I've recently figured out I'm Borderline

[Godislove94]

Recently I came across a list of traits for Borderline Personality Disorder. Reading the facts made it undeniably clear to me that this is what I have. I'm so relieved to finally have a name for what I've been going through for as long as I can remember and it explains so much about why Christianity has been such a struggle for me...the paranoia, OCD and religious obsession, the back and forth between loving and hating God, the "out of it" feeling I have most of the time (which I've figured out is dissociation), the emotional outbursts that I frequently type on here and the intense way of experiencing feelings, etc. I'm so relieved to know that this is treatable.......so relieved.

Not only that but at my new church, God put someone in my life who struggled for a long time with mental illness and is very passionate about helping those who are and removing the stigma placed on them by society. I feel like a weight has been lifted...

 

[Zandy12]

Hey Godislove94, I'm happy to hear that you found a name for your illness. I'm sorry that you have it. I suffer from Clinical depression and ocd anxiety so know that your not alone. I too have those days where I love god and then I go completely anti-god also lol. Its really hard to stay consistent when you are all over the place mentally and emotionally. Make sure you talk to a therapist first to confirm and maybe possible you should seek out treatment. I'll pray for you, as I know living with a mental illness is NOT easy.

 

[Krissy Cakes]

The Internet is the worst place to get information. lol It freaks people out. Well I guess just me.

You need to go to your doctor and get properly diagnosed.

Praying for you.