lost faith

[AlmostOver]

hi my names chris and i serve with the royal marines i have lost faith in all of mankind and find myself more and more angry everyday and im scared im losing touch with reality and christianity.

while i was serving in afghanistan 2 1/2 years ago my best freind was shot dead in a routine operation, i constantly blame myself everyday for his death he was only a couple of yards in front of me when he was shot i keep thinking but only what if i was in front of him, he would still be alive and his son would still have a father and his wife would still have a husband.

how could god take away such a good guy with a bright future? i often ask why didnt he take me.

 

[Petrova]

hi my names chris and i serve with the royal marines i have lost faith in all of mankind and find myself more and more angry everyday and im scared im losing touch with reality and christianity.

while i was serving in afghanistan 2 1/2 years ago my best freind was shot dead in a routine operation, i constantly blame myself everyday for his death he was only a couple of yards in front of me when he was shot i keep thinking but only what if i was in front of him, he would still be alive and his son would still have a father and his wife would still have a husband.

how could god take away such a good guy with a bright future? i often ask why didnt he take me.

Hi Chris

I've only joined here today - (and didn't read all the rules yet - sorry!)- so I hope it's o.k. to reply like this.

My heart goes out to you, because you have had such trauma to deal with.
To lose your best friend in such circumstances is horrific. Sorry to hear that you blame yourself - none of it was your fault. Your friend lost his life, but you have had to suffer so much every day since he died.

Life often isn't fair or just, but God loves us, and I believe that when we die, we will be able to see that even in our darkest hours, God was there for us. When we go to be with Him, we will see the reasons why things happened on earth - and any pain we suffered because of those events will be gone.

I will pray for you, Chris, that you will get the strength you need to keep going, and to feel more at peace with life. You have a life ahead of you, and you can be a good partner, friend, and colleague to others. I will pray that you are able to get the comfort and support that you need.

Best wishes and prayers to you. Take care.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

God didn't kill your friend.
The guy who pulled the trigger did.
As far as losing faith in humanity, I don't think that's such a bad thing.

 

[Ivy]

You sound like a really brave guy Don't beat up on yourself for not being able to control everything........none of the rest of us can, either.

And thanks for all you did for our country!

 

[CephasWalking]

Chris. God bless you with his precious mercy and kindness, an overwhelming sense of his love and presence. Christ was there then, and Christ is with you right now. He knows your heart, he knows what is happening and what has happened to you, what your eyes have seen, and it grieves him as well. War is wretched and humanity without Jesus IS lost. It is not surprising you have lost faith in humanity. We were never meant to have faith in humanity, but in God. Jesus loves you so much, Chris. What happened to your friend is NOT your fault. War is not your fault. I wish I knew what to say. Let God carry you for a while; He can and wants to hold you up. I want to suggest that you seek some Christian counseling, or talk to your pastor or someone who can help you talk through what you're going through. You shouldn't go this alone. Thank you for having the bravery to talk about this. Please continue to be honest with yourself and God about how you feel. I just prayed for you.
Don't give up.

 

[chickenhearted]

Hugs to you hon. I know you're dealing with a lot and I to be honest I don't think I know what to say except, don't lose heart. God DOES have a plan.

If you ever need to talk, I'm here.