Is this right????

[Zita123]

I am in my manic state right now, But, I am a very loving person ,with a big heart. I can't believe the way I'm acting!!
Yesterday, I was so mad that I just punched the dashboard in my car over and over and over until I couldn't anymore..
Is this part of the manic stage I'm experiencing???
Zita

 

[Alive again]

Yep! I recently dumped a 44 oz Diet Coke all over my husband in my anger. Also this is hopw my son's mania shows. It can happen. It is one of the hardest things for me to understand and bring to terms with my faith and my choices. i become something I hate, that is totally contrary to who I am, what I am normally like and everything I value and hold dear. When it happens I feel totally depraved and sinful and then regret and hate it so much I want to kill myself. The only thing that has helped me is to remind myself I am forgiven, to understand again just what God's grace is. and to look at what happen and try to identify my triggers and recognize signs earlier to try to prevent it from happening again. I also keep looking at my med routine, does it need changed to help me as I learan how to help my meds control my cycling. I hope this makes sense!!!!

 

[Zita123]

I am glad to hear that I'm not crazy. But, See, I try to stop myself but can't because my husband is at my side constantly because of his sins he did to me in the last 18 yrs. I can't handle that!! I always wanted it but never had it. Now, How can I get back the way I was???
Thanks for answering and caring!!
Zita

Yep! I recently dumped a 44 oz Diet Coke all over my husband in my anger. Also this is hopw my son's mania shows. It can happen. It is one of the hardest things for me to understand and bring to terms with my faith and my choices. i become something I hate, that is totally contrary to who I am, what I am normally like and everything I value and hold dear. When it happens I feel totally depraved and sinful and then regret and hate it so much I want to kill myself. The only thing that has helped me is to remind myself I am forgiven, to understand again just what God's grace is. and to look at what happen and try to identify my triggers and recognize signs earlier to try to prevent it from happening again. I also keep looking at my med routine, does it need changed to help me as I learan how to help my meds control my cycling. I hope this makes sense!!!!

 

[4childofgod]

It seems like I have a good 2 weeks and then I have problems with my BP is anone else like that? 1 little thing can send me spiraling down or make me manic. I hate it. It seems like ever since I had my big manic break and was in the hospital in Jan I lost my ability to cope. Is any one else like that out there? Help confused? will I ever be "Normal" again?

 

[vibrant]

It seems like I have a good 2 weeks and then I have problems with my BP is anone else like that? 1 little thing can send me spiraling down or make me manic. I hate it. It seems like ever since I had my big manic break and was in the hospital in Jan I lost my ability to cope. Is any one else like that out there? Help confused? will I ever be "Normal" again?

two verses that help me:

i will lift mine eyes up to the LORD from whence comes my help.

psalm 121:1

For I am the LORD, your God,
who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
I will help you.

isaiah 14:13

 

[Jeshu]

It seems like I have a good 2 weeks and then I have problems with my BP is anone else like that? 1 little thing can send me spiraling down or make me manic. I hate it. It seems like ever since I had my big manic break and was in the hospital in Jan I lost my ability to cope. Is any one else like that out there? Help confused? will I ever be "Normal" again?

Yes BP is a cycling illness and yes it takes ages to get over a major breakdown - upto 3 years even. However good medication and a good understanding of our own illness can help us enormously to keep our mania under 'control' and give us a smoother ride than otherwise. (I have also made it a point to avoid stressfull situations so that my BP rages don't get so bad. I think that over time we can learn to cope and handle our illness in this way a lot better.)

All The Best and God's blessing on your daily life.

 

[4childofgod]

Yes BP is a cycling illness and yes it takes ages to get over a major breakdown - upto 3 years even. However good medication and a good understanding of our own illness can help us enormously to keep our mania under 'control' and give us a smoother ride than otherwise. (I have also made it a point to avoid stressfull situations so that my BP rages don't get so bad. I think that over time we can learn to cope and handle our illness in this way a lot better.)

All The Best and God's blessing on your daily life.

Thanks Jeshu!

 

[isaiah5213]

It seems like I have a good 2 weeks and then I have problems with my BP is anone else like that? 1 little thing can send me spiraling down or make me manic. I hate it. It seems like ever since I had my big manic break and was in the hospital in Jan I lost my ability to cope. Is any one else like that out there? Help confused? will I ever be "Normal" again?

one thing my husband did when he and i got married, is he started keeping a journal of my moods... he was convinced it was because he wanted to know about my pms... but when he showed it to the doc, & the doc had a ll my symptoms in front of him, the doc said 'bipolar...'

can you keep a journal?? have you? have you noticed a pattern??

 

[4childofgod]

one thing my husband did when he and i got married, is he started keeping a journal of my moods... he was convinced it was because he wanted to know about my pms... but when he showed it to the doc, & the doc had a ll my symptoms in front of him, the doc said 'bipolar...'

can you keep a journal?? have you? have you noticed a pattern??

Yeah your right I need to but when I'm manic I thing I am doing so well so I don't feel the need too. My husband has been talking about it thanks for the advice I will try

 

[Zita123]

That was great that your husband did that. I always try to keep a journal. That is only sometimes, but, I am going to start today. Even the bad stuff!!
Thanks again
Zita

one thing my husband did when he and i got married, is he started keeping a journal of my moods... he was convinced it was because he wanted to know about my pms... but when he showed it to the doc, & the doc had a ll my symptoms in front of him, the doc said 'bipolar...'

can you keep a journal?? have you? have you noticed a pattern??