Hi, I am new and looking for support for a number of things but smoking is on my list.
I have tried everything i can think of and nothing worked till now, well it is kind of working. I switch to e cigs. I like them better than smoking, but I still smoke a few regs now and then. I just got e juice with no nicotine so I am hoping to break the addiction.
Smoking has gotten bad for me it makes me depressed and takes my energy, and I can not breath when i smoke. If i don't stop I am going to have real problems. i smoke to control my anger and run from my emotions I don't like. So I find my self getting very angry when i don't smoke.
I realize I am serving cigs and not God by turning to smoking instead of letting God help me with my problems. I hate a part of me. there is this side of me which is arrogant prideful cares very little for people. That side of me just wants to be left alone, but that is not who I am. That is not my heart, so my heart and this dark side of me fight when i don't smoke. Smoking is like the peace pipe for the two. Any way tomorrow I start my new juice and not smoking at all again. Prayers would be a big help. I don't know what else to try i have tryed the patch, gum, lozenges, chantix and all together too. What gets me all the time is the dark side of me. i don't like thinking I have this side like that. I love God, i want to be what he wants me to be.
Any way thanks for reading.
I have tried everything i can think of and nothing worked till now, well it is kind of working. I switch to e cigs. I like them better than smoking, but I still smoke a few regs now and then. I just got e juice with no nicotine so I am hoping to break the addiction.
Smoking has gotten bad for me it makes me depressed and takes my energy, and I can not breath when i smoke. If i don't stop I am going to have real problems. i smoke to control my anger and run from my emotions I don't like. So I find my self getting very angry when i don't smoke.
I realize I am serving cigs and not God by turning to smoking instead of letting God help me with my problems. I hate a part of me. there is this side of me which is arrogant prideful cares very little for people. That side of me just wants to be left alone, but that is not who I am. That is not my heart, so my heart and this dark side of me fight when i don't smoke. Smoking is like the peace pipe for the two. Any way tomorrow I start my new juice and not smoking at all again. Prayers would be a big help. I don't know what else to try i have tryed the patch, gum, lozenges, chantix and all together too. What gets me all the time is the dark side of me. i don't like thinking I have this side like that. I love God, i want to be what he wants me to be.
Any way thanks for reading.
