I'm Tired of Hurting

[mrslisae]

I've gone round and round with pastors and church people. I don't know if its a healing or a deliverance that I seek. I don't believe I did anything to be punished for. I don't even know where I stand on that belief.

I've spent a lot of money going from doctor to doctor. I've gone through many painful tests. Am I a survivor of shaken baby or early childhood trauma? I don't know. I only remember age 5 or 6 on. There were some pretty serious injuries along the way but I don't know what to think about my doctor's theory of the "delayed triggers ". I don't know if I suffered a stroke. I don't know if it was the stress of the attack. I don't know if it was the neck injury that triggered it all. I don't know if I'm cursed. I just don't know.

All I know is that I believe God heals and I'm tired of hurting all the time. Physically and Emotionally, I don't want to go on.

I've been through so much in my 28yrs. I really just want to rest. I'm trying not to let myself lose hope. I still try to eat and I try to at least stretch daily. I'm just in so much pain and I want it to stop.

The thing that concerns me most is that the pain intensifies when I open the Bible, try to listen to a Christian song, come into a Christian forum, or enter a church.

So call it a healing or a deliverance. I'm in need today. I don't want to hurt anymore but I don't know what else I should be doing.

 

[peacechild4]

((Hugs)) Aww sister.. If I could be with you in person.. and you felt able to hug me and were comfortable doing so.. I would just give you a big hug!!

Is that you in the picture.. Yes I clicked on it.. and it is you and your daughter.. what beautiful faces you both have!!

Your pain touches my heart.. I can understand from what you have shared that you must feel very weary..

I cannot promise you anything.. but I can turn your needs to the one who can!!

Father God lead me as I pray.. I realise I can do nothing but my sister here needs Your help.. and I can pray for her.. that is something I can do!!
Father guide me by Your Holy Spirit and thank You that because of Jesus I am made righteous and a woman who is righteous can pray effective prayers!!
Father God You know of the many tests.. the many false promises and lack of lasting help Buzy Mom has received.. Father she does need deliverance and healing!! Deliverance from the past hurts and deliverance from tiredness and heaviness of heart that must surely rob her of joy and peace.. Father whatever it is called she needs rest.. and only You can give her that.. Father I ask that Buzy Mom receives rest and deliverance of any and every symptom that causes her body to hurt and be in pain.. Father thank You that Jesus came to set us free not only from our sins but also the whole curse of the law.. Father God only through Jesus can we be healed.. delivered and set free!! Father I pray that this precious mom finds everything she needs.. be it through a person or persons.. a ministry.. or church.. or even just a release of the anointing as I pray... But we know that this comes only through You... Father we are laying her needs before You knowing only You can heal and help her.. She is acknowledging You in coming for prayer and using what faith she has.. and I join my faith with hers and pray for release from symptoms when she is seeking You.. so that in her persistance to seek You she is able to do that which You desire for her to do.. I ask for her symptoms to get better not worse every time she spends time in prayer, bible study, in the forums here, in a church.. etc.. Anywhere where she is going to get stronger and grow I pray that she is energized and more on fire then ever before!! Thank You Lord she is doing the right things by seeking You and asking for prayer.. Father I know this can not be done by might, nor by power but only by Your Spirit.. So I invite the Holy Spirit to enter in and do the work in this precious sister as He is so needed to do!! We wait in expectation for Your presence to do what mankind so far has not been able to do!! In Jesus name.. amen

 

[tturt]

praying for you

 

[327]

I understand how it feels to be tired mentally of being in pain physically and or spiritually. When I read you post I heard "How is her thinking and what is she saying?"

Sometimes the enemy tries to speak lies about my health. So I just come against him with the word of God. Recently I was bent over in pain (my ovary is in the process of being healed) so I just thought it was funny how I told someone God heal me and I felt no pain. Then the next day it hit me so hard, I couldnt do anything but smile because I knew satan was a liar.

I was praising and thanking God the whole 20 minutes I was experiencing that pain. I started giving Him the glory for my healing and that pain ceased.

We are spiritual beings so we need spriitual food. God's word is the key to any sickness. Think about the promises He said and believe in God that you already have it. I walk around saying I am healed when I feel like a mess. God always healed me though.

Change your thinking and what you say. It makes a big difference. We have the chance to change our lives by the way we think and speak

 

[peacechild4]

BuzyMom.. I prayed at home for you this morning.. I have not forgotten you!! ((Hugs))

Thank you to tturt and 327 for your encouragment!!

We stand together \0/

Ecclesiastes 4:12
Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

 

[Determinedheart]

I've gone round and round with pastors and church people. I don't know if its a healing or a deliverance that I seek. I don't believe I did anything to be punished for. I don't even know where I stand on that belief.

I've spent a lot of money going from doctor to doctor. I've gone through many painful tests. Am I a survivor of shaken baby or early childhood trauma? I don't know. I only remember age 5 or 6 on. There were some pretty serious injuries along the way but I don't know what to think about my doctor's theory of the "delayed triggers ". I don't know if I suffered a stroke. I don't know if it was the stress of the attack. I don't know if it was the neck injury that triggered it all. I don't know if I'm cursed. I just don't know.

All I know is that I believe God heals and I'm tired of hurting all the time. Physically and Emotionally, I don't want to go on.

I've been through so much in my 28yrs. I really just want to rest. I'm trying not to let myself lose hope. I still try to eat and I try to at least stretch daily. I'm just in so much pain and I want it to stop.

The thing that concerns me most is that the pain intensifies when I open the Bible, try to listen to a Christian song, come into a Christian forum, or enter a church.

So call it a healing or a deliverance. I'm in need today. I don't want to hurt anymore but I don't know what else I should be doing.

Lord, may your love reach down and touch the heart of buzymom, she is in need of you... sometimes we feel you are far but we thank you that you never leave us. I pray for healing in all areas she needs. God, in our weakness you are strong, thank you that you supply all our needs , we ask you to fill her heart with hope and to have a life of fullness and abundance, peace and health. May your angels watch over her and keep her safe and may she know how very much you love her and accept her just the way she is today, and love her enough to lead her to a stronger, hopeful path of tommorow.

Buzymom, one step closer to God is one stepcloser to overcoming all things.

Keep searching for God and learning more about Him. He can heal you and He can bring you peace and He is full of hope, so if you are looking for any of these things walk towards Him, do not stand still, when you move He will become closer and your circumstance WILL change.

 

[HoneyComb Son]

Hello Buzymom..i have read some of your posts and threads on this forum.and was touched..

i just want to encourage you not to give up..but always have hope..no matter what....just have hope and keep in there

God bless

 

[Elijah2]

I've gone round and round with pastors and church people. I don't know if its a healing or a deliverance that I seek. I don't believe I did anything to be punished for. I don't even know where I stand on that belief.
When we continually going from pastor to pastor in all directions trying to establish why we are so, then this indicates that we are suffering from a spirit of rejection and orphan.

Most tend to feel alone, lonely and have no one to turn to.

We feel at times that there is a dark shadow walking beside us, and everything that we touch seems to slip through our fingers like sand does.

We need healing and a miracle, which is referred to as deliverance.

Our spirit is down and our body is weak.

We seem to suffer from many undiagnosable illnesses and our doctor shakes their head.

I've spent a lot of money going from doctor to doctor. I've gone through many painful tests.
There you are, just what I had said.

Am I a survivor of shaken baby or early childhood trauma?
Your symptoms are of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

Your heart is broken, and it needs to be healed. To heal a heart, you have to peel back the layers one at a time, layer by layer, hurt, by hurt, and so on.

I don't know. I only remember age 5 or 6 on. There were some pretty serious injuries along the way but I don't know what to think about my doctor's theory of the "delayed triggers ".
Sadly, most doctors don't want to know, because it's too hard, and by prescribing drugs is the quickest and simplest means of getting a person out of their hair. Now, those doctors are ones that I know from my past experiences and experiences of other people who suffer the same as you.

I don't know if I suffered a stroke. I don't know if it was the stress of the attack. I don't know if it was the neck injury that triggered it all. I don't know if I'm cursed. I just don't know.
My dear sister, when we try to assess our ills through our carnal mind, then the enemy will torment and harass. The mind is a battleground.

The heart is where a Christian work, the heart is the spiritual mind.

But, before you get that heart to take in His Word, it needs to be healed.

Our Lord Jesus Christ came to heal the broken-hearted and to deliver the captives from bondage.

You are not cursed, but you are a "bruised reed".

All I know is that I believe God heals and I'm tired of hurting all the time. Physically and Emotionally, I don't want to go on.
My dear sir, our Lord Jesus Christ loves you, the same as many other Christians love you. But sadly, many of those other Christians are also suffering and have only enough strength for themselves.

This is why, when you have gone from pastor to pastor or from person to person, they are suffering just as much as you are, and they cannot help.

BUT, by the grace and mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ, you will be set free in Jesus' Name.

I've been through so much in my 28yrs. I really just want to rest. I'm trying not to let myself lose hope. I still try to eat and I try to at least stretch daily. I'm just in so much pain and I want it to stop.
Please explain the pain you are going through, and you can explain that to me by PM, and not broadcast it over the forum, if you wish.

The thing that concerns me most is that the pain intensifies when I open the Bible, try to listen to a Christian song, come into a Christian forum, or enter a church.
Please PM, because those reason are really deepdown personal reasons.
So call it a healing or a deliverance. I'm in need today. I don't want to hurt anymore but I don't know what else I should be doing.
You have done the right things by calling out for help, but the path is long and narrow, and their is no "quick fix".

But, you can be set free and healed in Jesus' Name.

Heavenly Father, we come to You through our Lord Jesus Christ, and we confess Your Word concerning healing. As we do this, we believe and say that Your Word will not return to You void, but will accomplish what it says it will.

Therefore, we believe and say in Jesus' Name that Buzymom is healed according to 1 Peter 2:24.

It is written in Your Word, Matthew 8:17, that our Lord Jesus Christ, Himself took our infirmities and bore our sicknesses. Therefore, with great boldness and confidence we say on the authority of that Written Word that Buzymom is redeemed from the curse of sickenss and Buzymom refuses to tolerate it symptoms now, in Jesus' Name.

Satan, we speak to you in Jesus' Name, and by power of our Almighty God, and say that your principalites, powers, master spirits who rule the present darkness, and your spiritual wickedness in heavenly places are bound from operating against Buzymom in any way.

Buzymom is loosed from your assignment. Buzymom is the property of our Almighty God, and we give you no place in her life, right now, in Jesus' Name.

Buzymom dwells, abides, remains stable and fixed under the shadow of our Almighty God, whose power no foe can withstand, in Jesus' Name.

And we know, right now, Lord Jesus Christ, that we have assurance of Your Word that the angel of our Lord encamps around her. No evil shall befall her, in Jesus' Name.

 

[gointhenameofjesus]

I can relate to a lot of what you have said. I suffer daily from pain from head to toe. I have fibromyalgia. I suffer from migranes sometimes 5 or more in one month.
I have been thru deliverance and I got some better. I pray for people all the time to be delivered and healed. When I start praying for these people my pain gets worse. But I keep praying. I believe God for my healing. I have faith in his promises and I won't stop believeing.
I will keep you in prayer.
God Bless You

 

[VengeanceofGOD]

I would like to say that Elijah2 is right on the money with his prayer. When he says we SPEAK to you he is taking the authority of Christ as the ambassadors we all are.....I might be new to the forums but not new to prayer! Pray the prayers OUT LOUD, speak to them and take your authority over them.

Please make sure you have no strongholds on your heart, bitterness, or unforgiveness. I will keep you in my prayers

 

[Jewelz]

I will add you to my prayers...God bless you hun

 

[restore]

Honey, God is not a punishing God, I used to feel hard to talk to God hard to read bible , too, still feel v comfortable to open bible,.........
but I v made so much progress in healing lately, not by myself, but by God.
also I know that sister 327, she is a living testimony , God healed her .

 

[Elijah2]

I can relate to a lot of what you have said. I suffer daily from pain from head to toe. I have fibromyalgia. I suffer from migranes sometimes 5 or more in one month.
I have been thru deliverance and I got some better. I pray for people all the time to be delivered and healed. When I start praying for these people my pain gets worse. But I keep praying. I believe God for my healing. I have faith in his promises and I won't stop believeing.
I will keep you in prayer.
God Bless You

Yep, there are many like you and me, and all we want most of all that HIS WILL will be done. So I pray for everyone else for their healing, and continue believing in faith that my healing will come.

Yes, the more I plant the see, the more I pray for others, the more I stand up and be counted, the more I standfast and submit to our Lord, the more the enemy comes at me trying to break me down.

My faith is strong, and I fight a good fight of faith in our Lord Jesus Christ, in Jesus' Name.