I've fallen.....and I can't get up

[BklynNYMomof4]

I found this site just in time. I have been going through a very hard time spiritually.

My faith in God is All powerful but so many questions.

I am a 34 yr old single Mom with 4 children. I am a strong woman who has worked since the age of 15. I served in the US Navy from 89-91.
I am not a lazy woman nor a dumb one. I am willing to work hard for what I have and for what I want.

My life has always been fulfilling ....UNTIL...
about a year ago, while I was pregnant with my fourth child. My husband of 6 years LEFT. I have three children with him and one from a previous marriage.
After he left I found out how behind he was in the rent..How blind I was thinking all was well. I tried and tried to do the best I could ...but we lost the apartment. I am a product of the State System and have no family so we ended up in the NYC Homeless SHelters. Even this did not shake up my faith completely.

But now so many months later, where my situation seems to be getting worse and worse - Now I question my faith. Why would God Let my children go to sleep hungry most nights. I try and try to make things strech...I get $216 a mon on foodstamps for all 5 of us. I have never been on welfare before coming into the system.. I have been to every pantry I can think of. I have no babysitter for the children how do I go to work?? I am in a cathch 22
Why does God let us suffer so.

I can't provide my children the basic clothes they need never mind the small gifts I wish I could give them for Christmas.

I am begiing to wonder what I am supposed to do.

I don't want my children to see me cry when I give them a fried egg and white rice for dinner - aGAIn or when I wash out all their clothes by hand every night because it's all we have.

I am out of ideas on how to improve my situation I have gone through every resource.

Why would God let it be so difficult for someone who is trying so hard??

So many questions

 

[Bevlina]

I found this site just in time. I have been going through a very hard time spiritually.

My faith in God is All powerful but so many questions.

I am a 34 yr old single Mom with 4 children. I am a strong woman who has worked since the age of 15. I served in the US Navy from 89-91.
I am not a lazy woman nor a dumb one. I am willing to work hard for what I have and for what I want.

My life has always been fulfilling ....UNTIL...
about a year ago, while I was pregnant with my fourth child. My husband of 6 years LEFT. I have three children with him and one from a previous marriage.
After he left I found out how behind he was in the rent..How blind I was thinking all was well. I tried and tried to do the best I could ...but we lost the apartment. I am a product of the State System and have no family so we ended up in the NYC Homeless SHelters. Even this did not shake up my faith completely.

But now so many months later, where my situation seems to be getting worse and worse - Now I question my faith. Why would God Let my children go to sleep hungry most nights. I try and try to make things strech...I get $216 a mon on foodstamps for all 5 of us. I have never been on welfare before coming into the system.. I have been to every pantry I can think of. I have no babysitter for the children how do I go to work?? I am in a cathch 22
Why does God let us suffer so.

I can't provide my children the basic clothes they need never mind the small gifts I wish I could give them for Christmas.

I am begiing to wonder what I am supposed to do.

I don't want my children to see me cry when I give them a fried egg and white rice for dinner - aGAIn or when I wash out all their clothes by hand every night because it's all we have.

I am out of ideas on how to improve my situation I have gone through every resource.

Why would God let it be so difficult for someone who is trying so hard??

So many questions

You poor little pet. How I wish I could just go to you and help you. I can pray for you, and I do that.
It isn't God who is doing this to you. Sadly, there are many young Mum's in the same position as you all over the world. And, all you can do is to hold onto your faith and pray. This must be a shocking time for you. I cannot imagine your grief, but, I have seen wonderful miracles happen through prayer from Believer's and the Prayer Warriors on this Site.
Hold onto your Faith Mary, don't waver now. Don't let the enemy win. Tell our Father in Heaven you submit to HIS Will, and ask for His protection. Also, ask Him for an Angel to protect you and your children.
Yes, many miracles have happened on this site Mary. CF is a Ministry.

 

[cyberwing]

BklynNYMom,
's You poor lamb!! There IS an answer you just need to find it! What church have you been attending? Any one on a regular basis? If so, have you gone to the pastor/priest/minister?
There ARE programs in place to help you. You just need to find them and sometimes this is a daunting task. Ask God to help you find them, ask Him to guide you. HERE is the biggest task, TRUST Him! Father God is not moved by need, but HE is moved by deep FAITH! We can have great needs and still live for the devil and reject Our Heavenly Father. HE wants us to come to Him with love and surrendered hearts, ready to change and do whatever it takes to come closer to HIM. Don't try to do this in your strength, you will fail. Look to HIM and LEAN on HIM.

There are programs to re-educate single moms into jobs that are currently hiring. PM me precious lady, lets see if we answer some of your questions. I'm so desperately sorry about what has happened to you. It is wrong, it is a wicked attack, sent by the enemy to deeply hurt and destroy you and your children. You can rise above this evil attack and be an overcomer! for you Sister!!! 's My PM box is open!
~Cyberwing

 

[jkotinek]

What incredible gift of faith and love you've been given to not have given up on God or your family.

God bless you BklynNYMom, you are an inspiration.

Is there an address you can share (or email address if you have regular internet access) that those of us who would like to help could send something to?

 

[cyberwing]

We are going to keep lifting you up to the throne of Our Father 's Bevlina's SO right! There have been miracles accomplished by the prayers of the Saints and the saints are those who accept JESUS as their Savior and Lord!!! God can change circumstances in a moment! Look at HIS Holy Word, HE likes that word...SUDDENLY... Jesus, take BlynNYMom and her children and place them in Your care. You said in Your Word that you would become their provider. That what father would when their child asked for bread give them a stone, how much more will our HEAVENLY FATHER provide for us? So JESUS we are asking you to provide for them and give Mary the path You wish for her to take. As we remember Your precious gift to us this season we lift Mary and her family up to you and ask you to bless them abundantly beyond anything they think or ask, according to Your Word! Now JESUS we want to thank you for DOING all of this. We know you are faithful and true and that we can trust you implictly. We praise you for being the wonderful JESUS who loves us! Thank you JESUS for Mary and her children. Each of them is a wonderous gift to all of us! Thank you for their lives and the wonderous gifts you have placed within each of them! Thank you for your provision and your LOVE! JESUS you are AMAZING!



's Mary and lift up your eyes to the Lord for HE LOVES you!
~Cyberwing

 

[crossrunner]

What every one has said has been truly wonderful...its hard for me to add any thing meaningful. Please just know that I'm praying for you and your family. Things of this world will let you down but our Lord Jesus never will.


Philippians 4:19
19And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.

 

[BklynNYMomof4]

I can't tell you all how much I appreciate the warm welcome. My emotions have been on a steady climb uphill since I joined this morning. Thank You

 

[bubblefish]

You are in my prayers and the prayers of many of the people at the church I attend...may God bless you and your children, may he watch over you and protect you during this horrible time

 

[Johnnz]

You need to be really practical. Can you find a supportive church? You will need help from other people, as economic realities are real, and only practical support from others will assist you in your desperate situation.

Yes, prayer and trust in God are fine, but God does not send ravens to feed us that often. Real people, with real time and real resources to help you are necessary.

John
NZ

 

[lovespeace]

What city are you in? There are resources. Let us know, I bet we can find them off the internet.

 

[Digi]

I agree with what everyone here has said, but I also have something to add. There are so many people suffering around the world, in so many different ways, and most of them wonder the same things you are wondering now. None of these peoples troubles should be put down as one being worse than the other because, in the end, we all hurt - but good does come from it. We know troubled times make us stronger, but they can also make the people around us stronger. For a long time, I wondered why my life had played out the way it has so far, and I began to understand why when someone told me this: The hardships we go through, can help us when helping other people. Right now, our prayers are for your family, but maybe one day, a couple years down the road, you'll see someone in the same situation you're in now; and you'll understand them. People look all over for people to understand them, for someone to relate to, and one day you may be that person.

I know that right now other people aside from your family aren't the main things on your mind (If I were in your situation, I would also be concerned about my kids first), but it's a way to see hope, or the slightest bit of reason to the difficulties in our lives. God doesn't just 'let things happen' the way we often think He does; we've gotta remember that mankind has free will, and the free will of others effects us every day. Who knows, maybe one day your troubles will end up helping someone find their way to Jesus And having an eternity in heaven with Him.

Also, look at the many blessings he's given you. I know it can be a super hard thing to do sometimes . But even your children are gifts straight from God - let your glass always be half-full, not half-empty.

I will ask my friends and family to pray for you as well. And I know that all of us here are eager to help you! You've inspired so many people already! God Bless you and your family!!

 

[BklynNYMomof4]

I am so grateful to all who have written a response I am in Brooklyn NY with my children and I have been inspired by this website in an unbelievable way.

 

[Lyle]

Now I question my faith. Why would God Let my children go to sleep hungry most nights.

Remember, they are His children as well, and He loves them far more then you ever will. God always has a plan, and everything that happens in our life is a direct cause of something Spiritual. Oten times we look to things as the answer. We think that if we have material possessions then we are good to go, forgetting who God is and that the Spiritual is more important then the physical.. Look at Job for example. Everything was taken from him (except his wife). His land, his animals, his servants, his children, all gone, and all dead when God allowed Satan to strike Job. But Job had faithin the Lord and said these two phrases (Well, that I'll pick out).

"Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him."

"I know my Redeemer lives, and I will stand with Him on that day."

You do not serve a dead God, nor the God of the dead.. But a God of the living, and has made His servants to be alive even today. A Christian cannot die.. Simply stated. Though the body may perish the soul will live on. If we have pain in this life, we will have the greater joy in the next.. Paul says that we sholdn't count the mild trails of this life as anything in the weight of eternity.

God has not left you. Look at the Christians during the reign of the Roman lord Nero. They were beaten, arrested, starved, boiled alive in oil, sawn in two, fed to animals, hung, burnt at the stake, drug by horses, hung in the baskets for the wasps to eat, racked, whipped,mutilated.. But through these trails they were perfected. They stood their faith upon God and did not waver in the face of trails.. And for this they were counted worthy to suffer has Christ did..

In life this will happen. God has told us in His word to endure the tribulations and we will recieve a crown of glory. To stand against the pain and stay our faith upon Christ. We are not promised tomorrow, or even our next breath.. Instead we must commit ourselves to a faithful and living God...

 

[forgivenmuch]

im so sorry that you are having to go thru all this... its really so sad. i just dont know what to tell you .. this is so rough.. all i can say is maybe move to another state that will help you.. the laws are different from state to state. and im sure that a state would do better than what you are getting now. if you have no family there ... and no attachments .. then why not look on the net .. to see what state can help you most.
i know here in Ga.. they have public housing for homeless ...or low income familys..
and the houses/apartments are pretty nice.. for a low price of like 100.00 a month..
plus they help you with foodstamps ...and also ..they have a tanna program that pays you ... until you find a job. you need to find a church and make some friends.. thier are so many people that would help you. you are maybe in the wrong state for half decent help. you are going to have to find a way in this difficult time ... and push thru ..and if it takes moving to another state then move. God bless you .. your in my prayers

 

[greyhound]

I'm sorry things are so rough right now. I don't have the answers, but I know Who does. There are things we don't understand, but that is where faith comes in.

I lost my job, had complications with surgery, then hubby had to have emergency surgery (with no insurance.) Our income was cut in half, but we continued tithing. Our church family has been so good to us. Our church even helped us out financially.

Things will get better. May God richly bless you and your family.

 

[Acquired Tastes]

BklynNYMomof4

I just said a prayer for you and your children.

We all have times when everything seems to be going against us, and when we question God. Even Jesus, suffering for our sins on the cross, asked "My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?" It is good you have not abandoned your faith in these trying times. God is there for you, and always will be.

I hope you and your children have a wonderful Christmas, and I will continue to keep you and your children in my prayers.

 

[TheMainException]

Oh dear sister!!!! How my heart cries for you...this situation makes me cry...I wish I could help...from where I sit...I send my love....find a church, another charity...anything that can offer you help...many churches offer day care...see if you might be able to work something out with them...I wish you lived around here...I'm sure my church would hook you up...man, I wish things like this didn't have to happen...I don't understand it right now...but I know that God will use you in a mighty way...you are not alone, but hold onto that faith....God is with you always, through the fog, the spit, the pain, the angst, the anger, the grief, through it all...he is there...this will work out in the end...sacrifice everything for your kids and your reward will be great...my love to you dear sister...Love always...remember your children first...I'm sure you do, Lauren

 

[wardpossy]

My Sunday school class has been studying one book of the Bible each week. Beginning with Genesis, we are looking at the theme, structure, and uniqueness of each book. Little did I realize that two women in my class were eager to get to the book of Job. They are nurses who daily confront the problem of human suffering, and they are often asked hard questions about God's role in it.

All too often the explanation for suffering is similar to that expressed by Job's three friends who came to sit with him. One after another, Eliphaz, Bildad, and Zophar told Job that he deserved the suffering because of his sin. The young observer Elihu came along and told Job the same thing.

The real reason Job was suffering was that Satan, the leader of the fallen angels, was trying to get him to turn from God. Because Satan cannot dethrone the Lord, he opposes Him by attacking His followers (1 Peter 5:8). He strikes at God by tempting us to sin.

One reason for suffering, therefore, is that it's part of a larger, cosmic struggle. During hard times, we face the choice to trust God or to turn from Him. If we endure suffering with our trust in the Lord unshaken, we will thwart Satan's efforts and glorify our God. —DCE

How oft in the conflict, when pressed by the foe,
I have fled to my Refuge and breathed out my woe;
How often, when trials like sea billows roll,
Have I hidden in Thee, O Thou Rock of my soul. —Cushing
When your world is shaking, run to the Rock.


Warrior For Christ, Jeff I will pray for you, and if you are interested email me and I'll give you a website that is excellent for you

 

[bloodofthelamb12]

Beloved daughter of the God we share, do not think yourself forgotten; know you not why Jesus wept? He who was a perfect lamb, innocent and without sin, cast forth His eyes across the breadth of time and saw you struggling to make ends meet. And it was for your struggle that He suffered on the cross; that His compassionate Spirit might come out of the temple of men's hands and enter the Temple of men's willing hearts.

I cannot claim to know the end toward which God works, for as He has spoken, "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts." (Isaiah 55:9) What I do know is He has promised us this: "A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you; and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes, and ye shall keep mine ordinances, and do them. And ye shall dwell in the land that I gave to your fathers; and ye shall be my people, and I will be your God. And I will save you from all your uncleannesses: and I will call for the grain, and will multiply it, and lay no famine upon you. And I will multiply the fruit of the tree, and the increase of the field, that ye may receive no more the reproach of famine among the nations." (Ezekiel 36:26-30)

God shall provide you with what you require; even if he gives you but little bread. I urge you sister to set for your example the widow, Naomi; robbed of her husband, she had nothing to call her own. And so she was widowed to poverty and hunger, left seemingly without support or sustenance. But know you this, dear sister; the Lord of Glory saw her anguish, and her tears were not far from His sight. No doubt, He will comfort you as was Naomi comforted, if you will simply stand beyond these present times of trouble. Long may be the desert, but glorious and bountiful is the land beyond its end.

May God bless and guide you always,
Caleb

 

[Arkanin]

Hi,

I just want to say I'm sorry to hear about your bad situation. There are just a couple things I'd ask about because it sounds to me like you are a person who just plain does not have enough money.

About child support, does your husband owe it to you? I have worked a job before with legal aid services that perform litigation on men who illegally don't pay it or otherwise avoid it. These services are free and government provided. I don't think there's anything wrong with getting the child support you are owed when your kids deserve it. This is, in the least, something you should look into. I would suggest you visit legal aid services in your area -- they can tell you if they can help you.

Also, I'd suggest you find an index of charities and such that might be willing to help you. These are usually not very difficult to acquire if you are in a big city. And, have you looked into the free public housing projects? If nothing else, when you are a good person who is trying hard, there is no shame in sometimes just plain needing some help.

Best wishes,

Ark