Is God mocking me?

[Not David]

You are in the Orthodox Forum!!!

I was thinking that until I remembered God is passionless so I felt like an idiot.

I'm saying that because of everything that is happening to me.

I have always suffered because of my parents divorce. I suffered when I had to live with my dad because of my stepmother and my stepbrothers. I was happy when I was living in the university by myself. Now that I have to stay here I have to endure my mom again. I understand God does stuff to give us salvation but I don't understand how making me suffer while living with a narcissistic woman who disrespect me even though I try to help her and making me feel like a divorced kid again is helping my salvation. I try to avoid thoughts since they depress me and make me sad. My life was great until this situation happened.

 

[AllDayFaith]

I'm saying that because of everything that is happening to me.

We all go through things, and we suffer for the glory of God. When you suffer it produces perseverance, that will give you character, and your character will give others hope. It's a long and slow process, just be glad that God has chosen you to be one of his children. Honestly, he could leave you with depraved thoughts and you know where that leads. God is collecting all the tears shed by his believers so that he can pour out his wrath on the enemy at the right time. I think that you should try hard to find an apartment away from your mother, that way you won't say those types of things about her. You have to honor your parents so that you have a long life.

 

[Not David]

We all go through things, and we suffer for the glory of God. When you suffer it produces perseverance, that will give you character, and your character will give others hope. It's a long and slow process, just be glad that God has chosen you to be one of his children. Honestly, he could leave you with depraved thoughts and you know where that leads. God is collecting all the tears shed by his believers so that he can pour out his wrath on the enemy at the right time. I think that you should try hard to find an apartment away from your mother, that way you won't say those types of things about her. You have to honor your parents so that you have a long life.

I don't have a job.

 

[AllDayFaith]

I don't have a job.

You are in my prayers, it seems as if God doesn't want you to have a job right now. Your best bet is to seek God with all your heart and learn as much as you can about Him and His son, Jesus Christ. Because in the Bible it says, "Seek the Lord first, then all these things will be added unto you."
That basically means that you should put all of your burdens at God's feet. He wants to be your source of joy, as well as your source of all good things.

 

[ArmyMatt]

no, God is not mocking you. whatever He is doing or allowing to happen, it's for your salvation.

prayers!

 

[2PhiloVoid]

You are in the Orthodox Forum!!!

I was thinking that until I remembered God is passionless so I felt like an idiot.

I'm saying that because of everything that is happening to me.

I have always suffered because of my parents divorce. I suffered when I had to live with my dad because of my stepmother and my stepbrothers. I was happy when I was living in the university by myself. Now that I have to stay here I have to endure my mom again. I understand God does stuff to give us salvation but I don't understand how making me suffer while living with a narcissistic woman who disrespect me even though I try to help her and making me feel like a divorced kid again is helping my salvation. I try to avoid thoughts since they depress me and make me sad. My life was great until this situation happened.

No, God isn't mocking you. It just means that some family situations are tough to handle and you {like I did} will have to learn to rough through it all, even though our mother's expressions and emotions are quite turbulent and caustic, maybe even a bit on the crazy side. (My mother had schizophrenia, so like narcissism, it was something I had to face in dealing with her when I was your age.)

I'm sorry to hear you have to deal with her in this way, but do you best to persevere.

[Oops! Sorry. I just realized this is the Orthodox forum... so I'll just take my Wolverine self on to another forum. Peace!]

 

[Not David]

No, God isn't mocking you. It just means that some family situations are tough to handle and you {like I did} will have to learn to rough through it all, even though our mother's expressions and emotions are quite turbulent and caustic, maybe even a bit on the crazy side. (My mother had schizophrenia, so like narcissism, it was some I had to face in dealing with her when I was your age.)

I'm sorry to hear you have to deal with her in this way, but do you best to persevere.

[Oops! Sorry. I just realized this is the Orthodox forum... so I'll just take my Wolverine self on to another forum. Peace!]

I understand my mom went through a difficult infancy because her parents were negligent so I feel bad for every problem I have with her. That's why it is better when I am living away from her but unfortunately my circumstances don't allow it.

 

[Not David]

no, God is not mocking you. whatever He is doing or allowing to happen, it's for your salvation.

prayers!

I don't feel it Father. If I were to die today, I will probably burn.

 

[spiritualchristian7]

Well the bible says to love your enemies
You can't change your situation, but you can change the way you respond.

 

[gurneyhalleck1]

God gave humanity free will so we can CHOOSE to love Him. The result is we are surrounded by people who choose to do the opposite. Because of The Fall humanity has mental illness, diseases, sinful struggles, and immorality. We are broken. All of us are broken. We are all broken in different degrees.

OP, you are living through a trying time. The consequences of your parents’ divorce are impacting you as well as other things. Are you being tested? Perhaps. Is your stress and anxiety possibly just the result of facing a broken world a bit more than other people for the time being? Maybe? Does God taunt or mock you? NEVER.

Trials like these provide the opportunity to draw nearer to the Lord. Sometimes we forget Him when times or good. We get spiritually lazy. Remember that despair is a horrible sin. If you allow yourself enough cynicism and pessimism into your spiritual day, despair kicks in. Rise above it.

David was driven into the desert of En Gedi. St. John the Baptist was driven into the wilderness. The Lord spent 40 days tempted in the wilderness. Israel was exiled into Babylon. Abraham lost Sarah to the pharaoh in Egypt. We all live some kind of exile at some point or another. Embrace your Cross and pray for the grace to cope. Pray the Jesus prayer. Have faith. Do NOT despair!!!

You are in the Orthodox Forum!!!

I was thinking that until I remembered God is passionless so I felt like an idiot.

I'm saying that because of everything that is happening to me.

I have always suffered because of my parents divorce. I suffered when I had to live with my dad because of my stepmother and my stepbrothers. I was happy when I was living in the university by myself. Now that I have to stay here I have to endure my mom again. I understand God does stuff to give us salvation but I don't understand how making me suffer while living with a narcissistic woman who disrespect me even though I try to help her and making me feel like a divorced kid again is helping my salvation. I try to avoid thoughts since they depress me and make me sad. My life was great until this situation happened.

 

[Lukaris]

I think God just sustains life to exist in a fallen world. Science can only try to define a reality in which we die for multiple reasons. I do not believe God punishes us; we have to get through this to get back to God ( John 16:33 etc.). Hoping & praying things work out for you. Please do despair although it may be difficult.

 

[Presbyterian Continuist]

You are in the Orthodox Forum!!!

I was thinking that until I remembered God is passionless so I felt like an idiot.

I'm saying that because of everything that is happening to me.

I have always suffered because of my parents divorce. I suffered when I had to live with my dad because of my stepmother and my stepbrothers. I was happy when I was living in the university by myself. Now that I have to stay here I have to endure my mom again. I understand God does stuff to give us salvation but I don't understand how making me suffer while living with a narcissistic woman who disrespect me even though I try to help her and making me feel like a divorced kid again is helping my salvation. I try to avoid thoughts since they depress me and make me sad. My life was great until this situation happened.

Didn't Jesus say that in the world we will have tribulation? We are promised salvation when we receive Christ, but nowhere in the Bible are there any promises that show that we are insulated from suffering. It is because the world is the halfway point between heaven and hell. When we suffer on earth, it is because of the presence of sin in a fallen world. When we get to heaven, suffering will be a thing of the past, while those who go to hell, along with their sin, will continue to suffer, even more so because they will be separated from God and everything good that is connected with him. Their sin will remain with them in hell for the rest of eternity.

The Scripture says that our present suffering is temporary, and we bear it because we are looking forward to a better place in glory. If we are suffering for Christ in this world, and we are depending on Him in faith and maintaining our joy and praise to Him that He is allowing us to share the suffering and reproach that was heaped upon Jesus while He was on earth, then when we get to glory, we will be welcomed as victorious warriors for the Lord that we have continued to maintain our faith in Him come hell or high water!

 

[Sam91]

I am sorry that you are going through a trying time.

I too had a stressful childhood, then had respite on leaving home, only to then be battered again by life. Abused by partner, finding a nice kind partner only for him to die of cancer etc. Brother dying. My children being hard work to raise... 17 year old is plain difficult and refuses to change, 12 year old has autism, 5 year old is a delight but energetic. My health has failed a bit because of the stressful life.

However, I could not count myself as being anything but fortunate. There are over a billion people in Africa. A significant proportion of them face hard issues. Think also of what the Syrians endured in recent years. The crisis in Venezuela. All around the world people face starvation, disease, violence. Many are deprived of safety, food, education, healthcare, education and others are watching relatives die from preventable causes.

I say this because while your situation is hard for you to endure it isn't God mocking you. You have been blessed with many things, including shelter and you have the best gift of all His strength and presence to see you through.

I hope that these thoughts show you that you are not alone in hardship. They helped me when people have tried to show me compassion. If I had resented my situation rather than feeling thankful for the mercies I had through it I would have struggled more.

The media and those around us program us to think things should be a certain way. We are sold an image of what life should be and I would imagine that causes depression in some when those expectations aren't met.

What I would say is keep hold of the hope that this situation you are in isn't forever. You will be moving out when you can. I pray that it is soon and that you are able to wait it out patiently, while strengthened by Him and able to keep koving forward towards that goal one step at a time. God bless you.

 

[dailyprayerwarrior]

Thanks for sharing your struggle. I'll stand with you. I am praying for you right now. It may not seem like much, but when people pray for situations, it does make a difference.

 

[ArmyMatt]

I don't feel it Father. If I were to die today, I will probably burn.

and that probably has you closer to the Kingdom than you realize.

 

[Pavel Mosko]

You are in the Orthodox Forum!!!

I was thinking that until I remembered God is passionless so I felt like an idiot.

I'm saying that because of everything that is happening to me.

I have always suffered because of my parents divorce. I suffered when I had to live with my dad because of my stepmother and my stepbrothers. I was happy when I was living in the university by myself. Now that I have to stay here I have to endure my mom again. I understand God does stuff to give us salvation but I don't understand how making me suffer while living with a narcissistic woman who disrespect me even though I try to help her and making me feel like a divorced kid again is helping my salvation. I try to avoid thoughts since they depress me and make me sad. My life was great until this situation happened.

This Sermon series is for you.

 

[AMM]

Lord have mercy!

 

[Not David]

@ArmyMatt Is there something like Mortification of the Mind in Orthodoxy?

 

[Moses Medina]

You are in the Orthodox Forum!!!

I was thinking that until I remembered God is passionless so I felt like an idiot.

I'm saying that because of everything that is happening to me.

I have always suffered because of my parents divorce. I suffered when I had to live with my dad because of my stepmother and my stepbrothers. I was happy when I was living in the university by myself. Now that I have to stay here I have to endure my mom again. I understand God does stuff to give us salvation but I don't understand how making me suffer while living with a narcissistic woman who disrespect me even though I try to help her and making me feel like a divorced kid again is helping my salvation. I try to avoid thoughts since they depress me and make me sad. My life was great until this situation happened.

Hey, just tried starting a conversation. Can you start one with me? If not then I will post my message here if that's okay.

 

[ArmyMatt]

@ArmyMatt Is there something like Mortification of the Mind in Orthodoxy?

dunno, what is that?