Lust is the human reaction to a physical need. We have a lust for food when we are hungry, we have a lust for rest when we are tired. However, when we let lust dictate our actions, when we become obedient servants of our lusts, then lust has become a god in our lives.
Scripture tells us that both Jesus and Paul "lusted." In both cases, their "lust" was for fellowship with their friends, the word "lust" being used as a metaphor to demonstrate how powerful the feeling was.
I'm concerned that epithumia is being translated improperly, given our modern English meaning of the word "lust" or at least the connotation of it. We use lust to connote sinful sexual desire, not the desire within marriage for one's spouse or my current desire to eat the lemon muffins I bought the other day and go for a walk. As proof, I have a book on my shelf entitled
Not Even a Hint: Guarding Your Heart Against Lust. I don't think he's referring to my desire for cheeseburgers or Costco chicken.
Neutral desires are usually defined by "want" in English. "I wanted my husband" or "I wanted to be with my friends again". We don't use the word "lust" for those things, and our translations of the Bible should be updated to reflect that.
That's awesome. I'm glad this worked out for you. And yes, I concur that self-centeredness does not make for good marriage material. Seems there's not much love to go around, and I find that quite distressing.
I would heartily recommend
Safe People by Dr. Henry Cloud and Dr. John Townsend. In that book, those two authors break down how people become unsafe and attract other dangerous people to them. I think that could help with your situation and help you find some safe, loving people to be with.
It seems logical.
But as soon as you remove the procreative mentality from the sexual act it becomes ONLY a pleasurable act. And once you reduce the sexual act to ONLY pleasure, the gender of the participants is irrelevant.
This is an example of the slippery slope fallacy. Having sex has physical and health benefits, and being in a healthy relationship helps the people within it heal from trauma and other emotional wounds.
Ecclesiastes 4: 9-12 said:
9 Two are better than one because they have a good return for their labor; 10 for if either of them falls, the one will lift up his companion. But woe to the one who falls when there is not another to lift him up! 11 Furthermore, if two lie down together they keep warm, but how can one be warm alone? 12 And if one can overpower him who is alone, two can resist him. A cord of three strands is not quickly torn apart.
Would you deny marriage to a post-menopausal woman who wants to marry a man of similar age? Hugs, kisses, and sexuality would help ease the stress of aging for the couple and the relationship would provide some protection for them since they can take care of each other. There is protection and emotional/relationship needs involved, not just procreation.