I'M AWAKE I PROMISE!!!
I drove my man to work this morning, which means that I had to get up an hour early. I'm feeling very lethargic after 2 days of not working out, and can't work out til like Wednesday between my back and my schedule.
I have a prayer meeting at church tonight and a Bible study tomorrow after work. I'm feeling skitterish about both because I'm so hurt still over my last church. I miss it so much, but I tried to go back and it was just.... empty. I mean, people were there but it seemed very flat and tired. There is a whole host of other issues to go with it, too. I don't know how to handle to sadness or heal or anything. I'm sad, plain and simple.
Work has been emotionally taxing lately. It's been stressful because I have a very full class now, and three of my kids have been on a roll with bad behavior. One of the kids I have had since I started teaching is transferring and I have such mixed feelings about it that I started bawling on Friday and had to have someone step into the classroom so I could compose myself. I only get to cuddle him for nap for two more weeks... and if I'm lucky I have another 4 phonics sessions with him. I'm losing another one of my kids to adoption, and I am so mad about that because I think it's the wrong choice and I feel so powerless to do anything about it.
Anyway, It's time to get off of here. It's another busy day ahead.