Hello! I turned to God and Jesus when I had horrible, uncontrollable blasphemous thoughts, and now their almost gone! Yay! First, I actually made a post about 2-ish maybe? months ago about how "I can't live the Christian lifestyle", but for about a month I've been trying to live the Christian lifestyle super hard and trying, ut for the past 2-3 days, I've been looking back at my progress and what i've done, and things of the like, and I've noticed looking back it is wayyyyyyy too hard for me to follow all these Christian rules, and have been trying so hard over the past month and a half-ish to follow every single rule I can, and it is just straight up flat out too HARD. It's been super difficult for me adjusting to this lifestyle, and I can't see how it's possible for me to live my whole life like this. I'm still nice and, believe in everything God and Jesus have done, etc. but I think it is TOO hard for me to follow all these rules. I haven't given up yet though because I remember what Jesus has done for me, and that God didn't have to make me, but he did, out of trillions of other people he COULD OF made, but made me. I'm so incredibly stuck in this "pickle" right now, and need help. There are a few main sins that I am really having trouble on, which is following worldly authorities' rules, not swearing, and making sex jokes. Those are things that are just so unbelievably hard. One other thing is that I did this SO MUCH in the past, and that it's kind of molded into my sense of humor, and that is the only things I laugh at with my friends. Yes, I need new friends, but basically, everything is just so boring now without doing these things, which I know is really bad how these kind of things are really the only things I laugh at, but its nothing I can help. I've been so much all around more bored at school, which makes school more harder for me personally, and yeah, just, not sure what to do. I'm having an extreme amount of trouble living more Christianly, but its so amazingly hard.
EDIT: Let me kind of explain my problem a bit more, basically I'm just having trouble following some Christian rules, and its just kind of molded into my life. The thing is, is that I just don't feel that I can make the HUGGGEEE commitment of changing certain things in my life. I know that God and Jesus and the Holy Sprit will put in their work to help me, but I don't know how far I'll go to change myself. That's basically my problem. I want to, but I just feel like I couldn't keep that huge commitment.
EDIT: Let me kind of explain my problem a bit more, basically I'm just having trouble following some Christian rules, and its just kind of molded into my life. The thing is, is that I just don't feel that I can make the HUGGGEEE commitment of changing certain things in my life. I know that God and Jesus and the Holy Sprit will put in their work to help me, but I don't know how far I'll go to change myself. That's basically my problem. I want to, but I just feel like I couldn't keep that huge commitment.
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