Intrusive thoughts

[guitarintro]

The other day my parents said "don't buy stuff". I thought that was a bit unreasonable because from time to time I need to buy stuff, such as food and clothing. But anyway, they said something like that and then the thought of blasphemy popped into my head.

If I disobeyed my parents and still bought something, does that mean it is blasphemous?

 

[guitarintro]

Didn't have any responses yet, but I am starting to rationalize my thoughts and answer it myself-or at least I hope so.

I decided to break things down.

1) My parents said "don't buy stuff" - BUT if I did buy stuff OR if I disobeyed them, it is not blasphemous.

2) While my parents told me not to buy stuff, the word 'blasphemy' popped up - BUT an intrusive thought does not make something blasphemous.

3) If I still bought something after (1) and (2), it is not blasphemy since it was not blasphemy before.

I'd also like to mention, my mom did say 'buying things once in a while is okay', but I guess with every OCD victim, you tend to exaggerate what others say and make it worse. And to be honest, not buying anything is a bit irrational. It does not make sense. So am I supposed to not buy food? Pay for rent? Entertainment? Shelter?

After rationalizing this, I went for dinner with my friend and bought a meal. How is my condition? Am I on the right track or wrong track?

 

[seajoy]

You are a 21 year old adult. You can buy what you want.

The best thing for your ocd would have been to say "oh well" to the thoughts. You spent all that time reasoning, which is not necessary.

I can tell that you are a very kind and obedient person - cut yourself some slack. You and God are fine. Find some help from a psychiatrist. He/she will help you live a normal life again. But you must be willing to do the therapy.

As Christians, even if we forget, or don't know for sure if we just sinned, when we pray, we can say - Lord, please forgive me for the sins I don't even know that I may have done. And you are forgiven.

OCD is sorta like your brain is in overdrive about God. We keep checking if we are saved (just like another person keeps checking if the oven is off). That person has seen that the oven is off...maybe 10 times...but are never content that it's off. What is their problem? Well, it's sure not the stove - it's really what they perceive. So for us, we keep checking our salvation. Our salvation is still there, it hasn't changed....just like the oven is still off.

Your are a wonderful child of our Lord. Don't waste your young life on all these worries. Please seek some help.

 

[Ariel]

Guitarintro, I am sure your parents did not mean that you aren't supposed to buy anything. Of course you are! You are an adult, 21, and it is normal and natural for you to become as independent of your parents as you can.

Why would they say this? Maybe you should ask them? Somehow they may not realize how you are interpreting that.

It is not blasphemous for you to buy things. You are doing what you need to do to survive, and to live your life. This is acceptable and good because you are an adult.

Talk to your parents if this still bothers you.

 

[Ariel]

Didn't have any responses yet, but I am starting to rationalize my thoughts and answer it myself-or at least I hope so.

I decided to break things down.

1) My parents said "don't buy stuff" - BUT if I did buy stuff OR if I disobeyed them, it is not blasphemous.

2) While my parents told me not to buy stuff, the word 'blasphemy' popped up - BUT an intrusive thought does not make something blasphemous.

3) If I still bought something after (1) and (2), it is not blasphemy since it was not blasphemy before.

I'd also like to mention, my mom did say 'buying things once in a while is okay', but I guess with every OCD victim, you tend to exaggerate what others say and make it worse. And to be honest, not buying anything is a bit irrational. It does not make sense. So am I supposed to not buy food? Pay for rent? Entertainment? Shelter?

After rationalizing this, I went for dinner with my friend and bought a meal. How is my condition? Am I on the right track or wrong track?

You are doing great! Yes, you are on the right track. Good job--you broke things down and considered each part. Yes, you are right, an intrusive thought does not make something blasphemous.

Also--of course your mom doesn't mean you can't buy food, pay rent, or pay for entertainment or shelter.

You did good!

 

[RachelZ]

Hey Guitarintro...just wanted to say well done for being able to identify this as OCD and deal with the situation more rationally...that can be really hard to do I know! As Seajoy said, please do get some help with this...it's so much better to get it more under control when you're younger and a shame for it to go intreated and interfere with too much of your life.Take care, Rachel

 

[guitarintro]

UPDATE:

So I talked to my mom the other day and she said there is no problem with buying stuff (paraphrase). I guess I was overanalyzing it yet again. Anyways, thanks for the responses everyone and continual support.

 

[DoubtingThomas29]

Just don't spend more than you make, that is all you got to do, or that will leave you pennieless.

 

[Jpark]

1 John 1:9 says if we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.