HI, this is my first post here, so I doubt any of you guys know me, so I'll let you know something about me.
First off, when it comes to my username, I'm usually fairly careful about distributing my actual information online, so "Mikey" and "Peterson" are both word play of my actual name, so don't mind that. My parents moved to the US when I was 2 years old, and I've been taught to speak English as my only language (I've even been something of a translator for my folks.) I'm currently 20, just turning 21, living in Lansing, Michigan. I've got a beautiful wife and a baby girl even more beautiful than her. I've been a faithful servant of God for all my life - though as an angry teenager, I did turn away from the congregation for a couple of years. Now I'm trying my best to serve Him and to understand the world, working a nice customer service job and paying the mortgage, I consider myself a pretty regular, fairly successful guy.
Well, that in mind, I can also tell that my wife had a miscarriage 4 months ago and I've been talking to her about how to get past that. She doesn't seem to. She's slowly detoriating from real life - she can't hold her job, doesn't go to Church and doesn't want to play with our daughter. She cries a lot and I've found her drinking alone. Well, this is not her problems I'm posting for here - we're in line to get her to a psychologist and my folks are helping a lot around the house. I'm, selfishly, posting about myself.
See, after seeing that powerful woman fizzle like that, like a burnt-out cigarette, I've started to think about the world and existence from another angle. And truth be told, my faith is slowly bleeding away with her. I can't discuss with my Father from the congregation, he's old school, the "go-to-church-or-I'll-punch-your-teeth-in"-type, he doesn't believe in sob stories. So I'm asking my peers right here.
How can I re-establish my faith in Jesus? I'm trying so hard, but it's slipping away. I read the Bible now almost daily, much more than I did while my life was perfect, looking for answers... I only find my heart refusing and struggling faith. And like my faith in the Holy Father drifting away with the misery of my wife, my will to live or rather to strive is escaping as well. I don't find happiness anymore, not without her or Him by my side. Now I've got my job and my duties, but no love of life.
Any of you guys have any ideas that could get me back on track?
First off, when it comes to my username, I'm usually fairly careful about distributing my actual information online, so "Mikey" and "Peterson" are both word play of my actual name, so don't mind that. My parents moved to the US when I was 2 years old, and I've been taught to speak English as my only language (I've even been something of a translator for my folks.) I'm currently 20, just turning 21, living in Lansing, Michigan. I've got a beautiful wife and a baby girl even more beautiful than her. I've been a faithful servant of God for all my life - though as an angry teenager, I did turn away from the congregation for a couple of years. Now I'm trying my best to serve Him and to understand the world, working a nice customer service job and paying the mortgage, I consider myself a pretty regular, fairly successful guy.
Well, that in mind, I can also tell that my wife had a miscarriage 4 months ago and I've been talking to her about how to get past that. She doesn't seem to. She's slowly detoriating from real life - she can't hold her job, doesn't go to Church and doesn't want to play with our daughter. She cries a lot and I've found her drinking alone. Well, this is not her problems I'm posting for here - we're in line to get her to a psychologist and my folks are helping a lot around the house. I'm, selfishly, posting about myself.
See, after seeing that powerful woman fizzle like that, like a burnt-out cigarette, I've started to think about the world and existence from another angle. And truth be told, my faith is slowly bleeding away with her. I can't discuss with my Father from the congregation, he's old school, the "go-to-church-or-I'll-punch-your-teeth-in"-type, he doesn't believe in sob stories. So I'm asking my peers right here.
How can I re-establish my faith in Jesus? I'm trying so hard, but it's slipping away. I read the Bible now almost daily, much more than I did while my life was perfect, looking for answers... I only find my heart refusing and struggling faith. And like my faith in the Holy Father drifting away with the misery of my wife, my will to live or rather to strive is escaping as well. I don't find happiness anymore, not without her or Him by my side. Now I've got my job and my duties, but no love of life.
Any of you guys have any ideas that could get me back on track?