Is it wrong?

[Reborn83]

Alright, I've been dealing with cutting since I was 9 years old. In all my life it was the only thing I could depend on, the only thing that could offer me comfort.

In the 12 years I've dealt with it, no one seemed to notice or even care, not even my family. My cutting got so bad that I had to cut several times a day just to be able to function.

Anyway, I became born again when I was about 14, but never really truely followed the Lord. Only recently, 5/9/05 to be exact, I rededicated my life to Christ with every intention of following the Lord the best I could.

As spirit filled as I am, I still get urges to cut. I try praying, reading the bible, listening to cheerful and uplifting music, writing, and anything else you can imagine to get the feelings to go away. I'm still having such a hard time with it.

Is it wrong to be Christian and still deal with these feelings? I feel like I'm letting God down every time I let the thought enter my mind, but I can't seem to avoid them.

I've had to depend on cutting for so long, that I don't know if I can completely give it up cold-turkey. It's wrong for a true believer to still cut, I think. But is it wrong to be living for Christ and still deal with this?

Any opinions would be appreciated...

 

[Bevlina]

Pet, SI seems to be common for those suffering some kind of deep, untended grief. No, I don't believe it is wrong because this appears to be more an emotional disorder than anything.
Even though you have rededicated your life to God, through Jesus, the deep grief of whatever it is can remain. And perhaps this is what induces the SI.
Have you talked to your Pastor about this?

 

[lacy]

Yes, it is wrong, but....because we are told in God's word not to harm our bodies.
(our temple)
Yet God understands and wants us to come to HIM about everything!
He wants us to lay it down before HIM> This is never easy.
To die daily, pick up your cross and follow HIM is not an easy road, hon, but a very delightful one, peaceful too, not many go there, so the walk on that road to heaven can be lonely sometimes, but very peaceful and relaxing, if we let it be so, in our hearts....it comes by trusting God in all things.
He is so worthy!
I will pray that God will give you strength to go on in HIM, and that you can give up the cutting to HIM.
I will pray that you desire more to please HIM, than to cut.
Jesus loves you deeply, He truly truly cares.

 

[Cat59]

Is it wrong to be Christian and still deal with these feelings? I feel like I'm letting God down every time I let the thought enter my mind, but I can't seem to avoid them.

As Bev says, the feelings don't go just like that. Many Churches have counsellors that can help you deal with issues like this that are still emerging..
Try asking around in your church and local area.
In the meantime, I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers..

 

[BlackRain]

i love the Lord deeply and i still think about cutting when i'm having a hard day or when i'm stressed out. i thought about it a few days ago, actually. it's not wrong. but, you have to give those thoughts to Christ and let him take them captive. what's wrong, is following thru. every christian struggles with something. mine and yours so happens to be SI. it's alright, girl. God will help you and don't let this drag you down. keep pulling for Christ and follow him. keep reading his word and do those things you mentioned when you start to think about it. also, to dwell on this is not right. we try to avoid temptation, which i beleve is what you're doing. keep our head up!!

 

[Godlovesusall]

Hi Reborn83, I will give you my opinion... It is NOT wrong (cutting), it is a very difficult thing to give up, I have tried over and over to *quit*, but it doesn't happen over night, just hang in there, and give it the best you can, don't give up, but don't beat yourself up if you slip up. Like Cat and Bev say, it is something deep, and can't go away with just believing, don't get me wrong, believing does help, but it isn't everything, I think maybe you should talk to your pastor if you can/want to. Many people do things that are diffucult to take, but the still believe, example, some are drug addicts, or alcoholics, it isn't something you can change right away, it takes time, and, remember, it isn't wrong, it is your way of coping, we all cope different ways, keep your head up. God Bless you!

GCH.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

Is it wrong?
Well I can think of many things that are for more "wrong."
I will say that you can live for Christ while you are struggling with these things.

 

[rebel_for_christ07]

of course its natural for u to still be dealing with these feelings. but the bible says ur body his his temple. u belong to god. its kinda like he just loaned u this body. u should be a good steward or stewardess of it.

anyway if u need to talk im here. im a recovered cutter.

-in christ-
Lexi

 

[TheMainException]

You are asking the wrong question man....you ask "is it wrong for a Christian to want to cut?" when you already know the answer. But, my dear sister.....all you need to know is this: Pain is from Satan....God is by your side, he knows you will have pain....cause you live on earth....but continue on through the pain......he will be with you...we all have pain...I am an SI'er...and I'm a Christian....of course it's wrong! It's wrong no matter who you are.....but you can work through it.....it's a sin like anything else...a sin is a sin....work through it no matter how hard it gets.

 

[bassdrum1]

But is it wrong to be living for Christ and still deal with this?

I don't think it is. but of course i'm bias since i'm dealing with the same stuff. the way i see it is satan is trying to get to you and thats why u still fight it. but thats my oppion. hope it helps.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

I don't believe it has any bearing on your relationship with Christ. I know some wonderful girls. Their faith shines in spite of their self-injury.