Living A Lie

[oceanofdreamz]

I try my best,
To get to where I'm going,
But I've realized now,
I don't have to buy my way there,
But yet it seems so hard,
To know where you are going,
I don't wanna die like this,
I wanna live to tell the truth,
But I wonder now do I even know the truth?
Have I been lied to?
About my ultimate fate?
Have I been blinded?
By a blocker.
Have I gone astray,
Living like it's all about me,
But I know it's not,
I wish now that I could be,
So close to You,
That it would be obvious where I was going,
I am dying,
In fear of death,
I am crying,
All the time,
In fear I'll not make it,
To eternal truth,
I want to let go,
I want to lose myself,
And in doing so I want to feel,
Close,
To You.
I'm tried of living,
Today for myself,
Living in anger,
Judgement,
Hesitation,
In doubt,
For all that has been done and is yet to be done,
Sometimes I feel so gone,
Like my life is over,
Is there no one to help me,
In times of weakness,
Doubt,
Fustartion?
Where is my first love,
My first hope,
My only desire?
Sometimes I wonder,
Was it ever true?
Was I ever really His?
Am I good enough for Him,
To accept me,
As His own?
Will I be saved from myself?
Will I discover,
I was living a lie?
That my life wasn't worth anything,
That I was living for me and me alone?
I want so hard to know Him,
So hard to be with Him,
But am I not good enough?
How could He want someone like me?
He took me,
From a place of suffering,
And saved me from all that is wrong,
How can I doubt anymore,
That He loves me?

 

[crydun]

Another great poem! A lot of churches should be reciting this on Sundays. Keep writing!!