Yes people were harmed and there is no way to reach them or even know who they are.
I did'nt even realize they were being harmed until it was too late. My selfish approach at the time stopped me from even seeing that.
Lately I changed my outlook on life; started reading the Bible again and realized some things I was doing were very wrong. I have high standards and can't believe I did these dumb things.
So I've really disappointed myself and God.
Some days are better than others.
People were harmed. I know one man in our church long ago that killed two people while he was driving drunk. The family would never forgive him, nor could he accept God's forgivness many years later. After many meetings with him, I convinced him he could find away to help others in the same situation. He actually started a group for those who live in guilt over DUI killings. Obvious, many of these suffer legal aspect, but many change over time. The group he is in help others through Christ deal with this issue. They help support families that have lost love ones through DUI's and help the actual people that made the mistakes. He mainly works with many teens that have gone through this.
Simply, you many not find or get forgivness, but you can find another way to help others.
If it's nothing like that, still you can find a way to help others.
I don't believe in blaming Satan. We have to be responsible for our actions and not blame them on others. Simple saying "Satan flee" isn't enough. We need actions on our part.
You need to deal with this. I can assure you there is a deeper emotional issue going on here. You may not be able to see it. Find someone like a Pastor, Youth Minister, ect. to talk with.
The worse thing you can do is let any actions stop you from being who you can be. You have your life before you. Guilt is like a ball and chain, it will drag you down. Don't wallow in guilt. Usually, people that can't forgive themselves really don't want to move on. There is an underlying issue here. Are you being honest with yourself? Do you really want to move on?
Do you in some way, even on a sub-concious level just want to hang on to the issue?
Life experineces make us who we are. It may be time to look at your life and past experiences and see if this is a pattern in other spectrums. Could a possible parent or peer ingrain in you a guilt complex, low self esteem, ect. I see possible self esteem issues here. What I'm saying, there is something else going on. Something made your brain react this way to this issue.
Thankfully God doesn't deal with humanity like we deal with ourselves and others. He forgives you, but it doesn't end there. He expects you to forgive yourself and others and take ACTION and move on. God doesn't use guilt to punish us...he uses it as a change motivator.
