Its hard to post this

[forgivenfree90]

I want to ask that you would please pray for me.

i went 26 years without looking at sexual things online and "releasing" (partially because the med i was on took ALL sexual desire away) but i have over the past year become bombarded by this set of sins in full force. I am completely crushed by the weight of my sin in this area. most times i do it i physically cry and beg God that he wouldn't give up on me.

To make this even more serious a few times when ive been praying for forgiveness certain verses have popped into my head. I dont mean the verse itself i mean the verse number and book i feel like this is God speaking to me in a way. The first time was the exact verse where Jesus says your sins are forgiven now go sin no more to the woman caught in adultery.

but one time i fell into this sin "1 John 3:9" popped into my head.

which says

"No one who is born of God practices sin, because His seed abides in him; and
he cannot sin, because he is born of God."

and continuing onto verse 10

"10 By this the children of God and the children of the devil are obvious: anyone who does not practice righteousness is not of God, nor the one who does not love his brother."

i had no idea what this verse said, hadnt been reading 1 John or anything

after this i couldn't even lift my head up for a while, the extreme force it hit me with was frightening all i could say through my tears was "God have mercy on me a sinner"

I am sinning habitually. i am sinning against a holy God, i am abusing his grace, yet in this moment i somehow still do it. Im having so much trouble approaching the throne of grace with any confidence as a result. Im starting to take more drastic measures in hopes they will be of help but my efforts so far havnt been of much good.

i dont know what to do...
Please pray for me

 

[Southernscotty]

Hello friend and welcome to CF, We are honored that you are here. I am about to preach this morning, However I will private message as soon as possible today and we will visit ok. God bless you :]

 

[Richard T]

Praying that you will find the grace and peace of the Lord Jesus. Recall what Paul wrote in 1 Corinthians 7:7-9 (KJV)
7 For I would that all men were even as I myself. But every man hath his proper gift of God, one after this manner, and another after that. 8 I say therefore to the unmarried and widows, It is good for them if they abide even as I. 9 But if they cannot contain, let them marry: for it is better to marry than to burn. (with passion)

Obviously, this scripture shows God knows there is a struggle in this area for many. Rather than constantly condemning yourself, learn more about who you are in Christ and how to walk more in the spirit. Especially look at how you are the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus, not by your works but by the work of Jesus. As your mind is renewed, you will be able to walk in the spirit more and more. Please do not let the devil put you down so much that you feel worthless and unable to read the word, go to church or have Christian fellowship.