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sunsong12
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This is going to be difficult, but, I feel like this might help me come out of the darkness.
I called my therapist about three weeks ago. I was very scared. That morning, I had thought of ending my life. These thoughts still scare me as I was raised that I have no right or reason to have or feel these thoughts. When mama died, I wanted to go and be with her wherever she was and I felt myself spiraling into a hole of darkness like I have never known. Fast forward, I reached for help and got better. These past two years have taken a toll on me and I struggle daily with the depression. I am again getting help and regretting that I have waited so long again. I am listening to a CD with positive affirmations and am getting out for fun more. I am trying not to be so afraid to spend money and my future, buy I am.
I applied for yet another job and hope that I at least get an interview. I feel like I could do the job, but, lingering thoughts of past rejection letters torment my thoughts.
I don't want to sound like a broken record, but I do have a lot I am coping with and feel weighted down. I really do.
I come here and feel connected to some positive chat and enjoy seeing familiar faces. I feel safe here. I told doctor I feel safe in her office and she said she is happy I feel that way.
Oh my word, the tears won't stop!
But, I remember a precious nun once telling me that tears are good because tears cleanse the soul.
I am going to get on with my day, take a shower and go to mass with son.
Thanks GOD for this place!
I called my therapist about three weeks ago. I was very scared. That morning, I had thought of ending my life. These thoughts still scare me as I was raised that I have no right or reason to have or feel these thoughts. When mama died, I wanted to go and be with her wherever she was and I felt myself spiraling into a hole of darkness like I have never known. Fast forward, I reached for help and got better. These past two years have taken a toll on me and I struggle daily with the depression. I am again getting help and regretting that I have waited so long again. I am listening to a CD with positive affirmations and am getting out for fun more. I am trying not to be so afraid to spend money and my future, buy I am.
I applied for yet another job and hope that I at least get an interview. I feel like I could do the job, but, lingering thoughts of past rejection letters torment my thoughts.
I don't want to sound like a broken record, but I do have a lot I am coping with and feel weighted down. I really do.
I come here and feel connected to some positive chat and enjoy seeing familiar faces. I feel safe here. I told doctor I feel safe in her office and she said she is happy I feel that way.
Oh my word, the tears won't stop!
But, I remember a precious nun once telling me that tears are good because tears cleanse the soul.
I am going to get on with my day, take a shower and go to mass with son.
Thanks GOD for this place!
