School started about 3 weeks ago, and since then I have been too busy for even ten minutes online. But I want to say that I feel absolutely happy. I have felt happy ever since that wonderful day in July when I gave God my life, but not just a part of it, but the entirety of it. Thinking myself as a servant of God, I realized that I had nothing to worry about. Suddenly, the stresses of school vanished. Any failing grade simply resulted in me drawing even closer to God.
From the time school started until now, I've learned one major lesson: God loves, and he will provide. Total dependancy on him means total happiness. We cannot take joy in this world. In 9th grade, I desperately competed in school, and got #13 rank in the school. Yet how much happiness has that given me? A year ago I used to indulge in sexual sins, yet how has this temporary pleasure given me happiness?
I realize that nothing has given me such joys as Christianity has. Why worry about tomorrow? God provides. Whatever happens will be in God's plan. I have given all my plans to God. As I build a relationship with the Almighty, I constantly look forward to tomorrow, for tomorrow God will be there. I come to see that life has no more burden. All my decisions will be made by God, and he does not give Christians a life of suffering. At times, darkness comes, but even in darkness I will be happy. Yesterday, I felt very gloomy for various reasons. This morning, I met again with a friend who had gone to overseas missionary for a month. I became instantly cheered up. Even while cleaning up the lunch tables at church, God just gave me these happy emotions.
Atheists say that freedom is their joy. Yet when I compare freedom to overwelming love, trust, dependance, and overall great optimistism for the things God will do tomorrow, life not only feels comfortable, but also joyful. At first I thought Christianity should not involve emotion. Yet now my happiness bubbles over, and God's love embraces me.
I hope you see some point in my rambling. I have no time for organized bible study, but right now I just want to say the words that come to me during this high time in my life.
EDIT: Ok, so to conclude this half journal/half devotion, I challenge you to try to take a moment from life, and in prayer give all your concerns and worries to God, for the Almighty will never let you down.
From the time school started until now, I've learned one major lesson: God loves, and he will provide. Total dependancy on him means total happiness. We cannot take joy in this world. In 9th grade, I desperately competed in school, and got #13 rank in the school. Yet how much happiness has that given me? A year ago I used to indulge in sexual sins, yet how has this temporary pleasure given me happiness?
I realize that nothing has given me such joys as Christianity has. Why worry about tomorrow? God provides. Whatever happens will be in God's plan. I have given all my plans to God. As I build a relationship with the Almighty, I constantly look forward to tomorrow, for tomorrow God will be there. I come to see that life has no more burden. All my decisions will be made by God, and he does not give Christians a life of suffering. At times, darkness comes, but even in darkness I will be happy. Yesterday, I felt very gloomy for various reasons. This morning, I met again with a friend who had gone to overseas missionary for a month. I became instantly cheered up. Even while cleaning up the lunch tables at church, God just gave me these happy emotions.
Atheists say that freedom is their joy. Yet when I compare freedom to overwelming love, trust, dependance, and overall great optimistism for the things God will do tomorrow, life not only feels comfortable, but also joyful. At first I thought Christianity should not involve emotion. Yet now my happiness bubbles over, and God's love embraces me.
I hope you see some point in my rambling. I have no time for organized bible study, but right now I just want to say the words that come to me during this high time in my life.
EDIT: Ok, so to conclude this half journal/half devotion, I challenge you to try to take a moment from life, and in prayer give all your concerns and worries to God, for the Almighty will never let you down.
