Dear Blu,
I am more than happy to share my opinions on this. They are all really good questions that I think we all need to ask ourselves. I am coming from an Orthodox Christian perspective, though, so others may disagree (maybe quite strongly) with some of all of my answers.
I am not going to give you a very straight answer, I'm afraid, because I am really not in any kind of position to advise anyone on anything. However, I will borrow a couple of writings I know about.
First, your comment reminded me vaguely of a really, really old story - like maybe 1,800 years old. It comes from a collection of stories about Egyptian monks who fled to the desert to avoid persecution from the Romans back in the 200's. The story goes like this:
Abba Lot went to see Abba Joseph and said to him, 'Abba as far as I can I say
my little office, I fast a little, I pray and meditate, I live in peace and as
far as I can, I purify my thoughts. What else can I do?' then the old man
stood up and stretched his hands towards heaven. His fingers became like ten
lamps of fire and he said to him, 'If you will, you can become all flame.'
I am convinced that one of the favorite operating modes of the devil is not presenting us with fearful apparitions, or trying to draw us into Satanic cults, or something like that. It is, rather, warping our own perception of our true nature (in the image and likeness of God), making us think of ourselves, our lives, and those around us in trivial terms, and then causing us to either perceive God in the same trivial terms (e.g. "my buddy Jesus") or at the other extreme to think of Him as something totally unapproachable and unreachable.
What we cannot do, I am also convinced, is to equate a relationship with God in terms of emotional gratification. The Christian life on earth is one of perseverance, temptation and sometimes suffering. Scripture tells us this in many, many places, but they are verses that are often glossed over:
“Do not think that I have come to bring peace on earth; I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. (Matthew 10:34)
From the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven has suffered violence, and men of violence take it by force. (Matthew 11:12)
and, of course:
Then Jesus told his disciples, “If any man would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. (Matthew 16:24)
Once we understand that we must face a struggle and not a "walk in the park", perhaps we put such "dry spells" as you describe in perspective. Continuing to pray and strive to love God and our neighbor even when we feel emotionally distressed about our lack of spiritual progress is, to my mind, exactly what we should expect from Scripture. That does not mean, however, that we need be miserable, because our faith can convince us that God is with us even if one part of us (our emotions) cannot perceive Him.
On the other hand, the devil, having already thrown obstacles between us and God, now tempts us with despondency - to believe that we will always feel alone and off-track. Here, I would refer to a Scripture from one of the Deuterocanonical books, the Wisdom of Sirach (or Ecclesiasticus):
If you come forward to serve the Lord, prepare yourself for temptation.
Set your heart right and be steadfast, and do not be hasty in time of calamity.
Cleave to him and do not depart, that you may be honored at the end of your life.
Accept whatever is brought upon you, and in changes that humble you be patient.
For gold is tested in the fire, and acceptable men in the furnace of humiliation.
Trust in him, and he will help you; make your ways straight, and hope in him.
You who fear the Lord, wait for his mercy; and turn not aside, lest you fall.
You who fear the Lord, trust in him, and your reward will not fail;
You who fear the Lord, hope for good things, for everlasting joy and mercy.
Consider the ancient generations and see: who ever trusted in the Lord and was put to shame? Or who ever persevered in the fear of the Lord and was forsaken? Or who ever called upon him and was overlooked? (2:1-10)
This gets at what I was trying to explain about what I think are the two senses of "repentance". Repentance is actually something we do, not something we receive. The Greek word used in the Gospel implies a turning to God. It means more than just asking forgiveness for our sins and moving on. It actually involves asking for the strength and grace to transform ourselves; to become pure in heart, if you will, so that we can see God (Matthew 5:8)
Here is how I would answer this question, though some may disagree.
God does not compel us to do anything. He does not force Himself on us. Ever.
He is, however, waiting for us. He is anxiously waiting for us - even chasing after us. We can see that God pursued the people of Israel despite their having turned from him countless times.
I stand at the door and knock, said the Lord (Revelation 3:20). At the same time, though, He tells us,
knock, and it shall be opened (Luke 11:9). Do you see? He desires an encounter with us much more than we desire an encounter with him. The model for us to understand is the Prodigal Son. The Father saw his wayward son way off in the distance and what did he do?
But while he was yet at a distance, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and embraced him and kissed him. His son tried to recite the apology he had been rehearsing ever since leaving the pig farm, but his father would not hear any of it.
Bring forth the best robe, and put it on him; and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet: And bring hither the fatted calf, and kill it; and let us eat, and be merry: For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found (Luke 15:20,22-24).
I think I rambled on quite a bit.
Does any of this seem to make sense?