Unfortunately Michie, churcgoing does not always equal faith. In a congregation of almost 600 you are always going to get those who do not exercise faith. In fact, this woman had obviously in the end been conscience stricken, which was why she then helped us with the doors the next day.
I came in here, distraught because of how we were being treated, and it is easy to plug back into that sense of being thrown onto the rubbish heap of life. Some good things have happened, that may look like nothing at all maybe, but disabled people kearn, in our country, to be grateful for every little crum that falls their way. I rejoice when just a little bit of kindness is shown to. Us . Lufe is hard for a disabled person in our country. I don't think describing it to you would he hel p. But maybe, just maybe, that is why this. Thread bega in. With someone who. Could not go on. A ny more. W ith som eone who. Was utterly exhaus ted with th e. Struggle tos yrvive, even IN the church. Pl ea se don't assume there is always. Gelp. Out th ere. We a re battling. Social. S ervi ces at. The moment and exhaus ted with th at. I get very very bad days. And so I cling onto every little good thing that happens, even if it may seem little to some people. You can 't have it all. I have to accept that. And maybe tha t. Is part of the c ross. I have to bear. I bear it, rejoicing in any goodness that I receive. I have t o, or I would. E nd up like. i was at the beginning of this thread, when I turned to a s ecular hotline, only to be told that they would stay with me on the phone while. i died, if that was what I chose to do. Mi beat it SAtRAIGHT into here because the temptation was so great because I did not know how to go on with my life any more. I could struggle no longer. I am past that point now but lufe us still darned hard. I get bad days. But I rejouce in any good that Imget. Let's not rub the sore spots and the bad points. Let's build on the good.