hmm...Believing
God is definitely first and foremost, I have to say this is one area of WoF that seems to get jumbled up and misunderstood. It seems people tend to think our faith is in faith, or in words, when first it must be from God.
Obviously I've not been the typical WoFer in my experiences with healing. I don't know....
I've personally found that repeatedly in the NT, it talks about Jesus seeing through to the heart of matters. He always got to the root. Even with the pharisees, He struck through to their hearts intent and got to the point. He was a discerner of hearts.
So why am I rambling about this?
While Jesus has given us His authority....if we don't have a REVELATION of the scope of our authority..we CANNOT operate in the whole - only in part. I'll just apologize straight up for not being able to explain this very well.
There's that scripture - the amount of faith that worketh
within us...
I've said it before, and I'll say it again. When Jesus healed - everyone was healed! When the disciples healed, if someone didn't get healed, Jesus NEVER rebuked the person seeking the healing, rather He rebuked the
disciple for their lack of faith.
Now this is where I'm headed. As I recently experienced...sometimes healings are just *zap* instantaneous...others just seem to not happen at all! It would be nice if we could just paint every situation with a broud brush. But each person is different.
Like my Dad....I did NOT need a list of healing scriptures compiled by someone else who used them in their situation - I needed to pray and speak to my DAD'S situation, but before I could do that, I needed to know God's mind in it. And God SPOKE, what HE would have me pray and say. And while what I prayed was in the bible, it was really only two partial scriptures ~ but the power and authority behind it was straight from the throne - it wasn't what a man spoke, it was what GOD spoke TO DAD in THAT HOUR.
I could have prayed for the physical symptoms all day long, as we have for years, and then the physical need would be "treated" temporarily...then we'd go over it again...cycle after cycle...
While, like I've also said, my brother had leukemia, went into remission, then he relapsed. The doctors said he would die, but we prayed for his physical healing, and he was completely healed! There is NO cancer in his body.
So I was faced with the realization that somehow, there MUST be a difference. What worked for my brother was NOT working for Dad. These "formulas" were falling FLAT. What was needed was more than logical looking at the scriptures - true discernment from the Throne was the prescription of the hour - to see the root that needed to be pulled up.
See, my dad does not believe in healing the way spirit-filled people do. Someone else had to believe FOR him. And it was probably a combination of things. He also came to a place where medical science could do absolutely NOTHING for him other than give him pain meds. He KNEW that if God didn't do it (the healing), it wouldn't get done.
And here's the crux of what has changed my thinking.
My grandma died last November..from cancer. When I was in that hospital room...there were ANGELS there. You could feel the breeze from their movements. I remember starting to pray....and actually felt the Lord stop me, and He said, "it's ok." Puzzled and not understanding (because of what I've been taught), I heard the Lord say, "would YOU want to stay?"
I looked at my gramma laying in the bed, and I'm not kidding, her face started to glow. It grew brighter that night. All her wrinkles disappeared, and her skin got really dewy and young looking. Her white hair shined. If anyone has ever seen that show "touched by an angel" that is how her face looked.
So why would the Lord tell me to not pray for her healing? I believe she wanted to go home. And I had no business imposing my will for her to be healed over her own will.