It's been a tough weekend......

[SeRapH&CheRi]

I've had an incredibly tough weekend, emotionally. I wasn't going to post this, but I knew that it was my pride that was preventing me to do so. Anyways, here's what's been going on with me.

First of all started last Thursday night when I went out for dinner with some friends in Philly. I won't go into any gory details, but I'll give you the gist of what I've been feeling. It was nothing that my friends did, it was all me. I found myself regressing to adolescence by comparing myself with them in a physical manner. This is an area that has been a struggle for me most of life and somehow it just magnified itself and reared its ugly head this weekend. It's actually been pretty depressing and has really affected me all weekend. It's driving me nuts because I work with teenagers and am tirelessly adovcating for the importance of beauty on the inside and that our worth should never be measured by what we wear or how we look like in the physical manner. It's sad that I'm dealing with the same issues. Please pray that I will be content with myself and the gifts that God has given me and that I see myself the way God sees me; because right now I honestly don't like what I'm seeing.

Secondly, I am feeling quite restless with the ministry that I am working with. I am sensing the Lord's leading in another direction. I have looked into another option and am trusting in faith that the Lord will provide and lead me to where I am supposed to be. My desire is to be in the center of His will and I am seriously seeking Him through all this. In the meantime I feel that my attitude is really affecting my work with the kids in this particular ministry. Please pray that the Lord will give me strength and inimitible joy as I minister to these teenagers. Last week really tore down my spirit and I honestly dread this coming new week.

I am sensing that I really need spiritual coverage, especially in this coming week, so if you can all please pray for me, I would really appreciate it.

Thanks so much for taking the time to read this and for praying. I'll keep you guys posted.

 

[Nick_Loves_Abba]

Prayin for ya man. I know how it feels to compare yourslef to other people. I asked my sister today if I had a big nose, and the 8 year old replied, I can't answer that question. Thanks sis.

 

[fieldmouse3]

Hey, I'm praying for you, too. I hope you feel better soon!

 

[amie]

Hi S&C,
I know that you are a unique beauty to this world, but what is really spectacular about you is your heart. You have this amazing capacity to help people and a deep desire to do so. I love that, I always felt that whoever ended up with you is truly lucky and blessed. BTW, I have 7 brothers...LOL...I am praying for you in all aspects of your life. People know it is truly what is on the inside that counts. It is ones spirit that matters most. All of my high school friends were breath taking beautiful and I tend to think of myself as just an average lookin gal, but guess who was the prom queen? yup, me. my looks? heck no, my spirit I had within me, that was it. You are an exquisite treasure to this world and I am honored to have you as a friend! I will pray for your ministry, and I wish you only the best in life! I love you always...
your friend
Amie

P.S. Nick...I think you probably have an adorable nose...

 

[solo66 man]

It is a satanic attack. Pray against this attack. He knows you weak points and your strong points. He can attack your weak points, but he likes to attack what you consider your strong points. That is because you are less guarded on that level. So, it is easier for him to sneak in.
Let me know if I am right. I think I am. Pray against his dominions and demons. Pray against his work as the devourer. You were fine up until that moment and now you cant shake it. It is demonic.
Let me know please. God will give you all you need. You know that. Peace, strength in Him, love for yourself, and love for God. Faith He will answer your prayers is already in you. Do not be afraid. He is there with you and a thousand angels right now. He will drive out the darkness that is invading your life right now.
God Bless you

 

[coastie]

I agree with Solo.

I pray for God to give you strength. Lord knows we all need it.

God Bless you sister.

Zach

 

[Gerry]

Have a look at my profile photo. It is not WHAT I look like but WHO I am that makes me beautiful or not beautiful. And who I am positionaly in Christ makes me a knock out!

Being a female you may not understand this, but an ugly Christian woman is FAR more beautiful than a georgeous woman of the world. Because when Jesus is in your heart it shows on the outside, and there is none so lovely as Jesus.

When I see me in the flesh, I do not see beauty. But that is the wisdom in the song we sing, "Let others see Jesus in You". When they see Jesus they see Sweet Beauty.

I see Jesus in what you have written here and I see Beauty!

 

[forjesus]

praying for you. God Bless

 

[SeRapH&CheRi]

Thanks you guys! I really appreciate your encouragement. With regards to my decision to leaving this particular ministry, I was talking to a good friend of mine about it today and she what she said has placed a new twist on things. I have a feeling that this is what God might want me to do and if I take this next step, it will be the biggest step of faith that I will have made this year. Here's the deal, I haven't told my supervisor about how I have been feeling and how I am sensing the Lord's leading in another direction. Reason being is that I want to make sure that this other option is in place. Make sense, right? Well my friend challenged me to talk with my supervisor and let him know what I've been thinking and feeling - burned out, dreading the summer program, tired, etc..... this week, even though I have no idea as to what's going on with this other place that I've applied with. Kinda scary huh? Well it is for me. I honestly wanted to make sure things were in place but I am thinking that God wants me to take this big step of faith and tell my supervisor that I am seriously thinking of resigning from my position, without anything in place. What do you guys think? The reality of this really is quite disconcerting. I appreciate your continual prayers.
Love and Blessings to you all,
S&C

 

[Blynn]

I am also praying!

God bless you
Roberta

 

[jeremiah]

hey canadian girl,
well I think you are beautiful. thats really all that matters right? although I can beat you horribly in volleyball, I will be quixotic to you knowing that you have had a rough week. I will pray for both your volleyball skills to increase and for any of your personal dilemnas you may be in right now. Follow the light inside your heart. Go with God but stay with us. Praying for you canada girl.
Peace

 

[amie]

Hi Joy,
I knew he'd find his way over to your prayer sometime tonight...
wow Jer, you sure are being discreet...(wink)
Amie

 

[SeRapH&CheRi]

Originally posted by amie
Hi Joy,
I knew he'd find his way over to your prayer sometime tonight...
wow Jer, you sure are being discreet...(wink)
Amie

Tell me about it amie! Is he always this public?????

 

[jeremiah]

yes. I am. I am right here and as the knower of everything, feel free to come get some free advice
(wink, wink, wink)
am I getting anywhere??
kidding, in all sincerity, my prayers are with you beloved bug.
Peace

 

[SeRapH&CheRi]

Originally posted by jeremiah
yes. I am. I am right here and as the knower of everything, feel free to come get some free advice
(wink, wink, wink)
am I getting anywhere??
kidding, in all sincerity, my prayers are with you beloved bug.
Peace

so you think that you have infinite wisdom huh? well, i sure wish you did....then you could tell me what to do with my life! but alas, that's in God's hands.

and are you getting anywhere? heheheh.....now don't you wish mr. surfing is my passion!

Thanks for praying jer......(more brownie points! )

 

[SeRapH&CheRi]

Hello friends!
Thank you so much for your continual prayers! I just received a phone call from that place in Philly and they want me to come in sometime next week for a second interview!

I am also going to talk to my supervisor tomorrow so please pray that I will be open and honest with how i've been feeling. I will also be informing him of this possible job in philly. Please pray for me tomorrow morning! Thanks guys!

 

[SeRapH&CheRi]

Just wanted to post and say thanks to you all who kept me in your prayers last week. It was a good week at the school and there was this spirit of peace that settled upon the classroom each day. I know it was because of your prayers and God's presence in the classroom. This is the last week of school so I know that it's going to be chaotic. Please continue to keep us and the kids in your prayers.

as for my convesation with my supervisor.......it turned out very well. i talked with him last friday about how i've been sensing God leading me towards another direction and he was so incredibly supportive. (praise God!) of course, being the emotional woman i am i ended up bawling in his office. (actually come to think of it, that's nothing new to him because I've bawled in his office on a number of occassions) today i announced to the rest of our department staff of my plans for leaving and again i started to bawl again.

i have a second interview with that place in philly i told you all about this thursday, june 6th. so please keep me in your prayers.

Thank you all for your love, encouragement and prayers!

S&C

 

[Kristen]

Praying for you S&C.

 

[SeRapH&CheRi]

Thanks kristen!
S&C

 

[wvmtnkid]

Gosh S&C, I think we could almost be twins! I seem to be going through some of the same situations you are in now so I definately can understand how you are feeling. I am somewhat disatisfied with my job at the moment and have been praying for God to open up the doors of opportunity for me. I will pray that your second interview goes well and that God will reveal His will to you in this situation.

I also suffer from low self esteem at times. (Having gorgeous friends doesn't help, does it?!? ) Anyway the one thing that usually helps me is reminding myself that I am created in God's image. When I think about how awesome that statement is it helps me put things in perspective.

Anway, I'll keep you in my prayers girl! Stay strong!