So what I can get from this: you appear to be saying that you hold to rationality/logic/truth/knowledge because holding to a claim that isn't true "raises a lot of problems and questions," presumably at its worst cognitive dissonance. If these problems and questions (and cognitive dissonance) weren't present, you'd be fine with believing anything if it made you happy in doing so.
While in parts you paraphrase my statements accurately, there´s some noise introduced.
Truth wasn´t even a term or concept that played any part in our conversation and rightly so, considering that we are talking about philosophy/metaphysics/theology/theism.
I don´t think that we can discern truth in these matters. All we can do is discern (and exclude) demonstrably false reasoning and logical faults of a particular view. Both, however, have no bearing on the question whether the result is true or not. You can reason poorly and use faulty logic, yet the result may happen to be accurate. There can be worldviews that contain no logical mistakes yet may be inaccurate.
Your dichotomy was happiness vs. reason/rationality/logic, not happiness vs. truth and not truth vs. reason/rationality/logic.
This makes it clear to me that you value being happy more than you value being right,
Hang on a second.
Firstly, "being right" was not part or criterium of your question or the discussion so far (see above). I´m confused when the horses are changed midstream.
Secondly, I was under the impression that we were discussing the philosophy/metaphysics, and that we were agreeing that these considerations - by their very nature and due to lack of falsifiability, lack of evidence/proof etc. - can not be about "being right".
So I guess it´s obvious that in questions where "being right and knowing you are right" is not even an available criterium I value other criteria higher. That´s trivial, banal.
Avoiding logical mistakes, avoiding faulty reasoning is a sine qua non for me. It has first priority in my approach and the happiness that a certain worldview might bring to a person who doesn´t recognize its logical flaws does does not trump this priority.
Whilst, if a worldview could be demonstrably right, I would adopt it regardless any unhappiness it might cause me.
because you're insistent on being rational/logical/etc. as a means to being happy;
Not a means, but one prerequisite. Not for being happy, but for not being unhappy.
Holding a view that´s illogical makes me unhappy. Holding a view that is logically sound does not necessarily make me happy. I don´t know what´s so hard to understand about that.
Having cold feet makes me unhappy. Doesn´t mean I am happy any time and just because I have warm feet.
i.e., if you weren't happy as a result of being rational/logical, and instead were made unhappy by it, you wouldn't do it.
Depends on the alternatives. If there is a logically sound view that makes me happier I guess I would acquire this one. In no case, however, I would pick an alternative that is illogical or unreasonable no matter how happy it would make me if it were not illogical or unreasonable.
I'm pretty certain it is. There's nothing essentially theistic about existential meaning; what theism does offer as an advantage is God as a perpetual source of this existential meaning (you can, at the very least, access Him through prayer -- bam, meaning). Existential meaning differs from generic meaning in that the latter refers to objects as they are perceived and judged by us ("that's a rock," "that's a spoon," "that's my lunch," all of which mean something), whereas the former entails goal directed behavior. I'm absolutely certain you have existential meaning, even if you don't call it that.
Ok, now that you have provided your definition of "existential meaning" I would agree that I give "existential meaning" in that indeed I perform goal directed behaviour.
I guess I misinterpreted this statement in the OP:
allow them to be a little happier given their situation (in that they would have a sense of existential meaning grounded in God).
It can be understood as implying that there is no existential meaning without a god (or without belief in a god) and that´s how I read it.
I understand now that you were talking about a situation where someone would be happier with having a sense of existential meaning grounded in God than with having a sense of existential meaning that is not grounded in a god.
Personally, I don´t know why someone would think that the idea that there is an accessible source of existential meaning helps with performing goal directed behaviour.
If I felt that there were any such advantage coming from holding a god concept, and
if this god concept were logically flawless and without self-contradictions I suspect I might consider adopting it.
IOW: In view of your definition of existential meaning I would change my response I have no desire for existential meaning into I have no desire for my goal directed behaviour to be grounded in a god (or belief in a god).
I´ll give you another example: I am toying with the karma concept. It´s not demonstrably false, it does not contain logical mistakes, it does not require me to be irrational (any of which would make it inacceptable for me) but I am pretty sure it is just a human concept and not something that exists out there.
I find this concept pretty helpful in many respects and therefore I have no problem operating with this tool.