So I have become indifferent with my sister in law and my own family and wife's. I still love them, but I am indifferent. Let me explain what that means. It means I am done trying to be excepted by my family and my wife's. I no longer care if they like me or not. I know longer care what they think of me, i am hurt by their actions, but God helps me to control my emotions. I can still love them and be indifferent to how they feel about me.
I was at my sister-in-law's house today with my wife to pick her kids for a sleep over at my mother-in-law's house. She came from down stairs and said Hi, I said Hi, she gave me this look like i did not say hi to you, and then look at my oldest son and smile. So in other words she said hi to my oldest son not me. I have tired so hard to be liked by my wife's family. I thought because my family destroyed it self, and no one speaks to each other, her family might adopt me, and might become my family too. Her family has made it clear time and time again I am my wife's husband and not their brother, son or friend. They put up with me for my wife, but i get the impression they are waiting for her to move on to some one better. I have kept trying with them, but today i thought why? why do I even care. I don't need them to be my family, it would be nice, but they don't want it so why should i try. My family never excepted me. It's ok i have God my wife and kids. That is enough, it has to be.
So I am indifferent. I know some thing indifferent is the opposite of love, if that is true why do i still love them? The fact is its not the opposite but hate is. You can not love and hate at the same time. You can not love to hate. Hate does not have any quality with love. That is mho any way.
There comes a time when you must be objective with your emotions and not allow people to hurt you any more. You can still love them, but you just will not be treated that way any more. If someone is punching you and you move out of reach of the punches does that mean you don't love them because you are not willing to be hit any more? No, of course not that is just silly. So why can't a person do that with emotions? Is there some rule which states we must allow our heart to break over and over? I know the world would like us to think so but it's not true.
It can be like a game the other side plays. I am amazed at how many atheist get upset when you stop preaching say fine go to hell and walk away. They say that is messed up. That if I loved them i would stay around and force them to go to heaven, as if that was in my power, and take their abuse.
So what is messed up, doesn't mean I want them to go to hell, it means they would not accept my blessing and I am rooming my self from their house with my blessing, As Jesus instructed us to do. They will sit there and insult God, insult you and abuse you, and when a person says enough. they say you don't love me. I think it is a taste of what is to come, what God will say to them. it probably is the best thing you can do for them.
My wife's family is not atheist, they vary what the believe. Not why I wrote the last part just another point.
blu