I've been out of work for about a month, and I just found a new job waitressing. I started yesterday. I've never waitressed before, and I've got some obsessive concerns about getting the tables mixed up and dropping plates...stuff like that. Normal concerns. Please pray for me; I need this job to go incredibly well.
My financial aid application got turned down. No college education for me I guess. I can't be considered independent, but I can't get my mother's tax information in order to get the aid. I guess I'll just wait until I'm 24 or whatever the age is. It just sucks because I really wanted to start school. I was going to be the first person in my family to go to college, and I was really proud of that.
My boyfriend has decided to finish grad school this summer. He's going to continue teaching labs at school. The TA's take a pay cut during the summer, which means he's going to make next to nothing and I'm going to be responsible for the majority of the bills. I live mainly on tips, and that fluncuates a lot. It's hard for me to budget when I'm not sure exactly how much I'll be making from week to week.
His dad decided that since I now have a job he's not going to help us out with the utility bill. It is OUR bill, but he just sprung this on us with no warning. I hate feeling like things are starting to get very unstable, but that's how I'm feeling.
I'm just frustrated in general. I know I'm whining, but I wish my life was easier. I feel incredibly overwhelmed. The people I went to high school with are driving around in sportscars that their parents bought for them and their parents are paying their college tuition. They're all out having fun, and I'm trying to figure out how to pay for groceries this month. It's just not fair that some people get everything handed to them. I don't nessasarily mind working for it, but sometimes I just want a break. I want someone to pay my tuition so I can blow all my money on CDs and other stupid **** that I'm not going to want a week later.
I just want to be irresponsible and not worry about anything for one day. I've been on my own, fending for myself, for almost five years. I just want a break. I'm just really frustrated, and I'm not sure how put-together this post is. Please pray for me.
My financial aid application got turned down. No college education for me I guess. I can't be considered independent, but I can't get my mother's tax information in order to get the aid. I guess I'll just wait until I'm 24 or whatever the age is. It just sucks because I really wanted to start school. I was going to be the first person in my family to go to college, and I was really proud of that.
My boyfriend has decided to finish grad school this summer. He's going to continue teaching labs at school. The TA's take a pay cut during the summer, which means he's going to make next to nothing and I'm going to be responsible for the majority of the bills. I live mainly on tips, and that fluncuates a lot. It's hard for me to budget when I'm not sure exactly how much I'll be making from week to week.
His dad decided that since I now have a job he's not going to help us out with the utility bill. It is OUR bill, but he just sprung this on us with no warning. I hate feeling like things are starting to get very unstable, but that's how I'm feeling.
I'm just frustrated in general. I know I'm whining, but I wish my life was easier. I feel incredibly overwhelmed. The people I went to high school with are driving around in sportscars that their parents bought for them and their parents are paying their college tuition. They're all out having fun, and I'm trying to figure out how to pay for groceries this month. It's just not fair that some people get everything handed to them. I don't nessasarily mind working for it, but sometimes I just want a break. I want someone to pay my tuition so I can blow all my money on CDs and other stupid **** that I'm not going to want a week later.
I just want to be irresponsible and not worry about anything for one day. I've been on my own, fending for myself, for almost five years. I just want a break. I'm just really frustrated, and I'm not sure how put-together this post is. Please pray for me.
You'll be in my prayers. 
