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In 2016 I was a victim of a crime, I didn't get justice because I was too afraid to seek it out, and believe I will just be gas-lighted and victim shamed. Plus I have 0 evidence, only my testimony and maybe some witnesses if they are willing to come forward but most of them are associated with the criminal.
It was that pivotal year, I was at my lowest point that I actually for once started to seek out God when I wasn't a believer.
The thing is this happened completely out of the blue and was uncalled for, I have done nothing to deserve this and was very confused why this was happening to me.
To be honest if these things didn't end up happening to me, and I ended up living a very cherry life then I probably would of never sought out after God, I would of been too busy in my own world to have done so.
I was wondering maybe unfortunately this HAD to happen for me to seek after him. Because I noticed when people's backs are against the wall and they can only rely on hope, they will start praying even if they don't really believe at the moment they will give it a shot.
After I became a believer, the bad things stopped happening to me, and more good things started to arise. Only bad things happen to me if I cause them to.
I haven't had anything terrible happen so far, and if anything has happened I was the direct cause of it. But it's only been 3 years.
I am just afraid something terrible might happen again out of my control that I did not cause for myself. Because what happened in 2016 was way too much for me to handle, I am still scarred by it.
Outside of eternal life, I do not wish for anything else. But that I can live life peacefully without worry or fear, and that I can make good friends. Nothing more than that. If God could take one of my blessings away which would be wealth, I am willing he takes that so I can have those other 2 in my life. I don't care about wealth or having socioeconomic status, and am happy with my economic situation.
It seems like I am abundantly blessed in one certain aspect, but other areas are completely null and void.
It was that pivotal year, I was at my lowest point that I actually for once started to seek out God when I wasn't a believer.
The thing is this happened completely out of the blue and was uncalled for, I have done nothing to deserve this and was very confused why this was happening to me.
To be honest if these things didn't end up happening to me, and I ended up living a very cherry life then I probably would of never sought out after God, I would of been too busy in my own world to have done so.
I was wondering maybe unfortunately this HAD to happen for me to seek after him. Because I noticed when people's backs are against the wall and they can only rely on hope, they will start praying even if they don't really believe at the moment they will give it a shot.
After I became a believer, the bad things stopped happening to me, and more good things started to arise. Only bad things happen to me if I cause them to.
I haven't had anything terrible happen so far, and if anything has happened I was the direct cause of it. But it's only been 3 years.
I am just afraid something terrible might happen again out of my control that I did not cause for myself. Because what happened in 2016 was way too much for me to handle, I am still scarred by it.
Outside of eternal life, I do not wish for anything else. But that I can live life peacefully without worry or fear, and that I can make good friends. Nothing more than that. If God could take one of my blessings away which would be wealth, I am willing he takes that so I can have those other 2 in my life. I don't care about wealth or having socioeconomic status, and am happy with my economic situation.
It seems like I am abundantly blessed in one certain aspect, but other areas are completely null and void.