hello
i hope this doesnt go to long,
this really blessed me and challenged me to have a more passionate commitment and pursuit of God and holiness. this really spoke to me.
it comes from psalm 68.1-2
1 To the chief Musician, A Psalm or Song of David. Let God arise, let his enemies be scattered: let them also that hate him flee before him. 2 As smoke is driven away, so drive them away: as wax melteth before the fire, so let the wicked perish at the presence of God.
i got so much out of those two verses like how the bible describes wickedness or sin being overcome, as a wax candle being melted by heat or fire.
its like God told me that the sin in my life would only be overcome by fire, by passion. that if i had no passion, that id never be free of the things i struggle with. that being calm, and serene and and nice and pretty isnt always enough, sometimes you have to get beside yourself and sick of something so much that your passion rises up in you and you fight that thing becuase you just wont go back to it anymore.
i dont believe pretty prayers always work, sometimes you have to be furvent as james said. i believe that unless we get hot with the firey passion of God for holiness and all the things of God, that we will never be what we need to be as a church in body and individually.
i believe it takes the fire of God, the holy fire that a person has when they are past their wits and dont know what to think anymore but their just sick and tired of putting up with the devil and all they can do is get up and out of their shear passion begin to pray like they havent prayed in a long time, cry out to God like they havent cried out to him in a long time. and begin to resist the devil like they havent in a long time, becuase they are beginning to hate him.
they go back and redig the wells of passion again. maybe its desperation, but God likes that, because then he can amase us and then were willing to fight again!
its like God said to me that sometimes im not resisting enough, i dont want to be free bad enough, not enough to fight for it, not enough to walk around my room in furvent prayer for hours until i beat this spirit of burning lust that is tearing at me the whole time.
i believe when we really get sick of sin, when we really get sick of the devil, when we get desperate enough to catch back on fire and have some passion, then we can make some headway.
because sin is overcome, like wax melting before the fire.
but if we become content with the pattern of failure, it will surely rule us forever.
if you can be willing to fight, even if it looks hopeless, maybe just fight desperately becuase you just cant go back to that! my God maybe its a desperate fight! maybe your just desperate to be free, if you can get up and start swinging the sword of the word of God and commanding that devil to go, MY GOD YOU CAN WIN! YOU CAN WIN! have faith, you CAN WIN! you can beat that thing. the pain wont last always! and hes making us into true battle worn warriors that wont run anymore!
and im learning that, that even if i feel im going down, im about to go do that old sin again, ITS NOT OVER YET! THE BATTLE IS NOT LOST! THE DEVIL IS A LIAR! I CAN STILL WIN THIS! and if i just hang on, keep passionatly praying, keep casting down the devil and commanding him out of my life, keep confessing victory, I CAN WIN! AND MY GOD IT FEELS SO GOOD TO REALISE YOU BEAT HIM THIS TIME! especcially when this is something that you never win at.
sometimes your just have to hold on and refuse to sin, even if the pain doesnt stop, the pulling doesnt stop, thats your cross you have to bear as a servant and soldier of Jesus. the cross is the true picture of passion. nothing else really gets it. bear the cross. my God learn to fight back and endure the pain.
i think ive gone too long, but the verse also says to let God arise... and i believe we need to LET God arise in our lives, but its up to us, its up to us to be passionate and be a flame of fire that will fight to the bitter-end and be faithful, and its up to us to pray passionatly and maybe for a while if were desperate enough for a move of God, its up to us to passionatly dig into the word of God and sharpen our sword so we can better cut up the devil, its up to us let God fight for us.
it takes the fire, or well never win.
well never win being calm, well never win being serene, well never win being pretty all the time, sometimes it takes blood and weariness and painful passion, to get things no one has ever got before, to win battles weve always lost.
how desperate are we? how much do we really want it? the pain tests us, and i think we are often found wanting and we turn back.
the bible says we can be free and have all power over the devil, yet so many of us are struggling through life, and it hurts and its demoralising i know, but i dont want this anymore, im sick of it, i cant do this anymore. i have to be free. i wont let the devil make a mockery of me anymore. im sick of lust holding all the cards everyday of my life for year after year and it doing whatever it wants with me... im sick of losing to it over and over and over again. i may go out, but im gonna go out believing and fighting this time.
but i recently beat it, and i know i can beat it again, but it did hurt, and it took me marching around my room for about a hour or so late at night preaching to myself and seeking God and commanding the spirit of lust to leave. and after while, i still felt like i was losing, but i was just too sick of it to do it again... so i was desperately passionately seeking freedom.
AND I WON! PRAISE GOD THAT WAS ONE NIGHT I BEAT IT! IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I HAD EVER BEAT IT! AND I KNOW NOW, I KNOW IT CAN BE BEATEN! but it took the fire, or i wouldnt have been able to resist.
im sorry that was so long, its just so close to my heart.
Godbless,
Lee.
i hope this doesnt go to long,
this really blessed me and challenged me to have a more passionate commitment and pursuit of God and holiness. this really spoke to me.
it comes from psalm 68.1-2
1 To the chief Musician, A Psalm or Song of David. Let God arise, let his enemies be scattered: let them also that hate him flee before him. 2 As smoke is driven away, so drive them away: as wax melteth before the fire, so let the wicked perish at the presence of God.
i got so much out of those two verses like how the bible describes wickedness or sin being overcome, as a wax candle being melted by heat or fire.
its like God told me that the sin in my life would only be overcome by fire, by passion. that if i had no passion, that id never be free of the things i struggle with. that being calm, and serene and and nice and pretty isnt always enough, sometimes you have to get beside yourself and sick of something so much that your passion rises up in you and you fight that thing becuase you just wont go back to it anymore.
i dont believe pretty prayers always work, sometimes you have to be furvent as james said. i believe that unless we get hot with the firey passion of God for holiness and all the things of God, that we will never be what we need to be as a church in body and individually.
i believe it takes the fire of God, the holy fire that a person has when they are past their wits and dont know what to think anymore but their just sick and tired of putting up with the devil and all they can do is get up and out of their shear passion begin to pray like they havent prayed in a long time, cry out to God like they havent cried out to him in a long time. and begin to resist the devil like they havent in a long time, becuase they are beginning to hate him.
they go back and redig the wells of passion again. maybe its desperation, but God likes that, because then he can amase us and then were willing to fight again!
its like God said to me that sometimes im not resisting enough, i dont want to be free bad enough, not enough to fight for it, not enough to walk around my room in furvent prayer for hours until i beat this spirit of burning lust that is tearing at me the whole time.
i believe when we really get sick of sin, when we really get sick of the devil, when we get desperate enough to catch back on fire and have some passion, then we can make some headway.
because sin is overcome, like wax melting before the fire.
but if we become content with the pattern of failure, it will surely rule us forever.
if you can be willing to fight, even if it looks hopeless, maybe just fight desperately becuase you just cant go back to that! my God maybe its a desperate fight! maybe your just desperate to be free, if you can get up and start swinging the sword of the word of God and commanding that devil to go, MY GOD YOU CAN WIN! YOU CAN WIN! have faith, you CAN WIN! you can beat that thing. the pain wont last always! and hes making us into true battle worn warriors that wont run anymore!
and im learning that, that even if i feel im going down, im about to go do that old sin again, ITS NOT OVER YET! THE BATTLE IS NOT LOST! THE DEVIL IS A LIAR! I CAN STILL WIN THIS! and if i just hang on, keep passionatly praying, keep casting down the devil and commanding him out of my life, keep confessing victory, I CAN WIN! AND MY GOD IT FEELS SO GOOD TO REALISE YOU BEAT HIM THIS TIME! especcially when this is something that you never win at.
sometimes your just have to hold on and refuse to sin, even if the pain doesnt stop, the pulling doesnt stop, thats your cross you have to bear as a servant and soldier of Jesus. the cross is the true picture of passion. nothing else really gets it. bear the cross. my God learn to fight back and endure the pain.
i think ive gone too long, but the verse also says to let God arise... and i believe we need to LET God arise in our lives, but its up to us, its up to us to be passionate and be a flame of fire that will fight to the bitter-end and be faithful, and its up to us to pray passionatly and maybe for a while if were desperate enough for a move of God, its up to us to passionatly dig into the word of God and sharpen our sword so we can better cut up the devil, its up to us let God fight for us.
it takes the fire, or well never win.
well never win being calm, well never win being serene, well never win being pretty all the time, sometimes it takes blood and weariness and painful passion, to get things no one has ever got before, to win battles weve always lost.
how desperate are we? how much do we really want it? the pain tests us, and i think we are often found wanting and we turn back.
the bible says we can be free and have all power over the devil, yet so many of us are struggling through life, and it hurts and its demoralising i know, but i dont want this anymore, im sick of it, i cant do this anymore. i have to be free. i wont let the devil make a mockery of me anymore. im sick of lust holding all the cards everyday of my life for year after year and it doing whatever it wants with me... im sick of losing to it over and over and over again. i may go out, but im gonna go out believing and fighting this time.
but i recently beat it, and i know i can beat it again, but it did hurt, and it took me marching around my room for about a hour or so late at night preaching to myself and seeking God and commanding the spirit of lust to leave. and after while, i still felt like i was losing, but i was just too sick of it to do it again... so i was desperately passionately seeking freedom.
AND I WON! PRAISE GOD THAT WAS ONE NIGHT I BEAT IT! IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I HAD EVER BEAT IT! AND I KNOW NOW, I KNOW IT CAN BE BEATEN! but it took the fire, or i wouldnt have been able to resist.
im sorry that was so long, its just so close to my heart.
Godbless,
Lee.
