Nothing inspires me. Everything is just too darn hard. I just want to sleep. On a day off I'll sleep through the whole day. Saturday I was falling asleep in church and after service I went home and slept pretty much till Sunday night. I even neglected to go to the aged-care home where I volunteer, visiting with my therapy dog. I feel guilty about that, but it does give me the chance to go mid-week where I can speak to the head sister (about who particularly to visit, etc)
I have gone through this sleep life-avoidance thing before, but I usually manage to get up and do things where other people are involved - Not wanting to let them down, but also hiding the fact I am depressed. It seems I can let myself down, no worries.
It is so comfy and safe in bed, with my dog by side, keeping me warm. (I think she knows she's a therapy dog.)
I am about to start an 8 week course on depression recovery - I did the same course last year. It is run by Seventh Day Adventists, and this was what got me back to the church after 20-odd years of not going. For me, depression recovery and an active faith in God go hand-in-hand.
I just want to put my thoughts out there, cos if I write it down and people read it, I am accountable.
I have gone through this sleep life-avoidance thing before, but I usually manage to get up and do things where other people are involved - Not wanting to let them down, but also hiding the fact I am depressed. It seems I can let myself down, no worries.
It is so comfy and safe in bed, with my dog by side, keeping me warm. (I think she knows she's a therapy dog.)
I am about to start an 8 week course on depression recovery - I did the same course last year. It is run by Seventh Day Adventists, and this was what got me back to the church after 20-odd years of not going. For me, depression recovery and an active faith in God go hand-in-hand.
I just want to put my thoughts out there, cos if I write it down and people read it, I am accountable.
