Interesting thing that happened when I went far from God...

[VolatileHamster]

I've heard about the doctrine of "irresistable grace", which is that once you are saved it is impossible to become unsaved. Well I might have experienced that personally...
My faith was going pretty well until college, where it and the rest of my life kind of fell apart. I went so far from God that I pretty much ignored Him for over a year... Didn't go to church, didn't read my Bible, and didn't pray very much.

Well, living on this edge, the farthest I could get from God, so it seemed, I felt like I hit a wall that I couldn't cross. I felt like I couldn't escape God. As far as I got from God, I still felt him there somewhere....

I was wondering what would happen if I just renounced my faith altogether, but I found I couldn't.

Maybe it was just a psychological thing that happened to me, but I'm not sure.

Has this ever happened to anyone else? Anyone have similar stories like this?

 

[Kepa]

God is all powerful. He is the cause of salvation =] If he called you to be saved... how can you resist the one who is all powerful?

 

[Lizzie01]

I know how that is when you are far from God and you really dunno what is happening and why and usually mine last for a couple of weeks not a year but everyone is different. I look at it this way umm... no matter what happens and how bad it is God will always be there for you and look after you.

Trust in Lord for He is good His love endures forever

 

[ForeverBeingForgiven]

As far as I got from God, I still felt him there somewhere....

When you pray to recieve Christ as your personal Lord and Savior, he gives you the Holy Spirit who is with you all the time. This is what you were feeling. The Holy Spirit can act as comforter or as your conscious, and more. When God promised that He would never leave us alone, he meant it.

 

[Pastor Frank]

A spiritual experience such as you experienced is definitely not psychological.Your experience is quite unique.God has given most of us a great deal of free will which allows us to keep spitting in His face if we choose to do so.However there are some people that God selects to serve Him in a special manner.It is extremely difficult but not impossible for these people to turn their backs on God because He keeps reaching out for them,or if they try to engage in an activity that God disapproves of,He keeps throwing up roadblocks to prevent them from being successful.This is a bit embarassing but the Holy Spirit just told me to give as an example my years of attempting to get a management job with Playboy Magazine.No matter how hard I tried,I never got to first base.One night I even went to a Playboy nightclub hoping to meet someone that could help me in my career.I literally became sick to my stomach and had to go home.

What you need to do at this point is to keep praying for two things.First ask God to show you what He wants you to do to serve Him.He has a mission for you and you need to find out what it is.Second and most importantly,you need to pray for the baptism of the Holy Spirit which apparently you haven't received yet.Anyone can claim that they accept Jesus,but until God accepts us into His family by sending us His Holy Spirit,we are not saved.(John 3:3-9)GOD HAS NOT TURNED HIS BACK ON YOU BECAUSE HE WANTS YOU IN HIS HEAVENLY FAMILY.Go for it.

 

[JPPT1974]

Jesus Christ is the only way to get to heaven and growing in him and with him as Savior and Lord after you receive and accept him into your heart and life is only the beginning as your journey and your learning about him keeps going and going as you learn something and everything new about Jesus and the Word of God each and every second.

 

[Lexi]

I am with you... there have been many times that I pull away from God and even think about converting to another religion. But I can never fully do it, I always come back to Christianity no matter what. I figure it's God yanking my butt back into the place that it should be.

 

[Pirch80]

I know what you're saying. The thing is with me it becomes awfully hard to renounce a religion or faith. Once you've been saved it sort of sticks in the back of your mind. You always got in your mind that you don't want to disappoint Jesus or God. Plus for a college person we're always in constant pressure and we make decisions right out of nowhere. Believe me stay with Jesus and you'll never go wrong. Right now is a good time to stay with jesus (especially as finals come up) and to learn his word more and more. You never know when God's word might help somebody or be something you needed to hear.

 

[SDSUMarcus01]

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[Samuel0310]

Well, indeed, no matter how far we go, God is always faithful, He's always waiting for us to come back to Him.

I agree with ForeverBeingForgiven, that somehow, somewhat, no matter how we harden our heart, the Spirit which is in us will remind us of God's love and amazing grace.

In fact I myself backslided for almost a year, being caught up in the things of the world, living a decadent life, going after money, shutting Him off, almost totally. Every now and then the Spirit would tug at my heart, and though I did my best to ignore it and continued sinning, God never gave up; deep down inside, I feel His love and open arms, longing for me to come back...

And finally, at a point where I was physically, emotionally and most importantly, spiritually drained, almost to a suicidal point, I couldn't take it anymore, and I cried out to Him with repentance and asked for His forgiveness.

And here I am back in His care once again, like the prodigal son who finally turned back to his father. I thank God for not only forgiving me, but for His presence with me always, for His undying love even though I slammed the door at His face countless times, and for keeping His door open for me to come back...