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God wants husbands to love their wives not spew hatred towards them.
Thanks you Sister for this and your concerns and feedback here.
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God wants husbands to love their wives not spew hatred towards them.
@twobecomeone
Thank you for posting. This is my first time on this site and God lead me right to it. I am struggling in a lot of the same ways you are. I am 35, have been married for 4 years (today actually). My husband has been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. I knew about this before we married, but I don’t think I realized how difficult it would be. He also has decided against children due to his illness and doesn’t want to risk passing it along. We have talked about adoption and fostering, which like you I thought maybe the Lord was calling me to. But I just don’t know that he would have to patience for it. He is not properly medicated (although he has been in the past) and doesn’t currently go to see a therapist. He refuses marriage counseling. He is a Christian but during our fights he uses language that is abhorrent. Not to say that I haven’t in the past as well, but the names he has called are very hurtful. He says that the way in which I argue is hurtful as well, but I believe he just doesn’t like to hear the truth about things, but I am very direct about it. He has never been directly physical with me, but has thrown things, broken too many things to even remember and threatened to break my jaw on more than one occasion and had been violent with our animals. When he begins to yell my dog starts shaking violently and hides the best she can. Never takes an responsibility for it.
I often times wonder, what am I doing. I was an extremely independent person with a strong will prior to being with him. Many of my friends and family say I have changed since being with him.
I, like you, struggle with leaving based on my Christian beliefs. But every time we get in a fight he threatens divorce on me. We just recently bought a house (as in 3 months ago) and a new car. Even though I make more money than he does, I still worry about being able to keep it all up. I don’t think I have ever admitted these things out loud before.
And he has been unfaithful to me in the past, but attempted to justify it by saying he didn’t actually sleep with the person. But I still see it as infidelity due to their conversations. This was prior to marriage though and as far as I know he has been faithful during our marriage. And we have no intimacy as well.
I don’t know what to do either. I have prayed so hard for answers. I don’t want to disappoint God and want to follow His will more than anything.
If any of you would like to extend some advice to me as well, I would be appreciative.
My family and his family know he is bipolar but I don’t believe any of them know the extent of the aggression he has. His family may, but they turn a blind eye.
Thank you again twobecomeone and anyone else who chimes in.
Please consult with God only, allow Him to direct your path in the way that is best for you - God has the best plan always for His children. Yes, separation is biblical but many do not adhere to scripture. God even divorced from Israel for a time until they cried out to Him again and chose to serve Him - becoming that faithful bride once again. Please, I implore you to please seek God in this matter because only He knows what exactly is going on in your life.
I recently read about Asa, the king. That he once had a relationship with God but once something went wrong, went out and sought the advice of people instead of God. He completely shut Him out! Please do not do that same mistake.
@twobecomeone how are things going for you? Have you separated from your abuser yet?
I've been thinking of you. I hope you are doing OK.
E.
Hi,
Are you speaking to me or the other Sister who asked for advice? I’m really still conflicted on the remarriage feedback I gave her, so I will remove that because I don’t want to lead her or others astray.