Hi everyone!
I've been searching strongly for God lately, but it's been a bit hard for me to stay on my path of faith in the past few weeks. Please keep in mind that I do not wish to offend anyone, in any way. I am sincerely asking for your help on my search for the truth.
Sometimes I wonder about God, sometimes I wonder if God is really even there at all. If God really does exist, I wonder why he cannot just prove himself to me. God says He is all-powerful, so why is it not possible for him to do what I ask of Him so deeply? ... Instead, I have to live my life in denial, doubting and questioning, believing in something I have no REAL proof or evidence of, whatsoever. Sure, the bible says that it is God's word, and that I must read and obey it every day for the rest of my life, but how do I know that the mind isn't just powerful enough to make me believe in something so strongly, that it only becomes real in my mind? Sure, I can see that I exist, and that the plants and animals and everything else I perceive around me do, too, but that still does not prove that God exists. It also does not prove that I must believe in a God, who could very well just be part of my own imagination.
I don't understand how an all-powerful, all-knowing God could create man-kind, knowing exactly how He created man, and end up sending them to burn in Hell for all of eternity, if they do not repent and ask for forgiveness, although it is said that He created us, knowing exactly everything, every little detail about us, and what our actions would consist of throughout our lifetime. How can God love all of his children, yet send them to a burning inferno of eternal punishment and torture, if they are not worthy in the end? I know I would never do such a thing to my own children, no matter how much they would disobey me. If God created everything, he knew exactly everything that would come about; all our actions, all our desires, absolutely everything. He would have created Adam and Eve, and Satan, and set everything up to put us all into a world of sin. I also do not understand why God would give us such a powerful mind if he did not intend us to use it to our full potential. A mind that can achieve and create almost an infinite realm of all sorts of things. (The mind certainly is a beautiful thing, I must say.)
How does God expect me to believe in him if he does not show himself to me, especially after I've opened my heart to him (whom I don't even know exists, anymore.) God hates sin, and when I turned from sin, it seemed as if I turned from everything I knew to be alright... I didn't feel like I was a bad person in my past, I just did what I felt was right, and good for those whom I felt I could help, and I am a person who likes to have fun most the time, too. Once I turned from sin and started living a Christian life, over time, I became very unhappy, lifeless, dull, and not myself. Fearing what might happen to my soul, I started to try to love God, more and more, as much as I could. But then I began to feel as if my love for God was very artificial, only created through my fears of Hell. Is this the kind of love that a God would intend us to have? It seems like such a selfish kind of love. (Love me and obey me, or else you will suffer and burn in Hell for all of eternity.)
How come God expects me to believe in this religion and not any other religion? Why does God not show me the truth Himself? Where is God? What if we are all here for a completely different reason that is yet to be found?
And one more thing for now; what would the discovery of intelligent extraterrestrial life in space mean to Christianity? (I have been hearing a great deal of information about this stuff, recently.)
Thank you all for your precious time and feedback !!! It really means a lot to me!
I've been searching strongly for God lately, but it's been a bit hard for me to stay on my path of faith in the past few weeks. Please keep in mind that I do not wish to offend anyone, in any way. I am sincerely asking for your help on my search for the truth.
Sometimes I wonder about God, sometimes I wonder if God is really even there at all. If God really does exist, I wonder why he cannot just prove himself to me. God says He is all-powerful, so why is it not possible for him to do what I ask of Him so deeply? ... Instead, I have to live my life in denial, doubting and questioning, believing in something I have no REAL proof or evidence of, whatsoever. Sure, the bible says that it is God's word, and that I must read and obey it every day for the rest of my life, but how do I know that the mind isn't just powerful enough to make me believe in something so strongly, that it only becomes real in my mind? Sure, I can see that I exist, and that the plants and animals and everything else I perceive around me do, too, but that still does not prove that God exists. It also does not prove that I must believe in a God, who could very well just be part of my own imagination.
I don't understand how an all-powerful, all-knowing God could create man-kind, knowing exactly how He created man, and end up sending them to burn in Hell for all of eternity, if they do not repent and ask for forgiveness, although it is said that He created us, knowing exactly everything, every little detail about us, and what our actions would consist of throughout our lifetime. How can God love all of his children, yet send them to a burning inferno of eternal punishment and torture, if they are not worthy in the end? I know I would never do such a thing to my own children, no matter how much they would disobey me. If God created everything, he knew exactly everything that would come about; all our actions, all our desires, absolutely everything. He would have created Adam and Eve, and Satan, and set everything up to put us all into a world of sin. I also do not understand why God would give us such a powerful mind if he did not intend us to use it to our full potential. A mind that can achieve and create almost an infinite realm of all sorts of things. (The mind certainly is a beautiful thing, I must say.)
How does God expect me to believe in him if he does not show himself to me, especially after I've opened my heart to him (whom I don't even know exists, anymore.) God hates sin, and when I turned from sin, it seemed as if I turned from everything I knew to be alright... I didn't feel like I was a bad person in my past, I just did what I felt was right, and good for those whom I felt I could help, and I am a person who likes to have fun most the time, too. Once I turned from sin and started living a Christian life, over time, I became very unhappy, lifeless, dull, and not myself. Fearing what might happen to my soul, I started to try to love God, more and more, as much as I could. But then I began to feel as if my love for God was very artificial, only created through my fears of Hell. Is this the kind of love that a God would intend us to have? It seems like such a selfish kind of love. (Love me and obey me, or else you will suffer and burn in Hell for all of eternity.)
How come God expects me to believe in this religion and not any other religion? Why does God not show me the truth Himself? Where is God? What if we are all here for a completely different reason that is yet to be found?
And one more thing for now; what would the discovery of intelligent extraterrestrial life in space mean to Christianity? (I have been hearing a great deal of information about this stuff, recently.)
Thank you all for your precious time and feedback !!! It really means a lot to me!