4 months ago, I began to realise I really liked a friend. Loving, godly, always working hard for the gospel. I approached her about whether dating/relationships would be a possibility, but she declined me saying we didn't get along. So basically, friend zoned. No interest.
In terms of head knowledge, I know I need to keep going on with my life. God has a bigger plan. I shouldn't dwell on it or let it bog me down because it can eventually lead to temptation and sin. But emotionally, (I feel dumb and immature in saying this), I've actually been having a really hard time trying to move on. Maybe my heart is being very stubborn and hopeful. I don't exactly know.
I've been trying to keep myself busy with church ministry, uni and meeting up with people. But it's been a bit hard because we're actually serving in the same area of ministry so we end up seeing each other at least 3 times a week (Sunday service, leaders meeting and bible study group). There are actually times when I get really emo and don't want to turn up to church/bible study/leaders meeting because I would have to see her. But I just saw that as selfish thing to do, because there are other people to look after and encourage for God, and I need to be committed to my responsibilities in serving people.
So I've been trying to grind it out, and then tonight I found out that she has a boyfriend.
Never for a moment have I doubted God throughout this ordeal, so much that I'd like to ask for brothers and sisters in Christ I haven't ever met to pray for me because I know that God's power and will is at work in all things.
But right now I'm feeling absolutely gutted, heart broken, sad and in need of prayer. Please pray for comfort and peace in my heart to continue serving God and His people and learning to rejoice for her in her relationship.
Thanks
In terms of head knowledge, I know I need to keep going on with my life. God has a bigger plan. I shouldn't dwell on it or let it bog me down because it can eventually lead to temptation and sin. But emotionally, (I feel dumb and immature in saying this), I've actually been having a really hard time trying to move on. Maybe my heart is being very stubborn and hopeful. I don't exactly know.
I've been trying to keep myself busy with church ministry, uni and meeting up with people. But it's been a bit hard because we're actually serving in the same area of ministry so we end up seeing each other at least 3 times a week (Sunday service, leaders meeting and bible study group). There are actually times when I get really emo and don't want to turn up to church/bible study/leaders meeting because I would have to see her. But I just saw that as selfish thing to do, because there are other people to look after and encourage for God, and I need to be committed to my responsibilities in serving people.
So I've been trying to grind it out, and then tonight I found out that she has a boyfriend.
Never for a moment have I doubted God throughout this ordeal, so much that I'd like to ask for brothers and sisters in Christ I haven't ever met to pray for me because I know that God's power and will is at work in all things.
But right now I'm feeling absolutely gutted, heart broken, sad and in need of prayer. Please pray for comfort and peace in my heart to continue serving God and His people and learning to rejoice for her in her relationship.
Thanks
