- Apr 1, 2012
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Heya,
So right now I am 14. My best friend is in the hospital getting a Brain tumor removed tomorrow. I am in love with a girl named lizzy and we have a nice relationship going, about 2 weeks ago I admitted Jesus Christ as my lord and savior, my Dad is your stereotypical southern baptist. I think of him as a pedophile, a hypocrite, and a liar. A few days ago he and my mom had an incident because he told her to bring the kids (us) with her shopping while he did some housework that we offered to do, when we get back he smashes a glass globe on the ground with his foot and throws a large shop broom at my moms car. He yells just another day wasted. You figured it right, he blamed mom for his decision. About 5 minutes later I see her outside picking weeds out of her garden. I walk outside and shes picking weeds with her mascara running because she is crying. I hug her and talk it out some. Today when I was getting ready for church I put on jeans. When we were about to walk out my Dad fussed at me for not wearing dress pants and threatened to take everything but my bed away if I continue to quit listening (He never told me to wear dress pants, most people wear jeans or shorts to my sunday school). In an effort to make him happy, I walk to my room and put on my dirty dress pants (I have only 1 pair and I wore them the night before to my grandparents 50th anniversary party). I start putting my dress shoes on in the kitchen and begin sobbing. My mom walks in and starts talking about how she loves me and how she wants me to succeed and get out of this small town. Also, on multiple accounts in the past year I have seen in his google search bar things like "Little boy sex stories" or "Pedo stories". As far as I am concerned, my Dad thinks of me as a worthless bastard. Only 4 things ever come across in my mind for the past month:
1) David, my best friend,whos in the hospital getting a brain tumor removed
2) Lizzy, a beautiful person who I have a good relationship with.
3) My religion, very important to me
4) Making my parents happy.
I will happily accept any tips, comments, suggestions, or opinions on my situation.
So right now I am 14. My best friend is in the hospital getting a Brain tumor removed tomorrow. I am in love with a girl named lizzy and we have a nice relationship going, about 2 weeks ago I admitted Jesus Christ as my lord and savior, my Dad is your stereotypical southern baptist. I think of him as a pedophile, a hypocrite, and a liar. A few days ago he and my mom had an incident because he told her to bring the kids (us) with her shopping while he did some housework that we offered to do, when we get back he smashes a glass globe on the ground with his foot and throws a large shop broom at my moms car. He yells just another day wasted. You figured it right, he blamed mom for his decision. About 5 minutes later I see her outside picking weeds out of her garden. I walk outside and shes picking weeds with her mascara running because she is crying. I hug her and talk it out some. Today when I was getting ready for church I put on jeans. When we were about to walk out my Dad fussed at me for not wearing dress pants and threatened to take everything but my bed away if I continue to quit listening (He never told me to wear dress pants, most people wear jeans or shorts to my sunday school). In an effort to make him happy, I walk to my room and put on my dirty dress pants (I have only 1 pair and I wore them the night before to my grandparents 50th anniversary party). I start putting my dress shoes on in the kitchen and begin sobbing. My mom walks in and starts talking about how she loves me and how she wants me to succeed and get out of this small town. Also, on multiple accounts in the past year I have seen in his google search bar things like "Little boy sex stories" or "Pedo stories". As far as I am concerned, my Dad thinks of me as a worthless bastard. Only 4 things ever come across in my mind for the past month:
1) David, my best friend,whos in the hospital getting a brain tumor removed
2) Lizzy, a beautiful person who I have a good relationship with.
3) My religion, very important to me
4) Making my parents happy.
I will happily accept any tips, comments, suggestions, or opinions on my situation.
