Isaiah complex (pastors)

[looksgood]

I do not know where to start. To speak the truth my heart is broken on this thought. God has called me to be a pastor. I will not bother you with details as to how I know since they are irrelavent at this point. But I feel very much like Isaiah right now.

Isaiah 6

"Woe is me for I am undone!"

I am horrified at my own lack of prayer and seeking of God...yet He has called me to this task! I have been walking by faith alone since the spirit of God has chosen to hide His overwelming power from my heart (in other words I feel as though God is not beside me yet I know He is and so I continue).

Even in this I see Gods teaching and He shows me heart of those who seek His face in a dark world.

But how can I lead if I myself am undone? Am I supposed to feel the power of God as He gives me words? Or am I to use the faith I was given to seek out the words to speak? And how great a sorrow it is for me to know the souls of those under me are required of me...yet my own soul is hard to tame.

 

[plmarquette]

Every man God used was flawed or a failure... Paul said he uses the weak and dumb to confound the wise and the strong ... take heart

Proverbs 24.16 says get up 1 more time than you fall down ... we all have speed bumps, mountains, and valleys ... keep going

Philippians 4.13 says I can do ... so can you

Matthew 19.26 says when it is impossible for us , God is into impossible stuff , believe

Isaiah told God he had a problem , God sen an Fed-ex angel , tongs and a coal to fix it ...& used him mightily take heart, believe

take a step , go to bible school , talk with pastor , pray ask for confirmation - Mark 16.20 ; speak to mountains between you and your vision ... Mark 11.23-24

 

[Autumnleaf]

You get over your pity party, stop being a martyr and move on. You can always go to Circle K if the God stuff doesn't work out.