Last resort

[Rabid_Rabbit]

Ok I'm not sure if this thread will be allowed but here goes.....
What would your guys last resort be if you could no longer carry on with your life as you knew it? A last ditch attempt to avoid commiting suicide. This is a serious question. If you had exaused all avenues of help. Would you dissapear and start your life somewhere else for example.

 

[Jeshu]

Hi.

If all else fails I will have to get used to being just me, as I am, sick and all.
What I mean to say is that for me suicide is not an option neither do I want to pack-up and leave my family. So if medications fail me than I will have to get used to being sick.

It would be very very hard that much I know.

 

[AWorkInProgress]

Ok I'm not sure if this thread will be allowed but here goes.....
What would your guys last resort be if you could no longer carry on with your life as you knew it? A last ditch attempt to avoid commiting suicide. This is a serious question. If you had exaused all avenues of help. Would you dissapear and start your life somewhere else for example.

Thought of what would my death do to my mother. Animal instinct of fear of death.

hmm.. what brought about this question? Can we help you?

 

[GarnetRose]

I would work at changing my life, probably drastically. I would not move away or anything like that. To me, family is very important and vital to have, the right members that is, and there is such a thing as having the wrong people around you at the worst times. Getting a different outlook on life may help, too.

 

[Mask]

Hi
As much as we often feel that running away will free us from the pain and torture we live in....it will not! Most of our struggles are within ourselves so wherever we go, the issues go with us! Don't run away! That wouldn't solve anything. If you are having issues with your family or someone, moving out might be necessary, but the issues still have to be dealt with. The world would be missing a very valuable/irreplaceable part if you took your life ! Please don't resort to that! Pray for God to strengthen you and to help you get the help you need! What is so bad, that you want to end your life?

 

[LonelyTraveler]

Right now I'm at my last resort, just putting it off. I'll tell myself, "eh, I'll do it tomorrow," and then tell myself the same thing the next day. Eventually even that won't work, and that's how I'll know that it's time. People won't like it. But if what I feel doesn't matter to them, then why should what they feel matter to me?

But if you want to talk, I'm offering an ear. would love to hear from ya. The icon says I'm Christian, but I'm kinda on the fringe, so no worries.

 

[Protinus]

...if it we could only to call a loved one to talk, consider it.

...if we could only reach out to others in our deepest despair, think about it.

If we could only accept our fragility and limited capacity without others, try it.

My request of the OP is to take small steps forward...to reveal herself to others...to grab her chance to bond with those that can help and comfort her- let it be here, let it be in private, let it be for others sake- because her ultimate new found strength will help others some day..one day at a time.

 

[Rabid_Rabbit]

Thanks guys. I feel right now that I have to do a major thing to try and right this, but I cant think. My mind is just not working and I find this really hard. I don't want to kill myself because part of me still hopes that good experiences might come my way, but I'm despairing more and more of that.
I wish I could explain this thick, black tar that is suffocating me. But there are no words. It's worse than any physical pain I've ever felt. I no longer exist. It's just this "thing" now, and I want to kill it so bad. I hate it, but it is me now.
I cant think of any more things to kill it without killing me that will work. That's why I wrote this thread. I desperately need some ideas.

 

[Mask]

I totally understand that black cloud/tar thing you are feeling but IT IS NOT YOU!!!!! I don't know what you belive in but I believe and know that there is an evil force working in this world, someone who's goal is to "kill, steal and destroy"! Satan, the devil! Jesus said that his (satan) purpose was to "kill, steal and destroy"! He wants you dead!! He is filling you mind with deadly thoughts. Please do not listen to those thought!! Please reach out to others for help! Please go see your doctor! If you already have,then go back! If he is useless, then go see someone else! Go to a councellor! Your life is so valuable, don't fall for the lies that it isn't. You can't just sit by yourself and let this incompass you. You need to talk to someone who can help you. Go to the hospital if necessary! You may not believe in God but I do, so I will be praying for you. I will pray that this darkness will be lifted, that you mind will be cleared, that you will be able to reach out to the people around you, that you will find the right people to help you, that you will live!! Sending you big hugs !!! Hang in there. You can PM me if you need to talk more.