Life messed up. My fault.

[DJ B.K.]

Simply put I need to vent because I don't know where my life is going now. I don't know how I'm going to feel better! I just lost my TA positition and my mentor teacher says I really need to think about if I really want to be a teacher and I'm not sure what is going to happen with the rest of my school year! I can't afford to change majors, but what do I do if teaching isn't for me? How do I tell my parents? I don't feel like finishing the rest of my assignments because I don't even know if I'll get another TA spot becuase if I don't I would guess it wouldn't make much sense to be in class. What will happen with all my college friends, my radio show, my LIFE. I just wanna cry and cry because it's all my fault and I don't deserve any sympathy from anyone. I don't deserve anything for Christmas. I don't deserve this computer I'm on, my ipod, my CD's, my TV. Nothing. My relationship with God has been hurting for awhile now and this isn't going to help. That and I'm not sure if I'm even in a good mental state. Sorry if this post doesn't make complete sense but I needed to vent before I try my soon to be disappointed parents.

 

[LoG]

God puts challenges in our lives to help us look at where we may need to come up higher and also to drive us closer to Him for our comfort. The best teachers in life are those who have learned from their experiences and then pass that experience on to others.
Have faith that God hasn't given you more than you can handle with His help and that if He has closed a door He will also open a window.
Sinking into a morass of self-pity and self-condemnation will not help you see that open window or what it is He wishes to teach you.

 

[tapero]

Simply put I need to vent because I don't know where my life is going now. I don't know how I'm going to feel better! I just lost my TA positition and my mentor teacher says I really need to think about if I really want to be a teacher and I'm not sure what is going to happen with the rest of my school year! I can't afford to change majors, but what do I do if teaching isn't for me? How do I tell my parents? I don't feel like finishing the rest of my assignments because I don't even know if I'll get another TA spot becuase if I don't I would guess it wouldn't make much sense to be in class. What will happen with all my college friends, my radio show, my LIFE. I just wanna cry and cry because it's all my fault and I don't deserve any sympathy from anyone. I don't deserve anything for Christmas. I don't deserve this computer I'm on, my ipod, my CD's, my TV. Nothing. My relationship with God has been hurting for awhile now and this isn't going to help. That and I'm not sure if I'm even in a good mental state. Sorry if this post doesn't make complete sense but I needed to vent before I try my soon to be disappointed parents.

Dear Brother,

Thank you for sharing. Please don't feel you don't deserve things because of a bump in the road. Try not to look ahead at what might happen, but take each day as it comes.

You are precious and well loved by God. I am praying for you friend. In Christ's love, Tapero

 

[BelindaP]

I know it seems like your life is ending because your plans for your future seem to be falling apart. Let me give you counsel as an older person who has seen lots of ups and downs.

Many people graduate from college and never directly use the degree that they have. Having the bachelor's degree will open all kinds of doors for you, be they teaching or not.

What exactly happened that made you lose your TA position? Why does your mentor think you should rethink teaching?

I once thought that I would make a good teacher, but found out that I don't have the right temperment for it. I have all the knowledge and social skills, but I don't deal well with kids who aren't that interested in learning. Fortunately for me, I had a trusted teacher who told me up front not to go into teaching.

Is the TA position required to get your degree? Is there a related degree that you could take with maybe only a semester more of work? Failing that, could you perhaps teach for a short while while finishing up a degree in something else?

Your parents might be disappointed in the short term, but I'm sure they want you to be happy in the long term. If teaching isn't for you, I'm sure they will support you in other endeavors.

When God closes doors, he opens up windows. Take a moment to breathe; then look for the windows!

 

[Onlythingavailable]

You becoming a teacher isn't about what your parents want or about what you deserve. I'm not saying you shouldn't be grateful and respect your parents, this is about you and your future. If teaching isn't for you, then it isn't, but don't give up just because of one bump in the road. Take your teacher's advice and find out if teaching really is your thing. Pray to God and ask Him what He wants. Don't go at it alone. And stop blaming yourself, we have all fallen short and if it wasn't for Jesus we would be going to hell.

There are more ways of showing your gratitude and love to your parents than by choosing a career that isn't for you and possibly becoming bitter in the long run. It isn't too late to change majors, and as BelindaP said you don't have to become a teacher even if you keep going. You're just panicking and you need to calm down and take a breath. Your college friends, your radio show, are they really that important? Would it be so terrible without them? Why, aren't you more than that? Calm down, take a deep breath, stop blaming yourself and start planning rationally.

Make time for God. He is the most important thing in our lives and with Him all good is possible.

 

[Anti Existance]

When your in a prison what helps more ,crying or a key to get out. You know that the key of getting out is putting more effort in your study. Put your mind on zero and 24/7 study on becoming the best sensei there is. God demands that you have to earn what you receive in life. Thus if you want that position stop the useless wallowing in self pity and start studying, remember failure only exist in giving up. Like everything in life its do or die. You need to be harsh on yourself on behalf of your own future.

Throw away all disturbances, and study in the library, remember its a long term thing that one day doesn't count , its about long term commitment to society and the children that only deserve the very best.

 

[Amin]

Simply put I need to vent because I don't know where my life is going now. I don't know how I'm going to feel better! I just lost my TA positition and my mentor teacher says I really need to think about if I really want to be a teacher and I'm not sure what is going to happen with the rest of my school year! I can't afford to change majors, but what do I do if teaching isn't for me? How do I tell my parents? I don't feel like finishing the rest of my assignments because I don't even know if I'll get another TA spot becuase if I don't I would guess it wouldn't make much sense to be in class. What will happen with all my college friends, my radio show, my LIFE. I just wanna cry and cry because it's all my fault and I don't deserve any sympathy from anyone. I don't deserve anything for Christmas. I don't deserve this computer I'm on, my ipod, my CD's, my TV. Nothing. My relationship with God has been hurting for awhile now and this isn't going to help. That and I'm not sure if I'm even in a good mental state. Sorry if this post doesn't make complete sense but I needed to vent before I try my soon to be disappointed parents.

I don't understand why you think you're such an undeserving person, cause i'm sorry, but i can't agree with you.
There are times things happen does that make it your fault?
In all honesty, I'd try to be a little easier on yourself and remember that everything bad in your life isn't caused by you.
There are circumstances beyond our contol that can cause things to happen.
I think you're just caught up in a negative
state of mind. Try to see some of the good things you've done and take the negative attitude and ask God to help you see what your spiritual gift is.
Start useing that gift and good things are bound to happen.
I'd really like to see the negativity get tossed.
If you need to talk You xan always PM me.
Take Care, there are good things in your future with God.
Chuck.