Please don't get mad at me, I know I am wrong... but that is the reason I'm asking for help 
I have the tendency to hate certain people before I even know them... and at times I wish for punishment to come upon people who I never met... just because they have some characteristics similar to those who have hurt me
for example, a long time ago, there were two bipolar people whom I became really close friends with... but it was when I trusted them most that they deliberately hurt me, and hurt me severely too and I was forced to turn away from them because it was too painful
... it then became hard for me to interact with bipolar people... deep down I know my prejudice is wrong but still I couldn't help the negative feelings... it had taken me several months of effort to overcome the feelings... now I have several bipolar friends... each of them are very unique individuals
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but then I still have problems with other sorts of people... I have an automatic hatred for women who publically brag about their beloved babies... that's because ther was once a woman like that... and she hurt me really badly simply because she thought I stole her friend...
and then I also have negative feelings towards people who are controlling, or manipulative, judging/critical... I have negative feelings towards black people too
I don't want to be this way
I have the tendency to hate certain people before I even know them... and at times I wish for punishment to come upon people who I never met... just because they have some characteristics similar to those who have hurt me
for example, a long time ago, there were two bipolar people whom I became really close friends with... but it was when I trusted them most that they deliberately hurt me, and hurt me severely too and I was forced to turn away from them because it was too painful

but then I still have problems with other sorts of people... I have an automatic hatred for women who publically brag about their beloved babies... that's because ther was once a woman like that... and she hurt me really badly simply because she thought I stole her friend...
and then I also have negative feelings towards people who are controlling, or manipulative, judging/critical... I have negative feelings towards black people too
I don't want to be this way