini-stroke. I didn't go to the doctor until very recently, about a month and a half after the incident, because I didn't like my doctor and have been merely putting up with him. I changed doctors immediately, but I am not sure of her either. I have a doctor appt Monday, but I can't remember what for.

I am days from age 70. I am married -- second marriage after both being widowed -- and we've been married 30 - 32 years. I can't remember how long right now. We each had our children -- 2 each -- with our previous spouses.

Is that all I need to tell you?

 

[Tzav]

Oh -- I thought, until today, that I had regained about 85% of my lost memories, but today, I think that percentage is only 70%.

Some more things I either don't remember or about which I remember little:

• I can't remember all the books of the Bible in order, and I know I used to know them.
• The Bible is often like reading a brand new book, never before seen.
• I remember many of the happy parts of my life but have forgotten many (not all) of the unpleasant things.
• I got a major shock about 2 weeks after this happened, when I learned that a young woman, a friend to me in my husband's family, with her two girls, had all been shot and killed by her adopted son. It was hard to deal with doing the first mourning again. This was very difficult.
• I do not remember that John F. Kennedy, Jr. had died. This really makes me wonder what other things like this I don't remember.
  
• . . . .
  I will come back and edit the above list, as I remember: it is good exercise for me.

What do you think happened?
Has anything like this happened to you or to someone you know well?
What do you think it is?
What would you do?

 

[Daniel C]

Oh -- I thought, until today, that I had regained about 85% of my lost memories, but today, I think that percentage is only 70%.

What do you think happened?
Has anything like this happened to you or to someone you know well?
What do you think it is?
What would you do?

Hi Tzav


I don't know what happened but I do know what action I would take if it was me. I would consult a doctor to see what the medical experts think as they can guide you best on this issue.

I could guess all types of things but i'm not a trained doctor,so I can't speak with authority. I think that's the direction you need to go in to get the best resolve.

All the best.

 

[Tzav]

Thank you, Daniel C. Of course, you are right. The reason I am hesitating is I have issues with the lack of logical care I get from my medical group, and we are stuck with them. This has been a difficulty for several years now. I hope the doctor I recently changed to will do better, but so far, I am far from sure. . . .

 

[paul1149]

I will come back and edit the above list, as I remember: it is good exercise for me.

Maybe it would be good to keep a daily journal of your thoughts and memory recall. It would be an exercise of the brain and also a help to keep things in memory.

I don't know anything about mid- to long-term memory loss. But short-term memory loss is often a part of the Lyme and its co-infectants experience. One help in that case has been herbs and supplements that thin the blood, allowing it to flow better through the brain. Ginko, NAC, low-dose aspirin and others are used for that. I'm not a doctor so this is just informational, perhaps something to research and ask your doctor about.

 

[Tzav]

Maybe it would be good to keep a daily journal of your thoughts and memory recall. It would be an exercise of the brain and also a help to keep things in memory.

I don't know anything about mid- to long-term memory loss. But short-term memory loss is often a part of the Lyme and its co-infectants experience. One help in that case has been herbs and supplements that thin the blood, allowing it to flow better through the brain. Ginko, NAC, low-dose aspirin and others are used for that. I'm not a doctor so this is just informational, perhaps something to research and ask your doctor about.

Thank you for this advice. I do keep an online diary -- a continuous diary started before this happened. When I lost my memories, I turned to that diary, in order to learn what had been going on. I have found it a useful resource and have been using it since then. Invaluable to me now!

Thank you, too, for the information about possible helps -- the aspirin (I do take this). I will check into the idea of blood-thinners.