In Total Awe

[CollectsBooks]

We can know the Lord has shown us things and yet when we go to share with others, even if they are saved, they may not see it. It can be a lonely experience at times.

That has been my experience lately, as well. But what a great encouragement you received.


I have definitely found myself in more awe and appreciation of God. My praise feels genuine now.

 

[myhopeisfound]

I decided that I wanted to go to church when I was 25, and I encountered years of wishy-washy, liberal, "believe what you like - it's all good" types of believers. Eventually it drove me to atheism, something for which (ironically) I thank God. After 11 years of atheism, arguing with Christians on forums and generally being a non-believer, everything changed in a car journey from London to Bristol. I instantly believed.

I was so blown away by the experience that it emptied my mind of all considerations that I chose God. It was clear that God had chosen me.

I've pursued discussions along the lines of self-deception, wishful thinking, guilt-driven conversion and the like. I don't buy it. My studies led me to examine a theology where God acts on Man and guess where I ended up?

My final conversion was about 3 years ago. In that time, my atheist son and his atheist wife have both become Reformed Christians, and church is the only place where my 5 month old grandson Caleb will sit for an hour and a half without a murmur. Only God can do that...

So I try to thank god every day, rather than giving myself the credit for being good enough to choose Him. It makes more sense that way.

Lovely, Amazing grace! I love your second paragraph.

I was brought up in the Reformed faith and I remember lying in bed one night as a rebellious teenager and not understanding WHY God would choose me, but understanding that He did. I knew I did not choose Him or cooperate with Him (<-that's for sure!). A few years ago, Grace became more dear to me after I really began to dig into why I believed what I believed. I was debating 'grace alone' and basically defending my faith with a close friend when I was brought to tears thinking about what our Savior actually accomplished on that cross and after. And that He chose to hang there for a pathetic person like me. It actually angers me that someone thinks they have anything to add to the atonement of Christ. I always knew and believed in Election and the sovereignty of God, but it really hit me as I dug further into His Word. So I definitely know what TwinMommy is saying! I thank our Lord every day for His Grace. It is absolutely humbling.