Lost and looking........

[Jibbernaut]

Why am i here? I don't know. Just randomly searching this and that on google and here I am. My religious status? Hmm, i would say currently lost and looking. Looking for what? Anything. When I was younger, I thought I understood. I thought I saw God's wishes and ways and I was happy. But as I entered university and lived in residence, I lost touch. Stopped attending church, stopped praying at night, and eventually, i stopped believing. The past 5 years, I've lived my life without God and I don't know if i feel guilty about it. There's so many things i question about life these days that I feel so lost sometimes. A lot of stuff has happened and its all culminated to the point where I wonder sometimes whether or not God's out there or whether or not he cares about me. I use to be the kind of guy that could just believe, without evidence, without influence, and without direction. I use to think God was the greatest guy in the world but now, I don't know. Why do all these bad things happen to me? Is it actually part of God's plan for me? If so, i need to see tangible evidence. I need to hear him. I need him to talk to me so I know. I've reached that point where blind faith is no longer an option for me. I can't truly believe in something that I don't 100% know is there. Is that bad? Maybe. But i can't help it. Tell me something, would it be wrong to get back into religion for the wrong reasons, but stay for the right ones? I need to know. Cause right now, I can't start trying to believe again for God. I just can't. But I can start trying to believe in God for someone else. Call it pitiful, call it whatever u wish. But thats the only starting path I can find right now. Long intro eh?

Daniel

 

[Victorian Rose]

Welcome! I hope you find what you are looking for. I was lost and looking 4 years ago. I am not any more.

 

[Blessed-one]

moving this into the christian struggle forum.

i wouldn't call the faith of christianity a blind one. Even with faith, you have to base it on something, and no one says the christian road is an easy one. Someone might take a shorter time to come to God fully in understanding, while some might take a wrong turn and walk the long way instead. Whatever reason that is sustaining you in the search, eventually you'll have to confront yourself. I don't think there's a right or wrong motive, for with God, things will unfold in an unpredictable manner.

as to believe without direction.. you mean what God plans for your life? are you familiar with the gospel? a little bit of the bible?

 

[~Katya~]

Welcome! Everyone goes through times of questioning their faith. Please keep seeking God.

 

[Sharky]

Hey there.

Why is God so difficult to believe? Is it the effects of university? I know how it feels. I'm actually going through it now. Uni can turn a normal kid into a greeny, hippy, or some political genius mostly from the student influences and unions or gatherings.

But don't buy into that. Unis love to debate a whole 500 page book on one bible verse but they just want to sound smart.

Live by faith not by sight.

I went through times of doubt too just like you described. But i decided to just believe because why? Just because i wanted Him.

 

[HoneyComb Son]

God is real man.. He is there waiting for you..God is love..He is a great person to have around.. This life is only temporary..eternity is were its at...

God bless and peace be with you

 

[Jinnapiban]

Welcome Daniel....

The good news I have for you is this:

God is always waiting for us.... no matter how long we take to turn to Him. He knows everything there is to know about you & even better... He loves you so much that He died for you! He will reveal himself to you in whatever way is required so that you can know Him!

Also remember, knowing & loving Him will not make your life smooth & carefree. That's not part of the plan..... that was quite the obstacle for me. I know it may sound trite, but magnify Jesus instead of your problems & He will overshadow all of them!

 

[caillan]

Daniel

I know in my experience that if you ask, you receive, if you seek you will find. Just make it clear that you are seeking Him with all your heart. Personally, I went on an Alpha course, I asked my pastor to pray for me as I searched for Him, and I seeked Him with all my heart because I knew that I could no longer live without Him. If you look for Him with all your heart you will find Him.

May God bless you!

 

[devoted daughter]

I have a response for you, but I'll save it in case you choose not to come back. You'll be in my prayers, whether or not you come back and see this message.