is this SA? or grooming?

[littleluna]

when i was 9 years old, i was new to a sunday school class. the teacher would draw our lessons.

he even drew the story of david and bathsheba and drew her naked.

i was afraid to draw her. he laughed at me.

one morning he massaged my shoulders and quickly went down to where my br***** would be if i had any.

i was getting bigger and growing. i started to smell i sat further away from him cos i always ended up sitting next to him in our class.
he defended me when a boy teased me and wanted to know why i sat further away. one time he said he was sad cos i did not want a donut.

 

[SurvivorGirl]

What you experienced is sexual abuse, and if you were still in contact with this man, I'd encourage you expose him. What he did went beyond the grooming stage. I am so very sorry. Have you seen a counselor?

 

[littleluna]

thank you for your reply. i don't go to that church anymore. word has that he still goes.

i haven't seen a counselor....well when i did it was cut short. mom got angry when i got suicidal. i am no longer technically allowed to go to a counselor........

 

[Johnnz]

Can you go to a pastor or elder, someone at the church. That should not arouse suspicions. You do need to talk to someone though. It is beginning to affect you it seems.

John
NZ

 

[littleluna]

someone at his church? maybe. seems too scary. a lot of people like him.

maybe i am making too much of this.....

 

[Johnnz]

No you aren't.

It a) has affected you - what he did was wrong. b) He has issues he needs to address. Otherwise he may do that again, or it could progress even further with more drastic results for him, as well as others being affected.

John
NZ

 

[littleluna]

will i be horrible if i dont tell?

told mom before but not full details a long time ago. maybe im overexaggerating. i had a friend told me that the heigh distance he could have accidentally touched them and its not wrong to masage my shoulders :/

 

[Johnnz]

No, not horrible in any way. Its more a matter of responsibility, whether you might help stop something like that happening again. Against that, it was a long time ago. maybe accept what he did was wrong and move on in your new life in Christ.

John
NZ

 

[_Ella_]

Little Luna
what that person did was wrong ... i know its very hard but you need to tell some one about this...you are not overreaching or over exaggerating.
This is abuse ...what your mom is doing is wrong by hiding this and saying that your making it up

Please tell a teacher or someone you trust