Just Need A Hug

[dnihila]

I need a hug.

I'm tired of fighting a war that there is nothing to gain by winning. I'm tired of being the one who's wrong either way I choose. I'm tired of praying to a God who turns a blind eye to the sadness in my life.

The world hates me and wishes that I didn't exist, and I can't beat the world. So the only way to get relief is to agree with them.

I've tried to look for painless ways to die. but they seem to be unreliable. So I drew up a plan that may involve a bit of pain, but at least it's foolproof.

I just wish I had someone who loved me and wasn't afraid to say that they did.

I need a hug.

And how many times that I have been hit on the head out of nothing of my wishes and desires come true.
I am a survivor and you need to be one. Why to die? To please the devil who keeps on telling you that you deserve nothing in the world.
Allah/God asks for strong worshippers not weak ones.
This step is a moving forward step that you will remember for making you stronger.
Sometimes, you feel that the world doesn't need you. But ask yourself the question why am I here. It's for sure that you have a big mission in life to do for others.
Your words in here and the others replies are sharing and contriputing.You are not alone.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PWlS8Oerx8o

 

[reverie_maiden]

*hugs to all those who need them*

 

[Ave Maria]

Here's three hugs and a prayer for you:

 

[WhiteRain]

I think I need a hug for tomorrow... I have anxiety, and will be doing two things that require a lot of courage:

First, a co-worker invited me to her wedding. She is nice, and I did not want to turn it down, so I am going. I'm happy for her, and am trying to show the goodness of Christianity in the way I behave toward her. I am looking forward to it, but am also a little nervous. I'm not one to just 'get up and go' and I haven't been to the place before so I have to follow directions, etc... plus I don't know anyone else who will be there.........

Second, I have been thinking and praying for many years in what spcl way I could honor Mary, since she is the reason for my conversion, and has helped my family in so many ways over the years. I have a strong devotion to her, and wanted to express it artisticly (because I am an artist also).
I decided to get a tattoo. I did a lot of research on the subject, including bible study, and also on the 'medical' side, and finally found a great woman who does it by private appt only. We have been conversing for a few weeks and I feel confident in her work (it's quite clean), and her respect for what I want. But I'm a little nervous about it, and also about what people will think of me. And I'm nervous about speaking openly about my faith, when people who see it ask what it means... but that is part of the reason I wanted to get it.


Well, anyways, I know this is long, but just needed some encouragement. I don't often do anything out of the ordinary, or on my own, so these are huge steps for me. I'm feeling alone and a little scared.

Rain~

 

[FallingWaters]

I think I need a hug for tomorrow... I have anxiety, and will be doing two things that require a lot of courage:

First, a co-worker invited me to her wedding. She is nice, and I did not want to turn it down, so I am going. I'm happy for her, and am trying to show the goodness of Christianity in the way I behave toward her. I am looking forward to it, but am also a little nervous. I'm not one to just 'get up and go' and I haven't been to the place before so I have to follow directions, etc... plus I don't know anyone else who will be there.........

Second, I have been thinking and praying for many years in what spcl way I could honor Mary, since she is the reason for my conversion, and has helped my family in so many ways over the years. I have a strong devotion to her, and wanted to express it artisticly (because I am an artist also).
I decided to get a tattoo. I did a lot of research on the subject, including bible study, and also on the 'medical' side, and finally found a great woman who does it by private appt only. We have been conversing for a few weeks and I feel confident in her work (it's quite clean), and her respect for what I want. But I'm a little nervous about it, and also about what people will think of me. And I'm nervous about speaking openly about my faith, when people who see it ask what it means... but that is part of the reason I wanted to get it.


Well, anyways, I know this is long, but just needed some encouragement. I don't often do anything out of the ordinary, or on my own, so these are huge steps for me. I'm feeling alone and a little scared.

Rain~

Hi.
I'm sorry you're feeling alone and scared.
I have spent a lot of my life that way,
so I think I know how it feels.

Do you pray?
You'd be surprised how effective a little prayer can be asking God to help you with the directions,
and with being around people you don't know.

I hope and pray that everything concerning the wedding goes smoothly
and that every decision you make works together for your ultimate good.

As far as the tattoo goes,
I have never gotten one for fear of regretting it and wanting it removed,
and of course as you mentioned, the health risks.

I don't understand how getting a tattoo honors Mary?
Are you going to have her name imprinted on yourself?
I would kinda be worried about making Mary (the messenger)
more important than Jesus (the Savior).

May God richly bless you and be with you.

 

[reverie_maiden]

I think I need a hug for tomorrow... I have anxiety, and will be doing two things that require a lot of courage:

First, a co-worker invited me to her wedding. She is nice, and I did not want to turn it down, so I am going. I'm happy for her, and am trying to show the goodness of Christianity in the way I behave toward her. I am looking forward to it, but am also a little nervous. I'm not one to just 'get up and go' and I haven't been to the place before so I have to follow directions, etc... plus I don't know anyone else who will be there.........

Second, I have been thinking and praying for many years in what spcl way I could honor Mary, since she is the reason for my conversion, and has helped my family in so many ways over the years. I have a strong devotion to her, and wanted to express it artisticly (because I am an artist also).
I decided to get a tattoo. I did a lot of research on the subject, including bible study, and also on the 'medical' side, and finally found a great woman who does it by private appt only. We have been conversing for a few weeks and I feel confident in her work (it's quite clean), and her respect for what I want. But I'm a little nervous about it, and also about what people will think of me. And I'm nervous about speaking openly about my faith, when people who see it ask what it means... but that is part of the reason I wanted to get it.


Well, anyways, I know this is long, but just needed some encouragement. I don't often do anything out of the ordinary, or on my own, so these are huge steps for me. I'm feeling alone and a little scared.

Rain~

*hugs* Just a little advice...you don't have to stay for the reception if it makes you nervous...just go for the wedding and slip out afterwards.

 

[WhiteRain]

Hi.
I'm sorry you're feeling alone and scared.
I have spent a lot of my life that way,
so I think I know how it feels.

Do you pray?
You'd be surprised how effective a little prayer can be asking God to help you with the directions,
and with being around people you don't know.

I hope and pray that everything concerning the wedding goes smoothly
and that every decision you make works together for your ultimate good.

As far as the tattoo goes,
I have never gotten one for fear of regretting it and wanting it removed,
and of course as you mentioned, the health risks.

I don't understand how getting a tattoo honors Mary?
Are you going to have her name imprinted on yourself?
I would kinda be worried about making Mary (the messenger)
more important than Jesus (the Savior).

May God richly bless you and be with you.

Thanks so much. I need the prayers.

Yes, I pray by the minute! It does wonders, both inside and out... I am excited for my friend, and hope all goes well for her! Maybe focusing on her will let me forget my own worries...

I've thought and prayed and researched about the tattoo for years, and many things held me up, one of them being that I might regret it later and not be able to remove it!
In very brief description - the symbol has a cross, but it also has a very small "m" next to it... I have no fear at all of anyone outshining Jesus, and I think of Mary's mothering role as leading me toward the Holy Son. The more I look at the symbol, the more I remember how she always obeyed God, even in becoming His mother...

Rain~

 

[WhiteRain]

*hugs* Just a little advice...you don't have to stay for the reception if it makes you nervous...just go for the wedding and slip out afterwards.

Thank you!

I have decided to do that. I don't think it's rude, and I'll be proud of myself if I can just make it there and back without a panic attack...

Thanks so much,
Rain~

 

[beckybooiloveu]

*huge Hugs*

 

[FallingWaters]

Thanks so much. I need the prayers.

Yes, I pray by the minute! It does wonders, both inside and out... I am excited for my friend, and hope all goes well for her! Maybe focusing on her will let me forget my own worries...

I've thought and prayed and researched about the tattoo for years, and many things held me up, one of them being that I might regret it later and not be able to remove it!
In very brief description - the symbol has a cross, but it also has a very small "m" next to it... I have no fear at all of anyone outshining Jesus, and I think of Mary's mothering role as leading me toward the Holy Son. The more I look at the symbol, the more I remember how she always obeyed God, even in becoming His mother...

Rain~

Oooooooh... you meant THE Mary...
Holy Mary, mother of God.
I thought you have a human friend named Mary.

As a Protestant, I would have a very different view from you on that subject.

I pray that you will be able to enjoy yourself at the wedding, that God will shelter you under His wing, and that fear shall be bound up and removed far from you.

 

[reverie_maiden]

Thank you!

I have decided to do that. I don't think it's rude, and I'll be proud of myself if I can just make it there and back without a panic attack...

Thanks so much,
Rain~

Lord, let your dear child find her way to this wedding. Let the directions get her there safely and on time. Lord comfort her so that her nerves won't get the best of her. Let her find peace in You before she goes to the wedding. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

 

[reverie_maiden]

*hugs for all those that need them*

 

[Jo1]

Hugs to everyone here.
I could do with a hug tonight. went to church group first time for a while really. long story... but i kind of feel out of sorts, alone...thanks

 

[reverie_maiden]

Hugs to everyone here.
I could do with a hug tonight. went to church group first time for a while really. long story... but i kind of feel out of sorts, alone...thanks

*hugs, hugs, hugs* The Lord will never leave nor forsake you. He is all knowing and will comfort your wounds and pains far better than we ever could. Just know that if you need to talk things out and just get them off your chest I am here for you along with everyone else under this thread. If the matter is personal feel free to PM me and I will help you in whatever way I can. God bless! May the Lord give you peace when you need it the most.

 

[WhiteRain]

HUGE 's to everyone who needs them. Praying for you.


Also,


Thank you so much! to everyone who prayed for me. My day went very well, and I was blessed.

Rain~

 

[reverie_maiden]

HUGE 's to everyone who needs them. Praying for you.


Also,


Thank you so much! to everyone who prayed for me. My day went very well, and I was blessed.

Rain~

I'm glad to hear things went well! *hugs*

 

[Jo1]

*hugs, hugs, hugs* The Lord will never leave nor forsake you. He is all knowing and will comfort your wounds and pains far better than we ever could. Just know that if you need to talk things out and just get them off your chest I am here for you along with everyone else under this thread. If the matter is personal feel free to PM me and I will help you in whatever way I can. God bless! May the Lord give you peace when you need it the most.

thanks very much reveriemaiden bless you.
i still feel pretty down, but God is good. i apreciate that thanks very much. love Jo

 

[reverie_maiden]

thanks very much reveriemaiden bless you.
i still feel pretty down, but God is good. i apreciate that thanks very much. love Jo

I will continue to pray for you then.

"He will keep you safe from all hidden dangers. He will cover you with His wings; you will be safe in His care; His faithfulness will protect and defend you." (Psalms 91:3,4)

 

[beckybooiloveu]

hugs needed... im very stressed about exams....

 

[Jo1]

hugs needed... im very stressed about exams....

hugs, hugs, hugs beckybooiloveu. bless you.