Just needed to write it down.

[ecuison]

I know there is nothing our Father in Heaven doesn't know about our life. He knows my sins and failures, our desires, hopes, wants and needs. I have prayed every day multiple times a day that the Lord will help me out of my anxiety, fears, doubt that I have about my life and what is going on with it. I know there is not task so great that He can't handle it.

But I am a terrible Christian. I pray that I hear him speak to me, and that he may talk to me in a dream to know that I am ok. I look for signs that he his near holding me while I am on my knees praying in tears. In church when I am in deep prayer as I cry before the cross our Lord Jesus Christ died on to save me from eternal death. I look outside my window at night to see the trees not moving and when I pray and feel my heart hurt, I see them waving back and forth.

I know my problems are not as important or as big as other peoples. But they are big enough for me to know that my life is in turmoil. Most of all, they are about my daughter that it torments me because all I want to do is make her happy, that she won't be pulled away from her life here, and that she won't be used against me.

I don't want to go into any details, nor am I looking for pity. I cry and hurt everyday, to have some peace. I have given up all these problems to God in Christ's name because there is nothing else I can do but wait and see what's going to happen.

Thank you for reading and praying.

God Bless,

-Edmund

 

[jacks]

Ecuison you are not alone we all hurt at times and want comfort that doesn't seem to come quick enough. I will pray for you brother that you can be strong during this time. I know you know the Lord is with you even when you don't feel his presence. God bless you.

 

[NoelAsa]

Praying for your hurt and for you to have strength. Sometimes the signs we want to see are really there, but it is not until later on, when things have settled down that we realize it.

 

[kericson]

You are not alone and you are as important to God as any of us- Rom 3:23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,
1 John 1:9-10
9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
NKJV
I had to memorize these verses to believe that I was forgiven when I became a Christian. Try and read the Bible everyday along with prayers. It really helps!

Dear Heavenly Father I lift up my brother to You and pray he will find Your peace and comfort. I pray You will set him free from this guilt and help him to be able to praise You and serve You. I pray You will keep his daughter with him.

In Jesus Name, Amen.

 

[Stephanie7]

Father God, may You work this out to the good of father and daughter. May this father find peace with answered prayer according to thy Will, In Jesus Name, Amen

 

[faithfulchild]

Lifting you and your daughter up in prayer...

 

[richterforest]

Praying for you, stay strong brother!

 

[charity_22]

God is already working on your worries and fear in his perfect timing and will.. i'll be praying for you.

 

[ecuison]

Thank you everyone. I am blessed to know there are still strong Christians that care for one another.

 

[castlesinthesky]

Praying for you and your daughter.

 

[kericson]

May God bless you and restore the joy of your salvation.

 

[Onlythingavailable]

Praying.

 

[ecuison]

Thank you all for praying for me. I am deeply saddened that my faith isn't as strong as it should be. I ponder it and hurt because I know that God is present here with me looking at me suffer and waiting for me to let it all go. Please keep me in mind that He gives me the strength to shield my daughter and I from this storm.